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| prophetic dreams? maybe not but kinda maybe?[Listening to] AJ Rafael - Stuck On You/Wonderful Tonight
I've come to realize that my brain may be wired to the networking of future events and beyond. Maybe not but I think that mostly through my dreams and sometimes random hunches, my brain is able to send me a signal that I'll be seeing/hearing from someone in the near future. This has happened three significant times, one of them today hence my sudden urge to blog about this, in 5 years. Ok, maybe 3 times in 5 years isn't reliable data or evidence to my brains "beyond natural abilities" [haha, wtf] but how many people can really say they've had the same experience that many times in that time interval. Not many I suppose.
teh THREE experiences:
Experience One [8/17/03] : The first time it happened, it wasn't a dream, it was a hunch. The day before [8/16] was my brother's 17th birthday and his party. This was during the time of Manuel. Before that day, we hadn't really spoken to each other for months and the family had not been communicating for reasons unknown. During the typical house clean-up before visitors arrived, I suddenly thought about Manuel and his fambam and asked my mom if we could invite them. My mom, who was hesitant and suspicious of my motives [which I was myself as well], called them up to see if they could come over. It wasn't a sure thing if they were coming but I was really REALLY hoping they'd come but in the back of my mind, I knew they weren't. Despite having a fun time on my bro's birthday, I was still kinda bummed the next morning that they hadn't came. So an hour after waking up, I had this weird hunch that Manuel was online. But why would he? He was NEVER online those days. Rarely. Literally almost never. I sign on to the whack ass AOL, and there I find Manuel present on my buddy list. WTF?! moment, indeed. Since that moment, it started the whole up and down rollercoaster friendship with Manuel -- lame...but yeah that's how it started for both these weird mind signals and the whack ass friendship I have with the douche.
Experience Two [9/16/05]: The second time occured during the second to last month before Jordan and I collapsed as friends. It also happen to be the night before my birthday/the morning of my birthday. I've never mentioned this dream to anyone but I had a dream before my birthday that on my birthday, my dad had allowed me to stay home from school. That morning I skipped school, Jordan comes to my house to greet me, leaves, but comes back and decides to hang with me.To make things short and vague cause I'm still iffy on openly talking about this dream, the dream ends with us watching TV on my couch with Jordan's arms wrapped around my waist and me holding his head to my chest. Cheesy ass moment but honestly, I physically felt that hug. I was awaken by the sound of my phone. When I opened my eyes, and found myself only to wrapped up in my comforters, I was so effing bummed. Anyways, I had received a text. It was Jordan texting me to say he was sorry that he had fallen asleep on the phone that night and wanted to say happy birthday. Sigh. I also realized that morning other things I had felt about him and I knew something bad was gonna happen sometime soon [a month later -_-]...
Experience Three/Today [7/19/08]: A few weeks ago, I started to talk to an old friend again. He's about three years younger than me. His dad and my dad hate each others' guts. Yeap. Last night he randomly showed up in my dream. Nothing too out of the blue, just strange that'd he show up in my dream cause I haven't talked to him in a few weeks. Like every Saturday morning, my dad drops me off to piano lessons. On our way there this morning, we stop at a stoplight behind a car that happened to be my old friend's dad's car. It was him and his dad in front of us. Hahaha. Though I didn't get to see him face to face, I found it funny that I dreamt of him last night and happen to see him the next day. Weird stuff.
I guess this all happens cause I end up thinking about someone excessively and they show up in my dream but that wasn't the case the third time it happened. Also, the last two experiences ended with significant out comes. Is it a sign that I'll be seeing my old friend, forreals sometime soon!?! I better -_-; Just to be technical: each experience are 2 or 3 years apart, they all happened during the summer, and the dates happen to be a few days apart. Dundundundun. It's mindboggling for me so whatevvsss.
Other stuff on my mind:
- Do I really have the capabilities of being successful at VCUarts? I still don't think my artistic ability is up to par with a majority of the students who got accepted at VCUarts. They've all taken art classes, ended up in AP Art, partaken in art shows, etc. While me, I don't even know. Hopefully they knew what they thinking and wanting when they decided to remove me from the wait-list. Then again, if the art I submitted to them was a representation of a potential VCUart student, then my art has to be somewhat up to par -- but then again, they had to think twice before letting me in. Overanalyzing much? Indeed.
- I miss being attached to someone. Haha! Despite all the shitty drama that unfolded during those days, I just really need a guy to be attached to. I'm not saying I'm desperate for a boyfriend right now, I just miss the attention from one guy. Twas nice. Guess I'll have to wait till I get to VCU. Oh the variety.
 
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| orientated & NY de nuevo[Listening to] AJ Rafael, Mark Mejia & Albert Posis - Every Time I Close My Eyes (Babyface cover)
Phew. So I've done a bunch of shiz for the past few week and a half. Sometime earlier this month, I went swimming for the second time this summer. I only point this out 'cause usually I'm an avid swimmer during the summer. It probably has to do with the many visitors that have stayed in our house for the past two[?] summers and this summer just hasn't been as visitor-filled. Before leaving for the VCU orientation [which I'll get to in this entry], I did a 58 song playlist on Rock Band with Az & Dana. I don't know if ever mentioned this in my last entry cause I honestly don't remember when the last time I wrote in this thing and I'm too lazy to check. Anyways, it took us 4 freakin' hours to do. Woo. Also, I helped my Dad put up shelves in the garage so we can clear out the damn thing and put maybe TWO cars in it? A two car garage that can only fit one because of all the junk in there is a huge failure. In the process of putting up these shelves, I was able to go through boxes of childhood and sort out all the toys. It's crazy; all of my brother's and my toys filled up I think 4 shelves out of the 6 we put up x_X; They span the whole garage wall too so that's alot of toys. Surprisingly I was willing to throw some of them out despite my resentment to trash the damn things. Apparently my Dad is just as attached to them, hence not throwing anything out.
