ive been kinda depressed today...ive taken a semester off from school, to help my mom out but like Ive said in my previous posts our shop is going through alot of shiet rite now...so, I know that eventhough all my life that I've worked its always been to help my family out, and I guess i've sort of used that as an excuse to not live my own life...Anyways, I think I have had all the time in the world, and yet I still dont know what I want to do with my life...I mean I have a lisense for being a manicurist and esthetician but thats not what I want to focus on for the rest of my life..I need something more stable, and I was gonna go into nursing but god!!! ...I hate science!!!

I was trying to do some soul-searching and the only thing I really like doing is dancing, modeling, and traveling...lols..like that is gonna get me anywhere in life right? I am pretty interested in being a travel agent though...Its something that I would probably really enjoy doing...If that doesnt work out its just back to school I go until I find my reason in life like majoring in communications or socialolgy cuz those fields are broad...Or just something in the medical field just not nursing cuz its so hard nowadays to get into nursing...I know Im selling myself short by thinking that things are so difficult, but really sometimes I think I'm not meant for school...I just sit here stupidly thinking that something out of the blue will fall on my lap where I dont have to go to school, and that I will just be set for life doing whatever that thing is that I would enjoy doing and make alotta money out of...good lord...I am such a messed up child...Im so friggin sad right now, because I dont know what to do with my life, and which direction to go....=(