Things I am NOT:

• I am not a damsel in distress. 
• I am not a ditz.
• I am not a major flirt.
• I am not psychotically jealous.
• I am not skinny.
• I am not a supermodel.
• I am not a genius.
• I am not a fashion diva.
• I am not a frilly type girl.
• I am not a clean freak.
• I am not a nerd.
• I am not athletic.
• I am not shallow.
• I am not materialistic.
• I am not dependent on guys.
• I am not a cat or a pit bull lover.
• I am not a rap lover.
• I am not organized or disorganized.
• I am not confident.
• I am not sure of what I'm meant to do with my life.
• I am not in love.
• I am not as strong as I thought.
• I am not a drama queen.
• I am not a poet.
• I am not always all smiles.
• I am not complicated.

But:

• I am stubborn.
• I am independent.
• I am a photographer, drawer, and painter.
• I am an animal lover.
• I am a music fan.
• I am a writer.
• I am simplistic.
• I am a psychology major.
• I am a people pleaser.
• I am an advice-giver.
• I am a listener.
• I am a reader.
• I am a purse lover.
• I am a shopaholic.
• I am regretful.
• I am a drinker.
• I am a Christian.
• I am a lover of love.
• I am bitter.
• I am who I'm supposed to be.
• I am me.

Watching Sex and The City always makes me want to move to New York and become a writer.  Instead, I settle for writing an xanga entry.

Sometimes I feel that some of the best conversations I've ever had has been over IM.  Is that sad?

They say "distance makes the heart grow fonder"....I wish I was 5000 miles away from here...

Whats she got that I don't?

Things I don't Like:

• green beans
• being lied to
• "best friends" who screw you over
• electrical cords
• elementary statistics
• sand
• self-absorption
• pit bulls
• hairy legs
• know-it-alls
• thoughtlessness
• people who make you cry (in a bad way)
• family feuds
• alarm clocks
• spiders, snakes, and jellyfish
• not knowing the "why" to certain questions
• some words in the English language...they're uncalled for
• being forgotten about
• having to drive 5 hours to go home
• not hearing a certain ringtone on my phone...
• letting friendships go
• my bubba going tojapan
• 8 o'clock classes
• and finally, getting screwed over.

Tomorrow will be a list of things I do like.

Until then,  holla.

If this doesn't show you how bored I am, I don't know what will.

I had a 2 hour phone conversation tonight.  Those are always the best!

I'm tired of not being able to trust people, of being let down, and dropped like a bad habit.

I killed a stink bug in my room.

This summer is going to be great!

Not too long til I get a new dog!!  VERY exciting!

Old pictures make me smile.

Looking forward to next semester!  It'll go down in the Hall of Fame fo sho.

Pray for my dad.  Something's wrong with his health and they can't figure out what it is.  scary.

Grandparents 60th wedding anniversary shin-dig in 2 weeks!  Can you imagine being married for that long??  CRA-ZY

I'm blessed to have the great friends that I do.  I don't deserve them.

Major changes coming Fall '06!  Watch out!

God is awesome!

I think naps should be mandatory.

I love water.  and milk.  and apple juice.

I'm pretty sure I'm going to be the girl version of "What about Brian". 

I just remember the day I rescued Allison from the loser table at lunch in 7th grade, and now she's graduating from college in 2 days.  Time flies!

It's funny how people come in and out of your life.  Sometimes it seems too short.

Going to South Carolina this summer!  whoo-hooo!

My Top 3 favorite songs EVER:  1.  Crash - Dave Matthews Band  2.  Alabama - Cross Canadian Ragweed  3.  Nice, Naive, and Beautiful - Plumb

Sometimes I wish I could undo things from my past and sometimes I wish I could remove people from it.

And now it's time for me to go to bed.

holla.

Currently Listening Back to Bedlam By James Blunt see related

Excert from Searching for God Knows What:

Imagine, a Being with a mind as great as God's, with feet like trees and a voice like rushing wind, telling you that you are His cherished creation.  It's kind of exciting if you think about it.  Earthly love is temporal and slight so that it has to be given again and again in order for us to feel any sense of security; but God's love, God's voice and presence, would instill our souls with such affirmation we would need nothing more and would cause us to love other people so much we would be willing to die for them.  Perhaps this is what the apostles stumbled upon.

Although we think of ourselves as insignificant beings on this tiny planet that is planted firmly in a huge universe, we are not.  We are treasured more dearly and loved more passionately by the greatest Being of all time.  Think about it.

searching....

holla.

Spent the weekend in Dallas.  I've found that every time I go and spend time in my grandfather's apartment, a little more of my grandmother has been removed.  This time it was her perfume bottles.  I don't know what to think.  I know that a person needs to move on, but to me there has to be some difficulty in watching "the love of your life" slowly slip away from you.  Yeah, she's been gone 2 years last Monday, but they were together over 50 years.  50 years!!  Can you imagine loving someone for that long and for the rest of your life?!  I wonder what he thinks of when we bring her up?  Does his heart long for her?  And now I'm done. 

OH!  My grandfather has a mini IPOD.  Never been used, still has plastic on it.  What's a 70-something year old man going to do with an IPOD?!  You're killin me!

I miss Rebecca Ann Holden.  I wish she were here right now.  She makes me laugh no matter what mood I'm in. 

I started reading another Donald Miller book:  Searching for God Knows What.  I can already tell it's a good one.  I'm on page 5, but I've already had quite a few "mmmm, amen brotha" moments.  And a few reality checks which are always needed. 

I have 2 tests tomorrow and writing this entry is just another way for me to avoid the inevitable.  I suppose I'll go ahead and face it though. 

holla.