[Wednesday7/9] The parentals and I headed off to VCU for the orientation at around 1 or 2? We had packed enough for the orientation and 3 or 4 days in NY. We planned to go straight up to NY after orientation which was 2 days. I have no idea why it was 2 days being that my brother's freshmen orientation at JMU was just one day. Plus we paid so much for those two days, its ridiculous. Getting to Richmond, it was mad freaking humid. Unexpected. We arrived at the campus a bit early so we had decided to leave my stuff in the car which was a dumb idea because by the time we walked to the area we needed to be, 5 minutes later, they were calling students to sign in but I had to walk back like 5 blocks to the parking garage to get my shit. *sigh* It did not start out very well because my mother was being naggy as she usually is which was irritating both my dad and me. siigh. Anyways, after signing in, students had to go and bring their stuff into their assigned room at Brandt, the newer, nicer housing at VCU. The rooms are way bigger than I expected, definitely bigger compared to the one my bro had in JMU. The only downside to the room was that looking at the entrance from the inside of the room, looked like a hospital room. o_o; But yeah, students were rounded up to get their VCU ID's taken. It was mad hott and sticky plus I was still irritated by my mom so I wasn't in a very social mood. Everyone was just talking blah blah while I kept to myself. I tried to be social, but it just didn't work out. Most of the people around me were very perky type people um, x_X; Alot of art students too, which I thought would make me more open but it definitely didn't. My ID looks bad :] We ended up waiting for like 15 minutes outside the building .. then waiting some more in line, in the building, then 20 minute outside for everyone to finish. OK SO -- there was this one guy, I think he was Filipino? [next day I see him with his Dad whose white so he must've been half something] who was keeping to himself but he was kinda cute, kinda interesting fella -- I wished I said hi and befriended him cause he looked pretty chill. I'll refer to him as the hat guy cause he had a hat on backwards the whole time at orientation lol. I would've said hi on our walk to the cafeteria for dinner but this one chick, Angela started talking to me. She's cool, I guess. She was the first person I became "friends" with on this little orientation. I stuck around her cause she approached me and well it's always nice to stick around with someone whose willing to stick around with you so yeah. As far as I can see, she's more of an aquaintence if I were really going to rate her on my little friend system. We've got some things in common: Graphic Design desired as a major, Art Foundation student, parents are from NYC [Queens], etc. but she wasn't a very good conversationalist o_O; UM. I felt like I was too out there for her, and thats not saying much on her part because I really don't present that type of person when you first meet me. *shrugs* While we were eating, I spotted the guy finally talking to someone, a chick, but whatevs yo. Tis my fault for not having the balls to go up to him lool. After lunch, we were separated into assigned groups which contained students of the same major. We played a buncha ice breaker shits. Games that I've made freshmen play, lammmme. It sucks when the tables turn but whatevs. It was ok. Kinda boring. There was one guy in my group and he was from C'ville too. He goes to CHS. I was stuck to his cellphone the whole time. Lame. There were quite a few people from C'ville. Well not really. Max was there, a guy whose friends with my Filipino CHS friends and who I had met at Hannah's 18th. I spotted some underclassmen from MHS at VCU doing Governor's School, ahaha. Strange. As for other people I "befriended", there was Mara, a Korean chick who was kinda shy and hard to talk to since she was so introverted. I made small chit chat with a buncha people but nothing too much. At one point of the night, we were watching SuperBad which surprised me much cause.. really? They show this shit at freshmen orientation. That says much about VCU lol. We were back in our dorm rooms by 10:15 ish. I had accidentally put my shit in a room that wasn't mine. I didn't know the letters on our keys corresponded to rooms so I had put my stuff down in a random room. It was ok, cause the person who really had my bed was cool -- Jovanna. I like her, she 's pretty nice and sure I'll be keeping in touch with her. Jovanna, Nicole [her cousin], and Me talked for a good hour or so. It was cool. My roommate was out the whole night. Kinda strange.. and awkward by morning but whatevs, I liked that I had the room to myself that night.
[Thursday 7/10] I couldn't sleep the whole night. Not even an hour straight. It was horrible. My legs were killing me for some reason and the beds weren't comfy enough to help. My roommate came back at 6:30 something in the AM.. a few minutes after house calls. .... WOOW. Anyway, when I was downstairs returning my key and waiting for groups to leave for Breakfast, I spotted Max in line returning his key. I had saw him the previous day but didn't say hi cause we passed each other and that's about it. The hat guy was down there too, I would've said hi but he was with that girl o___o; LOL so yeah. I hung around Max that morning basically since I already knew him. I ate breakfast with him and other guys he was hanging out with last night.. people on his floor and stuff. I found it funny cause I spotted Angela a few tables behind us.. and I had told her that I usually socialize better with guys, and thats what I was doing that morning...loool. I had a better time socializing with Max and the guys than with Mara and Angela and the other girls I was surrounded by during the day. Tsk. I spotted the hat guy right next to our table with the girl but they weren't talking. Looked kinda awkward. I kinda wanted to call him out and save him from the silent awkwardness they were having but of course I didn't :] There was this strange dude sitting with us.. who apparently lived in Australia sometime in his life and was in jail too. He had "crazy" stories that I missed. Haha, whatevs. After breaky, we met up with our parents at the Theater near the building. It's pretty cool cause Chris Rock was coming on the Friday of that week so that must indicate that good acts come Richmond, specifically to that theater :D Most of the morning was boring shit. The typical orientation shit that I fell asleep through during Kirk's at JMU lool. Hat guy was with his Dad!! GAHHH. He's a business major. They split everyone up by majors again. Damn, HIS NAMMEEE, WHAT'S HIS NAME?! Lunch was pretty tastey. Boring mostly cause like I said Angela and Mara don't talk much -_-; I felt like a loser cause I kept babbling to get something going but that didn't work out. I'm the type of person who talks and talks for the sake of filling up awkward silence gaps. *sigh. Only interesting thing during lunch was that Angela managed to say my last name on the first try -- the first non-Filipino to do so. *applauds. After lunch, we went to the Art Foundation building which was quite a few blocks away .. so we could get advised about our schedules which we had set up ourselves. I was crazy enough to register into Drawing Studio on Fridays for 6 hours. 3 in the morning, 3 in the afternoon. Fucking CRAZY. Also, I realized that the "English" class I registered to was 15 minutes after the class before it... which might've been stupid cause I believe that the area where I have the first class is FUCKING FAR from the "English" class...so I have no idea how that's gonna work out. Finally, at 3:30, I was able to LEAVE orientation. Before leaving, my mom saw one of her old workmates from St. Barnabas back in the Bronx at the orientation for her own daughter. What a funny place to reunite with someone. Yeah, so we were off to NY right after orientation. We arrived at Long Island at Ate Grace's around 11PM. The reason we went up was for her birthday which was the next day. Yeap.
