Logging in and posting to keep my old entries. Not that there is anything super special in them. It's just nice to be able to look back at things if I ever want to. Have I yet? No. Will I? Maybe someday. And maybe someday I'll finally get a copy of all my entries on my computer so I won't have to do this again.

2008 has been a great year. It's been rough the last few, but things are actually starting to take a turn for the better. Okay so the economy and stuff isn't doing so great nowadays, so maybe not the right choice of words. It makes me happy that I'm able to look back at this year so far and just smile.

Updates...BIGGEST NEWS of the year, my best friends are engaged and have a new house. Alice is married to Chris. Erica is expecting a baby in July. Emjay will be getting married in August. As for me, no ring yet. I think I said a long time ago that I wanted to get engaged by 24...but my best friend is living out that dream for me so that makes me happy  I predicted them getting engaged June 2008 four years ago...I'm freaking awesome. HA. I don't think I'm quite ready for all that anyway. I feel old, but I still feel too young. I feel like time is at a stand still for me.

Pictures are always good. So I'll add pictures now. I'm a little worn out from too much working...

hahaha. wow, xanga. i forgot all about you.

obviously i've been busy. i've hardly seen anyone really all year. hardly even talked to anyone all year. trying to get things together and on track. 2006 has been crazy. i like life so much more now that i'm graduated and not stressing about doing homework and studying. although i do miss my roommates.

the holidays have ok. i haven't even gotten to see my cousins on our normal thanksgiving/christmas get-togethers/eating fests. i'm not as close to them as i'd like to be but you know, they're family and i want them to be in my life. i want us to grow up old together. it'll make the holidays more hectic with deciding who's house we will end up going to, but i think it'd definitely be worth it.

alice just called me and told me she got engaged. and again, i am probably the last to find out. but i am so incredibly happy for her.  i am still in tears. this is what actually inspired me to get on xanga today. hopefully i get to see her and all the other girls this weekend. DO NOT PLAN TO GO OUT ON FRIDAYS! geez. i work friday nights. i was already sad to have missed out on the mean santa exchange and sisterhood. sigh.

erica has her date set for her wedding. and i'm one of the bridesmaids, hooray! i'm so excited. unfortunately for her, she put me and nicole in charge of planning her bridal shower/bachelorette party. hahaha. sorry in advance, erica

i'm not gonna lie and say that things are going great. because more and more problems with health and wellness and stability seem to be taking over my family. so things are definitely hard. but i feel like i learned a lot more about myself. i'm beginning to start to like and value myself.  with the help of the people that really love me.  and i've realized more why it went through my forever-long states of depression. i really did focus too much on the things going wrong. and i have seen now what i need to change, and seen the difference, and i am learning to appreciate everything i have that is good.

i didn't get to see my lil when she was in town. that made me kinda sad.  but i have a new townhouse!! woo hoo~ it's in centreville/borderline fairfax. currently my dad and brother are still living with me. but by the end of the summer, my brother will be away at college, and my dad will be retired and moving to the cambodia. or that's the plan for now. my own place. wow. i'm getting old.

i guess this is kinda a goodbye to 2006. i'm thankful for doing so well and being so lucky with getting contacts and clients for my freelance work. i'm thankful for my new place. i'm thankful for my family and friends, and for getting to meet all the new people i've met. sorry for the randomness. i wonder if anyone ever really goes or checks xangas anymore. haha. yeah, i'm really out of the loop.

2007. i'm turning 24. yikes. my plan was to get engaged when i'm 24. hA! looks like i've got 18 months to work on that. i'll let you know how it goes...

p.s. hi rasmey  this was for you. and happy anniversary to you and tam!

i'm feeling lost.
i don't know what i want to do with my life.  and i feel like everything i do now is definitely gonna decide how my life ends up.  pretty scary.  my life is on pause for safety, and i don't know when to start it up again.  i'm not really doing too much with my life, but i just feel so overwhelmed for some reason.

lately i feel like i just wanna be left alone.  not cuz i don't love everyone, just cuz i feel like i need my alone time.  without having to worry about A N Y O N E else.  or worry about anyone else's thoughts on anything.  as selfish as that sounds.   i know i'm stupid.

i dunno. i dunno...
definitely haven't been feeling like myself lately.

and my stupid computer is c o n s t a n t l y giving me problems. not fun.  i'm actually not working tonight so i'm gonna try to fix it after this.

ok so now i gotta end on a happy note   so BIG NEWS!!
my latest model call was for this new import show that they're gonna be shooting that's gonna air on UPN.  as of now, they've picked 5 models for the show.  and i'm one of them!!*   and they chose ME to be in the national ad!! i'm so excited!!!  i get to shoot that next month.  so time to start working out and toning my body cuz i don't wanna be one of those girls that girls look at and are like "why the hell did they pick her to be in that ad?"  yeah, girls are mad critical yo.

anyways, they haven't worked out all the details with UPN yet, but basically the show is gonna be called URBAN CUSTOMS and it's gonna be about import cars (they didn't go much into detail about it).  everything is supposed to be worked out by next week and then they're gonna start telling us exactly what they want us to do, when the show starts to go into production, how much we get P A I D, blah blah blah.  cool huh?!   

and lastly, happy birthday to all the birthdays in february!!  sung, my biggie who disappeared (anyone know where saira went?!), kdphi , nicole, angela, aimee (mini me), and susie!! yAY!*

and here's some pics from last week to spice up the entry. cuz nobody reads anything anymore.

the girls @ sung's bday

nicole's bday (i wasn't there cuz nobody called me ) but i love this pic

tina, julie!! who i haven't seen in forever , me

dawa and me - we definitely do not look alike.

ben, me, and yoonhie. i don't know why they are my friends.