These are the deepest thought I have ever had
All of these words are fighting inside of my head
It's just so hard to choose what to say
So that I can convince you to stay

Don't leave me here
All alone
I'm afraid I'll die tonight

I can't endure the suffering anymore

These words are making me
React to things
As if they are brand new
But in all actuality
They are the same exact feelings that
I have known for my entire life

Infact these thoughts are reoccuring
As dreams that are constantly in replay
There is no pause or stop button
Although I wish there was

I wish I could stop myself from
Falling into this deep black hole
There is only one way to get out
Will you offer me your hand?

Your hand is my only source of strength
It is what is keeping me alive
It's keeping these voices inside of my head
From screaming at the top of their lungs

I just need to block out everything that is happening
And when I finally do
I can lie back down onto my bed
And finally enjoy a pleasant dream
And oh, how I hope we meet in my dream
We can kiss underneath the shining stars
And lie together and wake up to
The most beautiful sunset that has ever occured since 
The world has been alive

I'm only alive when I'm with you
So please don't leave me all alone tonight
With only the voices inside of my head
Because I'm too afraid that
When I wake up, If I ever do that is,
That all I'm going to see is
The dirt and soil of my grave.

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A heart

Broken into two

Shattered into a million

Like a broken mirror

A thousand feelings

Just waiting to burst

I’m sitting here

All alone up in my room

Contemplating upon

Whether or not I should tell you the truth

I just want to break free

From the skin that is the

Only barrier from

A world which is yet needed to be explored

Will you come with me?

Will you join in on this expedition?

Maybe we will find something of no true value

Maybe we will find love

Maybe that love will

Reshape my heart

Sew it back together

As if it is a piece of cloth

Although

My heart is more like a glass

Sitting at the edge of a table

Whoops!

A kid knocks over the glass

It hits the floor

Once again my heart is shattered by

The things the ugly humans do

I just want to find a place that is comfortable

I place where I feel like I belong

There is no judgment

There are no sins

Everything is beautiful

But as of now, half of the world is ugly

Caught in a period of dark black

There is no color

There is no life

But

There is one person

A small little girl

She is wearing the only source of color that

Is to be found

And

On the other side of the crowd

There is yet another person

A small little boy

He is the only boy wearing a color

They work towards the middle

And yes,

They find each other

They hold each other

And they realize

This is what love is

Really all about

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Don’t question my motives

You should actually be questioning yours

Why does it matter to you so much about

Why I do the things I do?

You think I’m revolting

I’m just releasing all of this anger

And I’ll hurt anyone who comes in my way

Well

You are so wrong.

Everything’s fine

I’m just trying to find myself

Trying to find my own medium

Where I can be safe

Where I don’t have to worry about

What people really think of me when

I say something that wasn’t like me

Way back when

I was all dolled up

Living in a world filled with rainbows and sunshine

These rainbows are loosing their color

The sunshine isn’t turning into dark, grey clouds

The whole world is turning from bright watercolors to black

A black nothingness

All we have left is nothing

Did that make any sense?

When we all learned that

We might rise into an afterlife

Relive our hopes and dreams

Restate our motives

But does it occur to anyone that

There might not be anything left to live for?

And in the end

We are all born to loose

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I’m breaking down inside

I’m crying internally

My body is swelling up

With all of these tears

That just won’t show on my face

It seems like no one cares anymore

My best friend doesn’t even care

It feels like there is no one left to trust

When did trust become such an issue?

What did I do to deserve this?

Where staying home on Friday nights

Was what my destiny led up to

I didn’t ask for this

I didn’t ask for abandonment

All I asked for was someone to share my secrets with

Not that there are any secrets left to tell

I have no poker face

I just can’t keep my feelings from showing on the oustide

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The world is closing in upon me

I can just feel it

I’m losing all of my friends

I’m losing all of my family

I have absolutely nothing left to call my own

My work habits are appalling

I’m losing the touch that keeps me alive

Alive enough to keep writing this phrase

This phrase is all I believe in

Because

What’s left that I can actually believe in?

I don’t want to believe in love

Or in the unique bond shared

Where you can bend over backwards

And if you end up falling

There is someone there to catch you

And make you feel safe

What are you saving me from?

My own insecurities

If you know what they are

Will you tell me?

Save me

Please

Even though I don’t want to admit

That I need saving

Truthfully

We all need saving

It’s one of the only things that we should trust in life

Or can we?

Some people are left all alone in this

Cold and brutal world

With no one at all

They are left to die

At the crossroads of life

Deciphering upon

Whether or not to take a step into the intersection where you might see heaven

Or whether or not to take a step backwards, going back into a miserable life

Why travel back in time?
Why not just make a new path?

Is heaven really a way out?

Or is it just a new beginning to another miserable journey

Or has the journey yet to begun?

Are we at a checkpoint where our parents are still holding our hands?

Are we still being told what to do with our every minute of our life?

When will we become independent?

When will we take our stand?

When will we face the battle field?

When will we?

Does anyone have an answer?

Or

Are we all just scared?

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