[Friday 7/11] Woke up at 9 or 10 I guess .. We went off to Queens to get a haircut from Tita Lily of course. She wasn't there yet so we went to a Filipino "restaurant" for lunch. It was kinda whack, no lie. Went back to the salon, got our haircuts. I got the same haircut from last time which was the side swept bangs but this time it's more layered so it looks really Asian, ahahaha. After we went back to Ate Grace's to take a rest cause we were still sleepy. We were back in LI around 2? And me and my parents napped. No one was home cause they all went to the house to set up for the party. Woke up around 4:30 and got ready. We left kinda late cause Mom and her usual self takes FOREVER to get ready. The party was ok. Kinda boring. It was a BBQ at one of Ate's friends house. I hung around with Kevin & Kareena's friends who happen to be around my age. Alyssa [19], Allison [20], Arielle [17] .. and two dudes, who I didn't catch their names. RR or something of that nature. I don't know how old they were but they seemed Philippine raised . Arielle is the girl version of Ed. No lie. Kinda weird. The girls were all anime freaks . Um. Lol. The only reason the party was whack was cause Alyssa & Arielle's mom [they're sisters] wouldn't let them go away from the house... we were all wanting to walk to an Italian Ice store but no. Very depressing. We kinda karaoked. They were kinda whack and didn't sing... but they left early so I ended up singing with Kareena. I found all the good songs after they left loool. I was so excited cause the house we were at had all the good Filipino songs that I LOVE. There was this annoying little girl that kept asking to sing. It was cute only once when I let her sing but she just kept trying to steal the damn mic from me. She's one arrogant little girl no lie. Nothing interesting. Wasted day. I could've gone and met up with friends like Jordan and Paul who I couldn't see on Saturday cause Jordan was planning to go see the Jabbawockeez perform in Jersey [luck ass]. I was planning to go see that but Aaron wasn't able to go and he was my only way getting there. Anyways, Kuya Arpee arrived late to the party .. like 10 ish.. and yeah. I don't remember what time we went back to Ate's place.
[Saturday 7/12] With the exception of my dad, we all kinda woke up late so we all left Ate's place late. We [me, the parents and Kareena] planned to meet up with Kennard, Kevin and Kevon....and Kuya Arpee & Ate Precious at Palisades then off to Woodbury we'd go. Since we left late, my Dad thought we wouldn't be able to go to Woodbury but we convinced him it wasn't that far [which it wasn't] so we went. Before went though, me and the four K's [wow, I just realized that] walked around the mall. My dad let me and the 3 K's [without Kareena] to go ahead to Woodbury since my Mom and Kareena were still shopping. The ride over there was quite interesting. Kevon was pretty happy I let him play with my Nikon since he's been fiending for one for the longest time. I thought I wasn't gonna see that ass at all that day cause he told me he was going to OC but that was a total lie. Biznatch..lol. We got to Woodbury and ended up just going to the food court before the others got there.
So when we had arrived in the parking lot, Kennard was driving around looking for a spot. It was taking awhile cause the parking lot was packed. We were turning right but had to stop because a car was pulling out and another car was waiting for another person to pull out. These two cars were MAD close to each other. The car waiting for another car to pull out was slowly inching backwards toward the one already out. Me and Kennard were watching intently waiting to see if the guy was dumb enough to back into the car. It was like we were watching a movie o_o; HAHA. The fucking guy wasn't watching where he was backing into .. and eventually backed into the other car and dented the side of his car LOL. When he did me and Kennard started freaking out and the Kevin's in the back started freaking out too. Kevin pulled out his camera and took pictures of the damn thing. Kennard and I [well Kennerd especially] started feeling bad cause we could have prevented it if only Kennard had honked but instead all we did was watch it unfold. HAHA. damn. we're going to hell for that XD
Anyways...I had to part ways with the 3 K's as much as I wanted to lolligag around Woodburry with them but I needed to get new clothes before college starts ..so that meant staying with my mom. I bought some new clothes at Tommy Hilfiger which I haven't done in ages... 2 Hello Kitty purses and Hello Kitty Necklace, and new converses -- black shoe with fat laces, bigger lace holes but they're low tops =[ they didn't have my size of that style in high tops BOO. Again, me and the 3 K's went ahead back to Kennard and Kev's place..but we were stuck in traffic so we got back to their place an hour later than we should have. Kevin and Kevon were doing weird shit in the back. Kevon was like playing footsie with the car window next to Kevin so he could distract people driving next to us o_O My parents and Kuya Arpee got to their place faster than we did and we had left before them.. wtf? We dropped off Kevon though before we got to their place. Tear. Dinner was delicious -- courtesy of their mom, Tita Aida. I ate balut.. that was way too developed so I bit into a fetus that had feathers and BONES.. that got caught in my teeth.. which almost forced me to throw up. GAH. Luckily I didn't and just spat it out. We started watching the Suicide Club. Sigh. Left there house around 12?
