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leaving town...

Wed, 16 Jul 2008 12:53:02 GMT

Hey guys..gonna be on my way to Montreal Quebec, Canada in just a few hours...Sorry I havent updated with pictures yet, but I've been hooked on a this korean drama called Autumn in My heart..Kenric has been really disturbed with me going out so much so I found a solution to being glued at home; by watching korean dramas!..lols..They are highly addicting and I really dont want to do or go anywhere but stay at home..Kenric said he would rent out a whole korean movie store for me if that means I'll stay at home so he doesnt have to worry about me all the time ...

Anyways, I lost my id a few weeks ago and somebody yesterday messaged me on myspace asking if I happened to lose my id..and I said YES!!!..I went to go pick it up after work, and feel so escstatic about getting it back..I really didnt like the new picture that I took at DMV, because it was so dark looking...Anyways after Canada, I'll head home for a day and then leave to Las Vegas for a bachelorette party..Cant wait!!!! Although these are lil mini summer getaways I really want a REAL vacation..So, Ive been looking into Sandals Resort in Jamaica, Bora Bora, and Thailand...I just love the beaches so much!!!! *sighs..Gotta go now, and see if im missing anything else from packing..Hope you guys have a wonderful day!

*had a little bit time..Enjoy!!!

The only place in La besides Taipei and Japan...Hella long ass line for dumplings..!!!

*This was sooOo good! Red bean dumplings...

*Dog Beach in Huntington Beach

*My babie..

*Capitola...Picnic on the beach with Alena and Kat...

feeling not very yellow..

Wed, 09 Jul 2008 01:42:06 GMT

Long distance relationships can be quite hard, and that is the situation I have at hand in my own own relationship..I know I have been going out way more then I have been..I know that can be quite hard on my boyfriend when he is hundreds of miles away and worrying that I might be around bad influences..Ive liked the fact that I have been independent and not as needy with my boyfriend..I like that I can have lunch and dinner dates with my girlfriends and not really worry that my boyfriend is waiting at home for me...I mean my boyfriend still waits at home for me to call him when Im out and stuff, but before when he still loved in the bay I would feel bad if he was at home waiting for me to come home..Its almost the same thing but slightly different...Anyways, I just wish he can trust in me that Im not doing anything wrong, but thats easier said because if the roles were reversed and he was going out constantly I would be tearing my hair out at home, being in a fit of jealousy...

Enough of all that, for I will deal with it on my own..Sorry I havent updated on my 4th of July weekend yet..Ive just been busy stuffing my face even more because of my depression, and also work has been real busy so I'm so drained...So all I do besides work is eat eaT EAT my heart away, and not work out and feel even more depressed because Im so daym big right now..I guess I just try to numb everything through food and it sucks!..I have 2 gogo gigs this week and Im thinking of just canceling them cuz I look like a daym whale seriously...I can really gain 10lbs in just a couple of days like that *snaps fingers* good lord...everything right now is so depressing

Home away from home...

Mon, 07 Jul 2008 02:27:46 GMT

Just flew in...I'll update and post piks tomorrow night...Right now im so full and bloated!!! Been eating nonstop, the whole weekend I was in La..Just thought I'd post this cute ass picture of me and Mochi taken on the night I came back from Kenric's camera phone..isnt he the most sweetest looking thing EVER???

at work...

Thu, 03 Jul 2008 19:21:36 GMT

Yesterday i gogo danced at Scruffy Murphys...I cancelled on the owner the night prior because I was just tired and didnt want to dance on a weekday, also I had to work and fly to la the next day...But, in the end he said all I had to do was dance for one hour and still get the same pay...Alena and My came out to support me...We went to IHOP afterwards, so I didnt get home till at least 1 something...I had a tough time getting up this morning..I had to wake up early for an appointment I had and then go to work...Sooooo tired...=( Neways, I'll be in La for the weekend so probably wont be blogging much until afterwards..Hope everyone has a wonderful 4th of July holiday...

missing my heart...=(

Sun, 29 Jun 2008 23:41:07 GMT

Thursday- Went with My and Alena to Tiki Lounge...All we wanted was a casual night, with a little karaoke but we ended up at Tiki Lounge in our flip flops..So, it was a semi-casual night...Anyways, I had 2 shots of grey goose and some other funky mixed drink..They didnt have my adios, so they gave me something else..I was fine at the club, just running into old faces...I had one really weird experiance, some guy asked me if my name was Marie, and then began to ask me if my birthday falls on September 27th..I was like yes yes YES! How the hell does this guy know all of this..Cuz ive never seen the dude in my whole entire life, and was not even familar with for him to memorize my birthday, that was a trip...Anyways on the ride home, I was dying cuz I had to barf so bad...And that was when the unknown drink messed me up real good...I have never been so drunk to the extent where my head was pounding and is unable to walk...We were in front of My's house and all I wanted to do was sleep on the street...I didnt want to be in the car because my world was spinning...Usually, I can handle myself when I drink but what i felt was horrible!!!! I kept on yakking, but had no food in my stomach so it hurted so much to do so...I was outside for at least 2hrs, until I felt it was okay for my friends to drive me home...Got home and started bawling with Kenric and just knocked out after that..

