So today Jon brought up what is he going to do when I go to college.  How I'd rather avoid the subject :P.  I wish that he could come with me.  I can barely last a week without him how would I last several months.  I love him I really do.  I never want to have to leave him for college but I'm going to have to... the comforting thought is that it'll be a while before I go to college.

"When one door closes, another one opens, and five more slam in your face"

Once again someone, namely my mother, holds higher expectations for me then everyone else, and I just don't reach them.  Okay, so it was my first time driving on the road not having 2 hours of driving experience already, she asked if im ready feeling confident I said yes.  But in the car she begins yelling and I'm nervous already but yelling only increases that.  She really knows how to break a spirit and eat at confidence.  For everyone who told me I couldn't drive, you win.

Break my Spirit, I'm getting used to it.

what am i doing wrong?
why is it always my fault?
why can't i be everything you want?
im just trying to be the best for us?why am i the one always crying?
...and why dont you care...
there's only so much i can take.