[Sunday 7/13] I had planned to meet up with the Medina sibs, including Steffi.. at the Brooklyn Museum of Art to see the Takashi Murakami exhibit which was its last day on Sunday. Originally I was going to take the subway from my Tita Celeste's place after eating lunch but when we showed up at her apartment she wasn't there yet so my parents just dropped me off with Kareena at the museum. We waited for an hour for the Medinas..apparently one of the trains weren't working. We finally were in the museum by 2:30 PM. Soooo many people were there. The exhibit was crazy. It was colorful, bold, cute, overtly sexual, weird. Fun stuff basically. Kevin was taking so many secret shots of the artwork, twas funny. Good thing he did, I wasn't able to steal much shots as I wanted. The souveneir store to the exhibit was literally PACKED and though it was the last day and everything was marked half off.. everything was still tooo expensive so the Medinas just bought stickers..LOL and I bought Kareena and myself these pins as a remembrance. We also went down to the museum's general store. I bought a book [Listography -- your life in lists HAHA :D] and Kareen a book mark. We bought some snacks. Well actually the Medinas did ... Kevin just treated Kareena and me some Mr. Softee cause we had spent our snack money on hotdogs and italian ice while waiting for them. We needed the left over $ for the subway. We went down to the subway and we all rode together up to 42nd and there we parted ways. Me and Kareena took the 7 train going to Kuya Arpee's in Queens. All the adults were all like amazed that we could take the subway by ourselves. ....wtf. Not that hard. lol. We got back around 6:30 ish. We drove back to Tita Celeste's for dinner. I thought we were gonna leave that night but apparently not.........OH AND I FINALLY GOT MY PURPLE SHIRT BACK. The one with all the Filipino history on it. Tita Fely had accidentally taken it when they were here for my grad since she did the laundry and junks. Geez. We got back home around 10 PM.
[Monday 7/14] I woke up early, with hopes of going to Paramus that day. Kareena woke up early to pack cause she was coming home with us to VA. We all woke up early. We left Ate's place at 10:30? We went to the Bronx, to Yankee Stadium, for the sake of my dad, to take pictures. We fucking parked so FAR AWAY from the stadium on the top of this really steep as hill. Going back to the car was a bitch. Plus, it was street cleaning day so when we were walking back all the cars on the right hand side of the street had double parked on the left and well.. someone had double parked next to our car so my dad had to squeeze out of this little space that the guy left open. When we finally got out, the guy who had double parked next to us CAME BACK. THE FUCK. We left around 12pm? So I fell asleep on our way out to NY. My thoughts were, "oh, the next time I wake up we'll be in the parking lot of Garden State Plaza so we can shop" but NO. My mother didn't want to go for some fucking strange reason so we ended up just going straight back home. THE FUCK. I was really looking forward to Paramus. I got so pissed that my dad suggested that we just go to Potomac Mills down in DC. WTF. GSP > PM. das;ljfdasl;jfdasl;fjdas;jfasdl;fj What a waste. So we went there .. I mean I love Potomac Mills but the next time we'll be going to GSP will be in a few YEARS.. and that mall is the shit. dsl;akjfdasl;jf DAMMIT. It's ok. I got some more stuff at Potomac Mills but nothing to my heart's content cause my mom wanted to leave PRONTO.. wtf. We got back in C'ville at 10:30 pm. Sigh.
[Tuesday 7/15] The day had been slow. I woke up at 12pm. I was still tired from traveling. Did nothing all day. Fun stuff. Just cleared out my bags from the trip and what not.
Yeah.
Fun stuff.
I like how this blog of mine has strictly become a "This is how my day went..." type blog. Sigh.
I guess it's because I only write in it in intervals, not on a daily basis. All the entries are so long and detailed. So sorry.
Things to look forward to:
- getting laptop for college: MAC BOOK ANYONE?! :D comes with new I-pod WOOT -- which by the way, my fucking I-Pod is completely useless now. It's an ongoing cycle of restoring the damn shit, which is doing anything for me. BLAH.
- the Medina's coming down to DC and maybe coming to visit us?!?!?! LALA
- Tita's wedding
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| drrrrrrrrrrragggggg.[Listening to] Miri Ben Ari - Chillin' In the Key of E
Tuesday [6/24] - Brother came home like mmmmaadddd late. He sprained his ankle playing basketball. It's quite disgusting how much my mother baby-s my bro. Even my dad was getting irritated.
Wednesday [6/25] - Chilled with Pia and Tina for most of the afternoon. First we met up at the mall cause Pia's lola had to walk around. Pia looked for a bathing suit and got one. She bleached her belly hair. Wow. Unnecessary. Then we went to Riverside and ate lunch there. It was my first time there. It was alrighty. Pretty cheap but good food. I give it a thumbs up. Then we went to Marshalls, Office Depot and Big Lots. Yeah, weird places to go to. I got back home at 4 ish. Me, my bro and Dad were supposed to watch I Am Legend on my bro's new PS3 that he had gotten signed up in NY but Dad fell asleep so I just used it to watch Youtube vids. ahaha. Brother left earlier then exepected.
Thursday [6/26] - Pia and Michael came over for lunch and to watch [a] movie[s]. Juno and Holy Grail. I don't think Pia enjoyed Holy Grail, haha. Anyways, last time I'll see her till August -- or even more after that. I'll be at VCU by the time she'll be back from Canada. Damn, two months away. So sad T_T;; She's on her way up north as we speak. Siiiiggghhh. That night I watched America's Best Dance Crew... yeah.. I snuck over to Az's house at 11pm to just chillll. Came back at 2 am.
Friday [6/27] - Nothing special except for piano at 5.
Today. is. dragging. along.
I woke up at 11 AM and all I've been doing is watch TV since then. WTTTFFF. I think this has been the most unproductive day I've had all summer. Later tonight, Tito Ipe and I guess Az and them are coming over to watch the Manny Pacquaio fight. Woot.
Yesterday, Toko, my piano teacher asked me why I don't drive to piano by myself. Good question. I feel like getting my license was such a waste. I don't go anywhere cause my parents won't accept the fact that I'm growing and WON'T let me grow up. The fuck. I hate this shit. I really need the car. And a job? Yeah i'd get a job but they'll be asking me to get off days. How can I do that? It's a first job .. you don't ask for off days on your first job. Lame shit.
Gyyad, I can't wait till I get outta here. Rawr.
Though, I will my room and the security of home.
But damn, I need to grow up some day, right?
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| I PHail at recitals.[Listening to] Random Lydia Paek vids << she's amazing -- look her up on youtube :]
Post-New York has been ok.