Friday- I had to go to DMV because I lost my id somehow at the lounge and my money..Kenric flew in that night so we went to La Victoria's and had some burritos and soft tacos..I had a gogo gig at Motif, but was so tired from the night prior I was skared to even look at alcohol..All I had was a redbull and that was good enuff for me..

Saturday- Me, Snip and Alena decided to have a picnic at the beach or lake, we chose the latter...Kenric had to take care of some things so I just spent half the day with Snip and Alena..We went to DeSalle Lake in Livermore..It was so nice, and there was so many people swimming...We bought a whole bunch of junk food with us and some tuna tartare from our friend's sushi restaraunt...Afterwards, I met up with Kenric and we went to Buca de Peppo I believe and watched Wanted at the theater...I was so tired that I fell asleep on some parts, but overall I dont think the movie was that great...

Sunday-Me and Kenric ate our leftovers and wanted to go watch the Incredible Hulk..We ended up watching Kung Fu Panda because the Incredible Hulk didnt have any earlier showtimes and I had to drop Kenric off at the airport by 7...Kung Fu Panda was so cute and funny I loved it..After the movie I just went to the airport and waited with Kenric after he checked in...

Anyways, I have been fine these past few weeks without my babie, but the short weekend that I have with him makes me miss him more then all the days before without him..It feels like a tease, that I can only see him for such little amounts of time and then when he leaves and I get used to the fact hes not with me, I have to start missing him alot again...Oh wells, I'll be in la for 4th of July in 4days, so not too bad...Okay everyone, hoped u had a lovely weekend and enjoy the pictures that I have for you! =)

*headed to Tiki straight from work, so no makeup on in these piks...

*peaceful isnt it?

*so HIGH!!!

Tired and sleepy =(

Mon, 23 Jun 2008 00:39:27 GMT

Thursday-Worked at the salon and headed over to Tiki Lounge where I gogo danced with April Syrup..I drank my usual adios, but ppl kept on telling me to sip thier drinks so I got extra buzz...We danced on the bar, and that was so hard because I kept on worrying about falling down and breaking my neck..I almost fell twice, but luckily I had a few shoulders to break my fall...lols..I had to stay in the car to sober up a bit, so I just talked to Kenric until I was able to drive...

Friday-Woke up real early for some reason..I ended up taking my little sister up to S.F to go do some shopping...Went to Haight St., Chinatown, and Union Square..Ive never experianced being so hot in S.F but I was dying!!! I would be talking on the phone and the phone would be covered in my sweat! lols..I got a really good deal on two dresses at Marciano..The usual price of the two dresses would have been about $300 but I got the two for a total of $88!!!..Really hot and clingy! lols...That night I had a gig at an Irish Pub in Sunnyvale called Scruffy Murphys..Ive always wanted to go to a irish pub, drink some beer and eat Irish food...Anyways, I headed to Carrows to meet up with Alena and Snip..I didnt order my usual strawberry pancakes, instead I chose a healthy salad......

Saturday- Worked at the salon until 6..Went home and got ready to go out...I was so tired but I didnt want to be home and be lonely so yeah...and when I gogo dance I really dont consider that going out, eventhough it is fun..But usually I dont dance with my friends and they are always on my case about that...So I picked up My and we went to Crawdad King to pick up Alena..We headed over to Sushi Kai and drank a whole lotta sake and beer before going to Abyss..I got really buzz, but not to the point where I was throwing up..Anyways, after the club we went to Sushi Kai to eat some sushi and then headed over to Crawdad King to eat crawdads..I didnt get home till 5am!...

Sunday- Had a photoshoot at 12 in Half Moon Bay for Syrup Magazine..Its an online alcohol magazine where bartenders talk about recipes in forums and stuff...So ill keep you guys posted when that comes out..Went to work after that and now Im home..dead tired and sleepy...*sighs...

*Here are some piks at Tiki Lounge on Thursday...

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

Wed, 18 Jun 2008 02:57:00 GMT

Alena asked me to go eat sushi with her yesterday after work..So around 8:30 pm I picked her up and we went to a sushi place just one block from her restaraunt...I wasnt going to be eating alot since im on my diet this week, and we really didnt order much..But the Sushi chef gave us a complimentary appetizer..It was tuna tartare with avocado and a chile sauce dipped with wonton chips...It was really good, but I stopped myself before I could have finished it..

We ordered just one beer, and then decided we wanted to do sake bombs with the sushi chef..He started pouring sake for us, and before I knew it I was getting buzzed on a Monday night!..It was close to closing time when we got there so we ended up being the only ones there towards the end..The sushi chef and waiter ended up staying back to drink with us...Me and Alena were just talking tou ourselves on how we were not going to be drinking and doing bad things for awhile just to clear our system, and then all of a sudden the waiter asked us if we wanted to smoke weed...If i hadnt been drinking I would have said no, but I was in a happy mood so me and Alena said yes...So we both got pretty faded, and I was telling our new friends how things always happen to us spontaneously...Anyways, I had fun eventhough I was not supposed to be doing what I was doing =(..I felt so tired to day at work since I came home around 1 from the sushi place...

