| I can't fuckin' stand my life somedays. I mean it is a good one, but all the same, I just get so fuckin' pissed by the little things because they never fucking stop. I just want everyone to pay attention to what they are doing and their surroundings. It can't really be that hard if I do it every day of my life, can it? Last I checked I wasn't any sort of super hero. Once someone, just one person can return the things I do, or at least try... I will be a really happy person, but somewhere I missed the memo that I shouldn't get what I want or deserve. I just feel that I should get out of life what I put into life, and I assure you that I am not getting a whole lot. It doesn't seem to matter how many times I point this out, it just stays the same. Always. Am I really going to end up 40 years from now the exact same person in the exact same life position putting up with the things I've hated for the past 60? I hate to admit that I am going to join the other 6.5 billion, or whatever, people on this planet. My question is why do I or anyone else not deserve to be happy, I mean like on a spiritual level. I am happy for the most part, esp. if I remember to take my antipsychotic, yet I come back to this place of loathing so I feel as though it has some sort of reason.
Whatever, I mean I am probably just overacting and thinking for that matter, but honestly I don't care. I want to be happy, and I honestly think that I should be. |
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| ... and the bull shit keeps rollin' in.
I can't wait for this one. Why am I the stupid one?? |
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| :: Survivor Man ::
How many times do you have to fuck up, to get something right?
I totally made a bitch walk the fuck off her job.
Too bad I didn't even try or mean for it to happen.
I'm just toooo hardcore to know my own impressions.
: )
I suck. |
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| I miss having nice skin.
Why did I bother frying my system if it didn't help...
Ok, so for something non-emo...
Have a great day!? |
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| I really miss the old.
The older.
And the oldest.
But, god, do I love the new!! |
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