Saturday [6/14] - After piano, the parental units and I went to VCU to check out the campus. My first reaction was damn, it really is in downtown Richmond. It's pretty much a typical southern, urban city. Cities in the South have a different feel than the ones up in the North. Anyways, the area grew on me, especially when we got out of the car and walked onto the courtyard of one of the art buildings. Later we went to Costco and then to Short Pump. Manuel called while we were there to see if we made it alright. Hmph, right. Out of all places I bought some really cute ass shit at Dillard's. H&M and Urban Outfitters really disappointed me. Anyway, we got home around 10pm.
Sunday [6/15] - Father's Day...ate at Chili's with the fam then later on that day we went to East Garden for dinner for Tito Ipe's Birthday/Father's Day. We all went to their house and we played Rock Band [go figure haha]
I've been slacking around the house, playing guitar, running, and practicing for the recital for the past week.
Wednesday [6/18] - Manuel's 21st Birthday -- dizzamers. I actually went on AIM. I was chatting all night. It was really odd. I kinda enjoyed it lol I got to talk to Danny which I haven't in a really long ass time. I found out Nate went off to ROTC training or whatevs. Bitch didn't tell me. Talked to Brandon [yay], Wella, cammed with Pia. Oh and Anum.. he's back. Didn't know till I got on AIM. kekeke.
Thursday [6/19] - All I remember was that I got to catch up with Wella on the phone that day. Word. Oh and I went to Michael's house to practice on his piano for the recital. Well he wasn't home so Mariel was there just keeping me company. Stayed there for 2 hours.
Friday [6/20] - Went over to Michael's house again to practice again. "Practice" haha. We ended up going to buy some new strings for one of "his" guitars. I taught him how to string 'em and junx. Day was blah.
Today -- Piano, practice, practice, practice. Recital was at 3. Yeah, so I fail miserably at piano recitals. I was so fucking nervous this time around and I couldn't chill out during my whole performance. I have no idea why. The very first note of my very first piece, I messed up x__X; I erno. Anyways, last of recitals [and it was only my third, HAHA] I'm kinda bummed I wont be doing piano anymore with Toko after I leave for VCU. Hopefully I can keep doing it when I'm over there. I gotta draw something for her. She's put up with my slackerish ways .. she deserves something. Haha.
Now I'm just playing guitar/watching random junks on youtube. But anyways -- seriously people, check out this Lydia Paek chick. Her voice is amazing. I wasn't expecting it to come out of this cutesy, asian girl. Haha. Plus she's a dancer. She's in a dance crew called Quest, which happens to be the crew that Hok and Dominic from So You Think You Can Dance are a part of. BEAST.
Upcoming plans:
The Kongyingyong's Visit Us?: July 4th ish
Water Country USA?: July ????
VCU orientation: July 9th & 10th
New York Visit AGAIN [but with parental units -_-;]: July 10th -13th? or 14th? Short ass time.
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| NYC trip plus more. [warning: mad long]
[Listening to] Coldplay - Viva La Vida
Sunday, June 8th, 2008: I beat "Maps" on the drums on
EXPERT [84%]. Oh junx. I'm no drums maniac, I just happen to be able to play
that one Expert song on drums. Jaja.
So anyways -- to the good stuff. Monday [6/9] afternoon, I left for New York
with my brother Kirk, his girlfriend Tes, Tes's sister Aileen and Aileen's
boyfriend Matt.
The Reason We Went to NY: Kirk wanted to meet Hideo Kojima, the maker of the Metal Gear series,
get a PS3 and get it signed by him and to later sell it
My brother and I left for Tes's house at 6:30 after dropping
off my mom from work. It takes 25 minutes ish to get to Tes's house. We leave
Charlottesville at 8:30pm and get to West Nyack/Kennard’s place at 2:30am. Thanks
to the GPS [it didn’t lag for once], it found a faster route going to Kennard’s
house. We totally missed the NJ Turnpike which was nice but what wasn’t nice
was smelling NJ. It was very apparent entering NJ cause of the sewage smell.
It’s gotten worse throughout the years. The car set up was me and Kirk in the
front and everyone in the back. When we got to Kennard’s house, Kennard was the
only one awake. He helped me put ear drops into my ear. Before leaving for NY,
I had cleaned my ears in the morning but I had accidentally pushed in some wax
farther into my ear canal, clogging/plugging it completely. As of now, it is
still clogged and it’s a bitch being muffled in one ear. * sigh *
The General Morning Routine: Waking up at 9 or 10 am.
Leaving the house by 12 pm. With the exception of Wednesday, Kirk would leave
by 6 am to line up early for the signing. Drive down to the Bronx to Kennard’s
old neighborhood to board the 1 Train at the 231st Station. The
drive to the station was approximately 20 minutes. Usually we had to directly
go to Time Square/42nd St. to switch trains and that train ride from
231st to Time Square was also 20 ish minutes.
Tuesday [6/10] Itinerary:
I saw Tita that morning. Kevin and Steffi had left for
school already and Tito went to work. Kirk had left already to Time Square to
the Virgin Mega Store to get in line for the signing. Tes’s ankle was hurting
on our way up to NY but that morning it had gotten a bit swollen. Kennard Kennard went to a place called Drug Wars
[ahaha] to get crutches for Tes. We left the house at 11 ish to go to Palisades
mall. There, we went to Target to get pain killers, gauze wrap and an ankle support
thing for Tes. After, Tes and Aileen looked and bought some sunglasses at a
random kiosk. Kennard had to leave us for a bit to pick up Steffi from school
at 12:30 cause the Nyack schools were half-day due to the Heat Wave/Watch.