*Okay, heres a picture that I really liked from Oliver...

Longgggg Weekend...!!

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 21:31:06 GMT

I worked at the salon yesterday from 10-6 and then went to work at the restaraunt until 10...I have been going out more lately and so Me, Alena and My went to a vietnamese drinking place..The place was really isolated..It was in the middle of all these industrial building and in the middle there is a vietnamese restaraunt/bar..This is the kind of place where girls wear hoochie clothing and most of the time sit and drink with her customers..The waitresses were sorta ignoring our table, maybe cuz they were intimidated that we werent guys? lols...

We came there around 10:30 and wanted to sing, but because it was a full house we couldnt have our turn..Snip met us up at the restaraunt, and we just decided we wanted to go clubbin..So we went clubbing at 12:30, with only an hour to dance..I didnt even want to drink anything, because I didnt want to waste time dancing!!! lols..The music was better then most nights for some reason, which was really good!...Duo ended up meeting us at the club as well..We were gonna go back to the restaraunt and just listen to music and drink some more, but Snip asked us to go to his friends houseparty..He tricked us, because it wasnt a house party!! It was just a bunch of guys sitting around and playing poker!!! Me and the girls were so tired we just said that we would wait in the car for them..We waited 3 friggin hours for Snip and Duo because they were so into playing poker!! We girls were all getting so pissed off!!..Anyways, Duo ended up winning 200 so he said he would treat us out to breakfast...We didnt leave the house till 4:30am...We had breakfast at 5 in the friggin morning! There was nobody there..By the time we got out it was all sunny!..Man, I've never ate so late or early...Im tired now...This kind of going out is way too much for me...

Anyways, I love this Maroon 5 song called nothing lasts forever...ive been playing it constantly...

...

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 03:47:02 GMT

Went to work at the restaraunt today, and it was an okay turnout...I was supposed to go to the movies with Alena and her bf Snip but we were going to catch the late show which was close to midnight..I usually fall asleep at the movie theater and with it being so late I knew that it wasnt worth it to go watch a movie...Ive been trying to fill up any spare time I have by just working...I work at the salon on weedays and weekends and work at the restaraunt at night..

I really dont have to work so much, since I make decent amount of money at the salon but I like keeping busy because that prevents me from moping around and be lazy...Im going to try writing poems again, since I havent written one in a really long time, but the process always takes so long for me, and I really have to be in a depressive state of mind...We'll see I guess...Father's day is right around the corner so gonna take my dad out to dinner..We dont really have a tight relationship like how it is with my mom, but besides everything that he is, hes still my dad...

My feets feels all bloated, really bad sign that I must have gained at least 15lbs within this week...just really horrible huh? I really have to get back on track or else its gonna be so hard to lose it all...

My stomach wants to explode!..lols..

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 16:17:09 GMT

Yesterday, Duo me and Alena went to go eat sushi at Sushi Zen in downtown San Jose...Well during our car ride to the sushi place we ate some bud cupcakes...The place was pretty good, big rolls stuffed with alot of fish and other seafood...We had oyster shooters, and it was so big it was the size of a coffee mug; that was okay but it was too carbonated for me..We had sake bombs and thats when the cupcake started hitting me, and gosh...!!!! I was soOooo high!! I was in between not knowing if im buzz or high...We were talking so loud, everbody probably thought we were crazy...

We went to a karaoke bar in JapanTown called Bamboo...That place was a trip to me..Everybody in the room was American and we were the only asians besides the bartenders who were old enough to be my parents and grandparents...They were probably 2nd or 3rd generation japanese people because the old man spoke really good english...Anyways the person singing would go up on stage and have a spotlight on them as they are singing..To sing you have to put in one dollar, and as you are singing everything is being streamed online where people write comments LIVE about you...lols...Me and Alena were too embarassed to go up there and sing eventhough we been wanting to do karaoke so bad...We just hanged out at the bar ordering hella sprites cuz we all had cottonmouth...I was accustomed to going to a karaoke place were its closed off to just you and your friends or someplace dark where nobody could see you while you sing, but this place was so open and all these strangers are looking at you..It reminded me of watching American Idol but being drunk at the same time...The people here would sing rock songs and it was so daym good! and these really big girls were singing "baby got back" and were just hella shaking thier thang it was so funnie..!! I recorded it so ill post it up on youtube later...

Duo had to drop us off back at the restaraunt cuz he had to take care of some things..So we just hanged out at Crawdad King drinking more sprite, and eat some jambalaya..We then went to Carrows to go eat pancakes cuz me and Alena were craving for breakfast...Anyways it is really not a good idea to go to sleep on a hella full ass stomach!!! Im feeling so uncomfortable right now its crazy!!!...*sighs..

some piks i found on the web...