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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Before there were no humans in the world, there were only feelings.They lived in this world like we do now. One day some of the feelings, love, hate, craziness, sadness, and happiness came together and they were walking.Then Craziness said : Lets play hide and seek. He was crazy, all the crazy and wild ideas came out from him. Then others said OK but decided to make him the one who would seek for others. Craziness did not think much. He said OK. He started counting. Then everyone hid somewhere. However Love was confused. He did not know where to hide.Then he just jumped into a bunch of roses.

When craziness opened his eyes and started seeking for others, he was able to find everyone. However he could not find Love and he was mad.Then he saw that the bunch of roses and he noticed that they moved. Craziness was crazy, so he took the rake next to the roses and started looking between the roses with it. Just then everyone heard Love screaming.

Love was hurt and he came out himself. He was blind. Craziness had made him blind. He had poked Loves eyes with the rake and now Love was blind. Then everyone said that craziness had to walk around with love all the time now to show him the way because he had made him blind. After that day, Love was blind and Love and Craziness always walked together. Bottom line, Craziness always made Love do crazy things.


Saturday, April 23, 2005

There's a point in your life when you think you just have to stop. You just have to stop and think and look back into your past. Everything you have done, you did it for a reason. As stupid as the reason may be, there's a reason. And behind those stupid reasons, are the REAL reasons. That is why there is the question "WHY?" The answer always begins with a because. Why and Because would not been made if God had no reason. He couldn't have had a reason if he did not create. That is why creation is one of the most exhilirating joys, but it can be a danger as well. The chosen people have created the most beautiful things you can imagine and "HOW?" That is God's secret. If you were to go up to Ludwig van Beethoven and ask him How or Why he composed such genius, he would tell you. But he wouldn't tell the REAL reasons or the REAL steps. Like a Smile, you can master hiding everything. And if everything you wish to hide, SMILE.

I can believe..if i really needed to. So at this point, I do. But you should always let a person believe what they want to. Therefore, in my words, "Believe what you want to believe."                   WHY?                 Because... no one can force you to believe, it's all in you.


Friday, April 08, 2005

A boy walked into a cd store
and saw a girl behind the counter.

She smiled and he thought it was the most
beautiful smile he has ever seen before and
wanted to kiss her right there.

He said "Uh... Yeah... Umm... I would like to
buy a CD." He picked one out and gave her
money for it.

"Would you like me to wrap it for you?" she
asked, smiling her cute smile again.

He nodded and she went to the back.

She came back with the wrapped CD and
gave it to him. He took it and walked out of the store.
He went home and from then on, he went to
that store everyday and bought a CD, and she
wrapped it for him. He took the CD home
and put it in his closet. He was still too shy to ask her out
and he really wanted to but he couldn't. His
mother found out about this and told him to
just ask her.

So the next day, he took all his courage and
went to the store. He bought a CD like he did
everyday and once again she went to the
back of the store and came back with it
wrapped. He took it and when she wasn't looking, he left his
phone number on the desk and ran out...

!!!RRRRRING!!!

The mother picked up the phone and
said, "Hello?"

It was the girl!!! She asked for the boy and
the mother started to cry and said, "You don't
know? He passed away yesterday...

" The line was quiet except for the cries of
the boy's mother. Later in the day. The mother
went into the boy's room because she
wanted to remember him. She thought she
would start
by looking at his clothes. So she opened the
closet. She was face to face with piles and
piles and piles of unopened CDs. She was
surprised to find all those CDs and she
picked one up and sat down on the bed and she
started to open one.

Inside, there was a CD and as she took it out
of the wrapper, out fell a piece of paper. The
mother picked it up and started to read it.

It said: Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you
wanna go out with me? Love,Jacelyn

The mother opened another CD...

Again there was a piece of paper. It said:
Hi... I think you are really cute. Do you wanna go out
with me? Love, Jacelyn

Love is... when you've had a huge fight but
then decide to put aside your egos, hold
hands and say, "I Love You"


Tuesday, March 22, 2005

10th Grade

As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. she was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, black hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and I handed them to her. she said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade

The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. she was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broken her heart. she asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. she looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step! I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her gown and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another guy. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn`t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". she said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! "I wish I did too..." I thought to my self, and I cried.



***Don't hold back how you feel about someone. No matter what it is you should tell them because one day you might regret not telling them. Repost this and nothing bad will happen to you. it will encourage others to reveal their true feelings***


Sunday, March 06, 2005

Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Chops"
because that was the name of his dog
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and a gold star

And his mother hung it on the kitchen door
and read it to his aunts
That was the year that Father Tracy
took all the kids to the zoo
And he let them sing on the bus
And his little sister was born
with tiny toenails and no hair
And his mother and father kissed a lot
And the girl around the corner sent him a
valentine signed with a row of X's
and he had to ask his father what the X's meant
And his father always tucked him in bed at night
And was always there to do it

Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines
he wrote a poem
And he called it "Autumn"
because that was the name of the season
And that's what it was all about
And his teacher gave him an A
and asked him to write more clearly
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door
because of its new paint
And the kids told him
that Father Tracy smoked cigars
And left butts on the pews
And sometimes they would burn holes
That was the year his sister got glasses
with thick lenses and black frames
And the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see Santa Claus
And the kids told him why
his mother and father kissed a lot
And his father never tucked him in bed at night
And his father got mad when he cried for him to do it.

Once on a paper torn from his notebook
he wrote a poem

And he called it "Innocence: A Question"
because that was the question about his girl
And that's what it was all about
And his professor gave him an A
and a strange steady look
And his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed her
That was the year that Father Tracy died
And he forgot how the end of the Apostle's Creed went
And he caught his sister making out on the back porch
And his mother and father never kissed or even talked
And the girl around the corner wore too much makeup That made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to do
And at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed
his father snoring soundly

That's why on the back of a brown paper bag
he tried another poem
And he called it "Absolutely Nothing"
Because that's what it was really all about
And he gave himself an A
and a slash on each damned wrist
And he hung it on the bathroom door
because this time he didn't think
he could reach the kitchen.



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