Lame. Me, Tes, Aileen and Matt ended up going to the food court to wait for
Kennard though Aileen and Matt were the only ones who ate. I bought some Bubble
Tea though [mediocre Bubble Tea it was]. While we were at the Food Court, Kirk
calls up and tells us that he was the only one in line. Apparently that the girl that plays
Carly in iCarly and the little sister from Drake and Josh on Nickelodeon was
having her own signing at the Virgin Mega Store and Kojima was signing the next
day at midnight. * slaps forehead * Kirk ends up walking around the city and
meeting up with our friend Keisha, who had once lived in Charlottesville as
well but moved back to NY. Kennard finally picks us up at 1ish and we go to the
231st Station in the Bronx. We meet up with Kirk and Keisha at the
Apple Store on 5th Avenue. We stayed there for only 10 minutes
though and headed straight for the Central Park Zoo which was just a few blocks
away. On our walk through Central Park, we saw some abnormally fat pigeons. I
think people are starting to feed those birds a little more than just bread
o_o; Also, Kennard took some pictures with this dude who was in a Statue of
Liberty get up. It was kinda creepy cause he had a mask on and didn’t say
anything to people. It was kind of like a Statue of Liberty mime? Anyways, at
the zoo, we were able to get Tes a wheel chair to push her around in. We got to
see the Sea Lions, Penguins [the Penguin house STANK], Puffins, Rain Forrest
Birds, Bats and yeah. The Polar Bears were nowhere to be seen. I wanted to see
the Red Pandas but we never got to that =[ Though it was ok cause right after,
we headed towards the Upper West Side to the infamous Levain Bakery. I had
found out about Levain from Bobby Flay’s Ultimate Challenge or whatever that
show is called. He challenges chefs with specialties and he tries to make a
better version of their specialty. Levain specializes in these humongous
cookies that weigh half a pound. They were DELCIOUS. Dark chocolate with peanut
butter chips. YUM. We hung out in front of the bakery to eat and rest cause it
was a tiny ass bakery. Matt ended up getting pooped on by a bird. His shoe was
victimized. lol After, we went to Time Square for dinner. We were supposed to
eat at this restaurant [I forget the name] but Tes and Aileen didn’t see
anything they liked so they changed their minds to the Hard Rock Café. It was a
pain cause me and Kennard had accidentally separated from the group to go to
the Virgin Mega Store to see if iCarly was still there but we missed her by an
hour. If only. * sigh * Haha. Anyways we met up with them at the restaurant.
The food there was surprisingly mediocre. I was expecting more since it is the
Hard Rock. I could have eaten better steak at TGIF. Tsk. The only thing I
really enjoyed was the specialty drink … it tastey and plus I got to keep the
souvenir glass I drank it from. Our last stop was at the Toys R Us store.
Entering the store, there’s this big ass Ferris Wheel with cool ass cars shaped
in different toys/characters like Monopoly, Scooby Doo, Barbie, etc. When went
downstairs we found some a DDR Machine. Kirk convinced me into playing. I really
didn’t want to but half of me wanted to see if I still had it in me. I haven’t
played DDR in a year let alone playing on the actual machine – it’s been 4
years. The first time around I went on expert which was a bad idea cause I was
never used to the friction of the metal pad and shoes. We failed on the first
song. HAHA. The second time, I tried going by myself but I failed AGAIN. Lol.
The Third time Kirk joined me and we did Breakdown but accidentally chose
Beginner. Second Song was the same song but on difficult which was nice cause
it seemed like I was beast but it was only due to the fact that I still have
that dance memorized from playing that song repeatedly with Az on the
machine…hahaha. The third song was Tsugaru which we almost failed. My overall
score was a C loool and my bro an E. LAMMME. Anyways, such a bad idea to play
DDR cause that day/night was the hottest day/night in NY out of our whole trip,
I was mad sweaty, and my legs felt like they were both going to cramp up. By
the time we left the store it was 10:00 so we decided to go back home to Nyack.
The trip going back up to the Bronx was the most reminiscent because I sat at
window seat just watching everything go by. I was so bummed yet happy to see
everything. It just sucked how homesick I felt during the whole ride. By the
time we got back to Kennard’s, it was 11:30. Steffi was asleep so I was yet to
see her but I got to see Kevin [he was up still doing final projects] and Tito watching
basketball. Tita helped me put in the drops that night which she helped
tremendously though my ear was still clogged.
Wednesday [6/101] Itinerary:
Kirk was bummed about mistakenly going to the Virgin Mega
Store that he decided not to go Wednesday. Kojima was going to a Japanese
clothing store called Uniqlo in SoHo the next day anyways. Plus, Tes’s ankle
was hurting like crazy on Wednesday, he wanted to stay with her. I finally got
to see Steffi for a few minutes before she went to school cause she had woken
me up. Kennard couldn’t come with us that morning cause he had to pick up
Steffi at 3PM [the halfday’s/Heat Watch were over] after school. We had left
the house at 11:00. We had to ride the 1 train all the way down to South Ferry
which is basically riding the second/third to first stop on the 1 line all the
way to the last stop. We were going go to Liberty Island aka the island that
has the Statue of Liberty. The Island is at the southern tip of Manhattan so
the train ride was a 45 minute ride x__x; Before we had got on the train, we
went to the dollar store to get some towels and duct tape to put on Tes’s
crutches cause they were hurting her armpits. When we got to Battery Park to
board the Ferry, Tes’s ankle was at her worse being that she was walking on it
all day yesterday and she was exhausted
from the crutches, Kirk and Tes decided to go back to Kennard’s so she could
rest the whole day. Soooo, the whole day was just Me, Aileen and Matt. We got
on the Ferry which was a really nice ride over there. We got some nice pictures
from the Ferry. When we got on Liberty Island, we would have gone to the
base/pedestal of the statue but we didn’t have enough time. Originally we
planned to go to MoMA [the Modern Museum of Art] but when the Ferry dropped us
off back at Battery Park it was already 4:25. Since were the southern end of
Manhattan, we knew that we couldn’t make it to MoMA on time. It closes at
5:30 and we weren’t willing to pay 20 bucks for only 30 minutes of time at the
museum. Instead we went to Rockefeller Center to the Nintendo World so I can
get dad a present. Kirk called us on our way there saying that him and Kennard
were going to Bryant Park to play some basketball. After the Nintendo Store we
headed on to SoHo and visited Kid Robot and Uniqlo. Kid Robot got renovated so
now there are two floors. I wanted to take pictures of the floor but last time
we were there, they didn’t let me take pictures. I wasn’t sure if it still
applied so I took 3 pictures when the employees weren’t looking, ahaha. Uniqlo
was around the corner from KR and I wasn’t expecting it to be a clothing store.
