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Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 21:50:29 GMT

COME TO MY NEW XANGA ITS

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Wednesday, June 01, 2005

Wed, 01 Jun 2005 04:05:06 GMT

hey everyone...i guess this past week has been alright. i'm no longer depressed or so as i think. i have pictures from sunday. i went to visit my cuzin up at the gas station.. ate sum free grub lmao he was chasin me around all over the place trying to tickle me~!! haha... n e who yesturday i went swimming for like hours!! down in norman at my moms friends apt. and i saw one of my old buddies there!!! gaw...i miss him lots its been like 3 years..then i saw him takin a cancerstick and i'm like...woah.....thats not kewl, but i would have never expected him to cuz he used to be one of my best friends. well here are the pics!

my baby cuzin loren

thats my cuzin johns car!! sooweet...

thats my bro's car!! its kickin...!! luvin the rims..~!

well.... here's another poem...~ enjoy

Curious for Love

Curious to know Love

What is it like

How does it feel

You pick and person and say " I LOVE YOU"

how do you kno if that person is the " ONE "

It could always be the next one

or the next, or the next after that

but what ever the feeling I guess

when you know, you just know

when you first feel love

It's something new

A new feeling

Something that you've never felt before

you kno Love when you want to

~ be with that person

~ to take care of them

and to always have that feeling when your around that person

Love is Love and that feeling never changes

Never be in a rush

Love is patience

Rememer no - one will love you as much as God ever will.

Sunday, May 29, 2005

Sun, 29 May 2005 05:06:02 GMT

hey everyone! i just got back from my aunts house hanggin with my tha crew ( my familz)

me with my aunt

matthew cori samanta me nikki and loren ( all my cuzins )

a noral picture!!

my cuzin matthew again!! haha face stuffed with brownies all over it!

my uncle from housten...gah he ruined the pic!!

well there's a story for u of how he sharted!! haha...n e ways

this morning when i woke up i got a comment on my xanga from a guy that i've never herd from b4..it was strange because he was out of know-where...we talk and talked all morning til i had to leave of corse. he's amazing and words cannot explain how freaky it was that we had everything in common. esspecially when we talked about God!! it was a real spark...n e ways goodnite all

Friday, May 27, 2005

Fri, 27 May 2005 21:26:55 GMT

there's our pig that my group dissected on

jerrick chris me and katelyn

today i read more into the bible during school time. each day my cravings to read it grows and grows.

" Do not change urselves to be like the people of this world, but be changed within by a new way of thinking. Then you will be able to decide what God wants for you ; you will know what is good and pleasing to him and what is perfect."

~ Romans 12 : 2

There's a verse that is intereting to those who tend to change urself for the sake of having friends. It is better to have God and no friends than to have to not be true to your heart for who you really are.

These past few days or week i've felt that I wanted to give up on things and let go for all i've worked to be who I am today. Depression took over me after lunch... along with that I became more and more agrivated with everyone and everything. ya kno how a lot of teens say " i hate everything" well thats what i was feeling and with that i wanted to just give up on life, hope, LOVE, etc. but thats not how everything works. no-1 was there to compfert me but then i came across this verse.

" He compferts us every time we have trouble, so when others have trouble, we can compfert them with the same compfert that God gave us. "

~ 2 Corinthians 1 : 4

That reminded me that God was there for me when others are not. Which opened up my eyes a little wider.

Friday, May 27, 2005

Fri, 27 May 2005 00:46:25 GMT

hello!! last nite paige and heather and me went to go watch star wars!! again for me at the hardkins theater...again i went to sleep lol.....does n e one remember when anikin and obi fight count dooku and this one part where this platform falls on obi ...i think that was the most cheap filmed part cuz u could tell that it was all fake and obi wasnt injured just unconscience ..wouldnt u think he would have hurt his lower half of the body? n e ways skool was the same as always.

" With trust, God will supply you with everything that you need " Philipians 4: 19

today i didnt have lunch $ and there was the lunch lady giving out free french fries!! how weird is that cuz the lunch lady rarely does that. God works in many ways.

well thanks to someone i have a booboo on my left side of the ribs cuz this dude named micheal was kicking a fence and as he kicked it ...the u lookin thing that u use to shut the gates with hit my side....which sucks cuz i normally sleep on my stomach or on my left side.

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Wed, 25 May 2005 22:59:03 GMT

today was quite interesting..lol we all got our yearbooks today!! not much to say there...sigh..lol i let ppl sign my boobs haha!! like 8 ppl did and then 2 ppl signed on my belly haha ...i feel naughty..n e who i'm off

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Tue, 24 May 2005 21:14:27 GMT

Sometimes there is nothing you can do

Only a day can pass another

Count the stars and recieve that many heartbreaks

When emotions run through your thoughts

of all the painful memories

Count every bloodshed and recieve that many scars

Memories never leave you comepletely

At one time or another, eventually it will come to mind

The closer you get, the more your love grows

The harder you'll fall, into your own eyes for everyone to see

how much i bled for you and me

I'll never forget those sparkles in your eyes

Or how I felt when the sun rises

today i was just depressed...idn i guess i'm just thinking about this past year and what i've gone through...horrible..sigh.. n e ways as i'm continue-ing my diet i cheated and had a bag of hot cheetoes..ugh!! i should slap myself silly for that! : p hmm...

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Tue, 24 May 2005 03:34:00 GMT

i just got back from my cuzins house...we' were all playing dodgeball and sadly i got hit in my left eye really hard...it hurts but at least the pain isnt as bad as it was!!

Monday, May 23, 2005

Mon, 23 May 2005 21:26:31 GMT

hey everyone? well last nite i was praying to God actually for the first time in months! and when i got done i had this strange warm feeling and when i woke up this morning i felt excited and full of joy! which normally i would feel hyper or depressed. here's a good verse for the day:

" Do not become angry easily because anger will not help

you live the right kind of life God wants . " ~ James 1: 19-20

plus! being angry is a waste of time if you think about it! when you try to do sumthing fun there's no point cuz you cant enjoy doing it w/ that anger still in your heart.

Monday, May 23, 2005

Mon, 23 May 2005 05:02:06 GMT

nothing much to say ... idn maybe i'm just depressed...heck hanging with my uncle i learned alot about growing with God more. it makes me realize that i need to stop doing or thinking about certain things...growing spiritually isnt easy but who said that it never took any effort? well at life church saturday we learned about hypocrites... which is pretty interesting to look into.

HI PAIGE!

well there's not much to say...gaw...yay FORCED INTO FAMILY TIME WITH MY CUZIN!! NIGHTMARES!! *shreaks*

my cuzin is visiting from tx..gaw..lol

uhhh i went to hardkins theather to watch star wars E: 3!! haha...it was pretty gewd....! awsome yes it was...haha yoda is the best!