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Name: free fall
Gender: Male
Interests: playing sports, watching movies, chillin, long drives, different cultures, travelling
Expertise: small talk, after that i am the quietest person,
giving pep talks
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Member Since:
5/10/2002
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| couldnt sleep so i wrote this real quick...
its been a while since we last saw each other
being with you makes me feel uneasy
nervous to see
anxious to be
say good bye to free
will it be just you and me
but to see you in the arms of another
i start to change my mood
i hope he feels pain
i hope he loses control
i hope he cant regain
but he is as nice as todays weather
i guess i shouldnt hate
that if by fate
its meant to be
you and he
just understand
it is always for you
my look, my attitude, my word
but i must concede now to the feeling of some depair
travel miles consistent every week
in weather that would make anyone shreik
i hope you can see
not everyone can make me move
not everyone can make me try new things
not everyone can make me better
without you my days are not as warm
i go to another only to keep my options open
so i can keep that feeling of home
even if its a fake feeling
its a feeling that will go on
when i starve she feeds me but i am not satisfied
when i am with you all i need is a taste
i must make haste
for the hour is near
when i will dream of you
hopefully it will be of us two
and not the two of you
who get the right
to say we won the fight
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| some crazy ish happened ... this morning i was trying to sleep and i
was about to go into sleep paralysis but i startd to control it. it was
kinda cool and weird at he same time... i felt my self start to tense
up so i said oh shit im going into sleep paralysis. well istarted
moving my hands while i was asleep and it was woring so i couldnt fully
go into s. P. but i was at a point where i felt like i was gonna get s.
P. but i would be testing the waters. i said to myself if i am dreaming
the time on the clock in my room wouldnt change.. so i quickly looked
for a clock and bam there was a blurry clock to my left. then there was
a poster hanging on my wall but i know my walls are bare so i knew i
was dreaming. it almost felt good to know i was phasing in and out of
dream mode. so i woke up. and i looked to the left no clock ... hahaha
. there are no clocks in my room. so i would go back to sleep and as i
tensed up i would wake up. now you know how i said there were posters
on the wall. well the figures that were on the wall were
1: a silhouette of a diesel person with horns and white eyes..
2: bald eagle head
3: just a pair of eyes... like the no fear eyes...
felt really in control of the whole situation...
almost felt fun having s. P.
but the freaky part is my dad was having a night mare to around the
same time if not earlier... except he had 5 unfriendly beings that
didnt want him to reach a certain destination... he said he was yelling
and my mom had to wake him up... wow... crazy right... well i just
talked to my bro and he didnt have any nightmares yesterday... well
we'll see whats up tonite...nuttin funny to write except my dads laptop
doestn work... it says there is no OS... does leaving it out in the
cold have anythignto do with it... i left it in my car during the past
2 snow days... sh!t i think its still in warranty...
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| to cuteplnay:
the thing is i dont think its a dream i thought i was awake...
everything is where its supposed to be... i think if you drastically
alter your sleepin pattern it can cause that...
my mom thinks its because i drink too much. see says my pancreas and my
gallbladder have been severly damaged as a result of my alcoholic
ways....
i on the other hand believe drinking is the solution... i didnt have any episodes during my last week's drink a day belief...
ive been clean for 3 days i think i need to drink again soon... wait tomorrow is new year's
HAPPY NEW YEARS every one you are all one year older again.... so ill
see you next year... if i wake up without a hangover maybe we'll chillax
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| recently i have had episodes of sleep paralysis... i guess im not the only one... sleep paralysis study
you feel like you are awake and cant move
have an outer body experience
feel like floating
feel like something is holding you down
feel like something is suffocating you
feel like you have no control over your own body
crazy...
gotta minimize the 4 hour sleep pattern... i dont think its been
happening while ive been drinkin. i stopped yesterday lets see how
sleeping goes now...
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| so there went day one of the new school year. just like my summer started out slow as hell this semester is starting out slow as hell. picked up a used book and hid other used books so no one could buy them hehehe... got the new sticker for the semester, saw the pc lab girl, hehe, saw my six, saw lots of classmates... saw the speaker box girl that was at rio, not sure if that was shorty but she looked like her, saw the new campus center, saw the empty pub... thought about a senior project...
got lots o rush events comin up, mite swing over to brunswick for fat cats next week, probably go bowling soon...
havent blogged in a couple days so i got a new for yah see if you can figure it out
the bed's a little bit emptier, its a little bit colder, i feel less pain without you, i didnt need your soft touch to put me to sleep, i dont need to know if you were by my side when i close my eyes, i dont need to know where you sleep, i dont need to know anything. i just know ill find you tomorrow and it'll be like nothing happened because somehow you'll end up in my bed... again.
how you like that one? do you got a clue?  | | |
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