Though they had some pretty suhweet shirts. They had some weird ass mannequins
though wearing collared shirts upside down o_O; the sleeves were the pants it
was kind of like a tube top? I guess I’ll post the pictures in a later entry,
haha. By that time we were MAD hungry, especially me since everyone ate all the
eggs that morning that Tita made and I don’t like bacon, so I ended up eating
cherries -_-;. I brought them to Chinatown. First was the superb Tea Time for
AMAZING Bubble Tea and then to Hop Kee of course for dinner. We headed over to
Little Italy cause Aileen was looking for a new purse but she never found one.
She did in Chinatown in this secret room in one of those street vendor stores
but it was missing a zipper puller thing. Haha. We headed over to 5th
Avenue again to the Empire State Building. Our original plan was to go there at
night so we can get a view from the top of all NYC but it was 19 bucks to go up
there and we weren’t willing to pay that much. I’ve been up there 3 or 4 times
in my life anyway so I didn’t really care. Aha. We instead walked over to Grand
Central Station. Before we got there, we stopped by a gift shop that had really
nice NY shirts that weren’t touristy obvious. I found a shirt that said Hello
Titty and Hello Kitty’s Face replaced with boobs. Ahaha. Funny shit. Anyways,
Grand Central Station is soo beautiful from the inside and out. I’m surprised I
never went there when I was still in NY. We got on the 7 train there and
switched to the 1 strain at 42nd. We headed straight up to 231st
in the Bronx cause Kirk and Kennard were waiting for us there. When we got home
to Nyack it was already 12:30. My feet were hurting like a motherfucker. They
were huting more than the last time we walked in the city in December.
Thursday [6/12] Itinerary:
Kirk had left at 6 am again that morning to go to Uniqlo for
the signing. Kojima was there forreal this time and Kirk ended up being in the 12
ish person in line. Also, I had called Manuel to see if he wanted to meet up
that day since it was our last day, we were heading to Queens for 5 Pointz
[yeeeee!] and I hadn’t seen him since 3 years ago. We decided to meet up at
Uniqlo cause that was our first stop so we can see Kirk in line and he’s always
wanted to go there in the first place. We got to Uniqlo at 2:15pm. The line was
mad freaking long. I didn’t even know where it ended.. and a buncha people on
the street were asking what was going on. When we went up to Kirk to see how he
was doing , some guy a few spots ahead of him was freaking out. Apparently the
line was sacred and anyone going near the line near the front would hinder him
from seeing Kojima even though he was like 5th in line. Douche.
Lool. I left the guys outside to find Manuel inside the store and I ddiiiiddd.
I’m not gonna lie, Manuel is one hott mofo. It was interesting how he had this
whole army get up: a dark green army
hat, a dark brown button up polo shirt with his sleeves folded half way, plack
pants and black suede-ish? boots. It was fucking hot outside, I have no idea
why he wore it but he achieved looking good that’s for sure. When we were in
the store he kept insisting that I find something, specifically a dress so he
could buy it for me. Hmm.. It was kinda awkward when he said hello to everyone
cause Aileen and Tes used to go to school with Manuel but Manuel never talked
to Aileen back then and neither of them don’t really know him that well. Plus
he didn’t know Matt at all. Lol Anyways, we left Kirk in his line and went to 5
POINTZ… FINALLY. Though on our way to
the station, Kennard bought the Kanye shutter glasses for Kevin. Awww. So
yeah…5 Pointz is a warehouse in Queenz that is covered in Graffiti. I hated how
Manuel was hating on it though. Hmph. I took a buncha pictures and we were able
to climb up the stairs on the side of the warehouse. It was really high up and
it was quite funny watching Kennard struggle going up and down the stares. The
view up there is just amazing and ahh.. man .. I wanna go again. After, Manuel
took us to Flushing which is mad far. It’s the very last stop of the 7 line.
During that ride, there was a group of guys around my age I’m guessing and they
all had sidekick’s. I was laughing inside so I pulled out mine. HAHA. When we
got there, Manuel brought us to get some Bubble Tea [less than mediocre,
blech], and then to Pinkberry, the frozen yogurt shop he works at. I always
wanted to try their yogurt cause it’s so big on the west coast. Twas delicious.
Then we went to a small mall across from Pinkberry. The mall was interesting
and only small cause they were still building it. Tes and Aileen were the main
ones looking around cause they were looking for a gift for their dad. We met up
with Kirk at the station we had gotten off at in Flushing and Manuel brought us
to a restaurant for dinner. I tried Jelly fish which was strangely good. Haha.
He showed us a karaoke place that he wants to bring me to again next time in NY
hmm.. uh. Lol Then we went to Macy’s for Aileen and Tes to continue looking. We
eventually parted ways at around 8. I was happy seeing him but pissed at the
same time. Why? I’ll explain that later. Anyways, the ride back to the BX from
Flushing might have been longer than the one from South Ferry. During the whole
time, I just ranted and talked to Kennard about what happened while we saw
Manuel. Ugh. Anyways, we got to Nyack by like 10? I hung out with Kevin for a
bit. Talked mostly. He told me that Kevon was waiting for the whole time we
were there. Damn. Woops. Next time. Lol. I thought that the last time we saw
Kevon, it was a disappointment for him and that he’d never really bother with
us anymore but I guess I thought wrong. Haha. Steffi kept hugging me for some
reason? Hmm anyways we said our goodbyes and we finally left at 11:30. Matt
drove the whole way back home cause Kirk needed rest. He had work at 7:00 AM.
We got to Tes’s house at 5:30 this morning and Kirk left for Harrisonburg a few
minutes after we got to Tes’s. I had to sleep at her house. They couldn’t come
straight to my house cause that would mean an extra 25-30 minutes drive and
Harrisonburg is an hour away so yeah.
