| You know what sucks? I finally found love, but it had to come with a great price....secrecy...I hate it, but love is worth the wait...I will wait for you libby....I know that I have been really mean sometimes...accusing that you do not understand me, but I guess it's because I fail to understand how your life is. That there are way too many things that cannot be helped. I probably expect too much from you, even though I think of it as just a little bit. Love hurts, wasnt love supposed to be good?....isnt it good? Or am I just making things complicated. Forget it, it's better for me to carry all the blame so atleast I am protecting you. Damnit, why are your parents so overprotective of you...I dont want to say love has betrayed me, but it certainly feels like it...or maybe I am just weak, and cannot handle love. But I dont care, I will handle it for your sake Libby. Because if I lose you, I refuse to give my heart to anyone else, because it belongs to you....even though I am afraid to be lonely once more.. I have waited 18 years, I think I am mature enough to figure out what love is, so fuck off if you other people are thinking I'm just being over dramatic or say that I dont know love because I have one girlfriend my whole life. Why dont you people just leave us alone and let us be happy? |
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| Maybe it was best for me to stay the same, and not have changed at all....so atleast I will be the only one to suffer, and no one else..I'm a traitor....and I do not deserve friends like you all.... |
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| Good friday...it really was a GOOD friday lol...well here's the rundown on things..
-woke up early
-long drive
-met Grace
-Galleria
- Ice Skating for the first time  .... then falling on my butt for the first time too 
-Tapioca...and matt finally liking it for the first time
- Park/Basketball
-saying our goodbyes 
- not so long drive
- many questions asked along the way 
- very tired when I came home
..yes it certainly was a GOOD friday JUST BLAZE |
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|   I hope to spend more nights like these... too bad we were missing some important people to complete the group  |
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| Before the break I thought I was failing.....I just received the grades I'm getting for my classes....
Anatomy&Physiology- 86.5
English 1302- 88
History 1302- 85
Psychology 1301 - 90
..............................nothin left to say but ...THANK GOD!!! ..... looks like things are starting to get better for me now...thank you....
but still ... although things are getting better ...I still cannot help but feel like this at times.. ..oh how I miss you....... |
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