Before going to sleep I realized I had left my charger in NY
and 30 minutes after leaving NY Tes told me that Kirk had left my headphones
there as well. Sigh. Anyways, I woke up at 12:54 pm today. Ahaha. Aileen and
Tes got me home at around 1:30. The whole day I’ve just been resting cause my
legs/feet are still a bit achey from all the walking. When I got home, I found that
VCU finally sent me the admissions packet. Tita Claribel sent me some grad
money and I got my report card. Straight A’s for the 4th quarter but
2 B’s and all A’s for 2nd semester. I was surprised I got an A on my
Japanese exam. Ahahaha.
…..and now for the Manuel thing
-- Warning: this entry will get LONGER cont. at your own risk–
I thought seeing Manuel would be good for the both of us. We
don’t really talk, and the only time I talk to him is If that chance comes
along and he contacts me, I grab the opportunity and enjoy but that’s about it.
The reason I had stopped talking to him was because he perceived me as
immature. I’m not saying this from an assumption I’m making but from what he
told me. There was something he didn’t tell me for the reason that I was not
“mature” yet to know about. What the hell? After he had told him that I was
uber pissed at him and just stopped talking to him. Though it wasn’t much of a
hassle cause he didn’t bother to keep in contact with me either. Anyways, the
first few minutes seeing Manuel was nice but slowly it just went down hill –
but I never showed it in my face. I had to bite my tongue and just enjoy the
moment cause he’ll be off to the Philippines on June 1st and won’t
be back till August 10th. I had to see him before going off to VCU.
So what did he do exactly? Well he just kept belittling me, telling me things
that were a punch to the face to my integrity and ego. It kinda goes like this:
1) -- as we’re leaving SoHo --
him: “Stay close, I’m your chaperone
now”
-- grabs on to my purse like he were to grab on to someone’s arm --
me thinking: “wtf was that for?”
2) – walking towards 5 pointz –
him: “so where is it?”
me: * points at the warehouse * “that beautiful thing over there”
him: “oh THAT horrible thing? It really isn’t that attractive”
kennard: “ooohh..ouch…”
me: “yeah, thanks for that…”
me thinking: “yeah, thanks for downing one of my biggest
interests”
3) --while at the top of the warehouse --
him: “this is inspiring”
me: “ah! So graffiti is finally inspiring you, eh?”
him: “no I mean the view” * points out at everything in front of us * “not this
thing behind us”
me thinking: “yeah it’s a nice view, but that was totally
unnecessary”
4) – leaving 5 pointz –
him: * looks down at my shoes * “Let me see your shoes”
me: * pulls up pant leg to show my graff chucks *
him: “Hmm, those shoes are something I’d probably buy if I
were in Middle School or in High School. They’re not very fashion forward.”
Me thinking: “what the hell?”
5) – eating the frozen yogurt from Pinkberry at the mall --
him: “we should move in together into an apartment
me thinking: “yeah cool idea, I’ve actually considered that
before…”
him: “…. Our parents might be like “what?!?” but of course
we’d only move in together strictly as friends…”
me thinking: “WOW, did he just set up the JUST FRIENDS line right there? What
for? Does he really think I’m THAT into him? Seriously kid, get over yourself.
I may have seem obsessive over you at a point but dizzam my life doesn’t not
revolve around you.”
6) – in a clothing store called Mango --
him: “go find a dress and I’ll buy it for you. You should really wear dresses.
me: “nah, it’s ok. I’m not in the mood to try stuff on.”
him: “oh, I guess you’re still young…..”
me thinking: “what the fuck is that supposed to mean??? I’m not in the mood to
buy clothes you fuck, my age has nothing to do with it!”
7) – on our way to the subway station --
* we’re talking about how we both wished we stayed longer and how he’d take me to
certain places next time I’m in NY *
Him: “…but I’ll take you more to places when you grow up, when
you’re like 20”
me: “20?? Why 20??”
me thinking: “grow up? Am I not grown up right now compared to three years ago?
What the hell are you?! You’re only three years older than me! GET OVER
YOURSELF. -_- Plus you told me this shit 3 years ago when YOU were my age"
I just couldn’t talk to him during the whole time in
Flushing. I’d say a few things but I was never myself around him cause every
time he’d say something in regards of me as a person like my age, maturity, my interests, etc. I’d just get a
sinking feeling in my chest and shut up. Also, during the whole trip, he’d talk
to Tes and ask a billion questions about her art work and what she’s planning
to do with it later. He never did that once to me because he never really have
a gave a damn about me and my art. As an artist, he doesn’t take me seriously.
Adding on to that, when I mentioned a few weeks ago that he called me out of nowhere, he told me
the most douche-est thing ever:
8) – talking about how he got into Fashion Institute of
Technology and the people who go there –
him: “There are a lot of people at FIT who think that the
stuff they make is art. A lot of them are wannabee’s..” * he continues to talk
about how a lot of people in FIT don’t have the basic technical drawing skills,
etc. *
him: “Anybody can get into FIT. Hey Ces, even you can get
into FIT.”
me thinking: “……what? Are you serious?”
It was such a slap in the face. It may seem like he didn’t
mean it, but I think he did. I didn’t wanna ask if he was being serious, I just
let it brush off my shoulders cause I hadn’t talked to him in the longest time.
But really, how can you mistakenly say that to someone? Especially someone you
know who is into art as much as you are. Kennard thought he didn’t know what he
was doing but I think he does. Everything he said was so blunt. He’s aware that
he’s calling me immature and childish, he just doesn’t know that it’s killing
me inside when he does it. I was hoping that he’d see me in a different
light when we saw each other yesterday especially since it’s been 3 years. I
guess that perception he has of me being that 13 year old angsty girl who blew
up every little problem is still in his mind.
Funny thing is, he used to tell me that the reason why he
liked me a lot as a friend was because I acted mature for my age. How the fuck
can you mean that when you’re saying all this bullshit to me? He says one thing
but says the complete opposite later. What hurts the most is that this is all coming from the one person I used to confide the about the most serious things. He was the one person I fully trusted.
I don’t know. I just needed to get that
all out.
If only I could see him again before he leaves for the Philippines or before I start at VCU.
This calls for a one-on-one, face-to-face confrontation.
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