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Sunday, July 06, 2008

Sun, 06 Jul 2008 13:39:17 GMT

WHAT SUP?

Yea ... "What sup?" ... "What's up?" ... "Wassup?" ... Or whatever ... however ... you write it ... I just don't understand why do some ppl reply me "What do you mean?" ... -____-" ...

Give me a break!

Anywayz ... Happy Birthday to Long Island! Hope you did enjoy ur pool party! =)

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 14:18:41 GMT

TASTELESS

I got tasteless for 6 hours today ... Do you know how does it feel? LOL!

I've been using a new mouth wash which was prescribed by my family doctor few days ago ... I knew it's kinda strong but it was ok not until this morning ... My tongue totally felt tasteless when I was eating my breakfast ... LOL! Laugh? Yes ... I was absolutely normal when I felt tasteless and was joking with my coworkers that I could finally eat something which I hate! LOL! I did call my doctor and he told me that it's fine ... just don't rinse for too long next time ...

In fact, I really felt absolutely normal and calm during the tasteless moment ... I tried to eat chocolate ... cookies ... chewing gum ... bread ... bla bla bla ... but they were all the same taste -- no taste! LOL! But isn't it scary to you?

And sadly ... the first thing bang in my mind was ... "Does my insurance cover losing sense of taste"? LOL!

I couldn't understand why I felt absolutely normal for this ... still ... But I think ... it could be that I've been experiencing too many ups and downs lately and this is just another "oh ... fine ..." to me ... LOL!

So, I was actually so excited when I got the first bite of my lunch ... "Wow! It tastes so good ..."

A self-reflection ...

"Just do whatever you think you should do ... or you will regret when you miss it ... coz you can never do it again ..."

Thursday, June 26, 2008

Thu, 26 Jun 2008 14:07:09 GMT

SUITABLE VS. LIKE

2 weeks ago, I went out with P. Li for my birthday celebration and we caught up so much not only on our funny work stories but also my love stories (do I have any? LOL!) ... I got a conclusion from him of why I can't find a match one ...

P. Li told me that I have set up too many criteria when selecting my partner or a date ... just like I'm doing recruitment that there is a list of requirements which I need my candidates to fulfill otherwise, I won't refer them to a 2nd interview ... FYI that P. Li is also in HR field specializing in training and development ... So, whatever he commented on me ... I took it 90% and did a self-evaluation afterwards ... LOL!

Indeed, I did write a topic "Another HR Theory" months ago here ... talking about my view when selecting a partner ... or a date ... And until now, I'm still proud of what I had written ... my theory ... LOL! I think I've just been diagnosed a new occupation disease ... LOL! >_< ...

Anywayz, after chatting with P. Li ... I did ask myself a question ...

"Do we have to be that rational ... when selecting a partner or a date?"

Before we answer this ... Let's see what I have set ...

1. Someone around my age (+/- 2 yrs)

2. Independent (not only financially but also individually)

3. To have common topics and interests with me (so that we can do something together ...)

4. Able to get along WELL with my best friends (this is particularly important to me ... coz, this is just important to me ... LOL!)

5. Able to be a good listener and share my problems ... and of course, I would do the same thing too ... (isn't it common for a couple?)

6. Meet up for at least once a week (I don't need to meet up everyday ... and I really need my own privacy too ...)

7. Serious to start and maintain the relationship ... (this is what we call long term relationship ...)

8. Compromise ... (so that we can last long ...)

9. ...

You see ... I can actually write so many criteria here ... BUT, what I really want to say is that ... I really think that these are the most common criteria when we select the other part ... Am I f***king wrong?

P. Li said ... "When you do like someone ... you won't think of all these bullshit criteria ... just go ..."

D. Wong (me) replied ... "And how and what are you gonna do when you figure out that this person doesn't suitable for you after you have started something?"

And here another question pops up ... "Suitable vs. Like" ...

"When selecting a partner or a date ... does 'suitability' come before 'like'? Or the other way around?"

Up to this moment ... I still think that ... or maybe I should say ... I still believe that I need to find someone who is suitable for myself before I can go deeper ... BUT, on the other hand ... I think I will also try to minimize my 'principles' and try a new way to ... like someone ... LOL! And hopefully ... I will succeed ... LOL! ... Emm ... I doubted ...

Tonite, I had said "no" the 3rd time in just 3 months ... It seems that I've got used to it ...

I think we were so close ... but ... I'm sorry ... life is short ... and I really have no time to fool around ...

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 14:45:19 GMT

LATELY, I'VE BEEN ...

Been eating so much in the past 2 weeks ... LOL! And yet, I don't think I do gain weight though ... Thank you so much for all of the treats ... =)

Been spending so much in the past 2 weeks ... Oh well, it's my birthday and it's my last "2X" birthday ... so ... I just wanna spend (but not waste) on something ... Hair ... clothes ... food ... drinks ... clubs ... LOL!

Been working so much in the past 2 weeks ... I don't know how long more I'm gonna stay with this company ... It just seems that my motivation has been getting down and ... I need more income to survive in HK!

Been planning so much in the past 2 weeks ... I think I'll make at least 2 more trips for this year ... JFK? And one more ... do I have other choices except for ... INDIAN? LOL!

Been thinking so much in the past 2 weeks since ... I know it's not gonna work ... And yet, I'm still not willing to give up ... Why does God always give me something gorgeous which I can never own?

"If you do like someone who you know it's not gonna work out ... Will you still continue to like him? Or, you will go with the flow and keep on going .. ?"

To me ... I think I'll try to make both of us happy ... I just want you to smile every time when you see my messages and receive my calls ... Isn't it good enough to keep on going like this?

It's strange ... I think I got a feeling ... got back the feeling which I've once lost in the past years ... It's the feeling of missing someone ... Is it bad though?

I am indeed very happy but yet ... a bit worrying ... Happy that I've finally found someone who I like again ... But yet ... is this a wrong person again?

Sometimes, I do want to shout out loud that "I REALLY F***KING MISS YOU!" ... But, do you feel like the same as well?

I've seen Sex and the City last week ... It is "fabulous" ... Brought back so much of memories especially during the period when I was in Toronto ... Called AL immediately after that and yeah ... when can all of us meet up again?

Who doesn't want a fairy tale and yeah .... when can I end my fairy tale like Carrie and Big?

Am I writting too much for this time though ... ? But I write what I mean ...

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

Tue, 10 Jun 2008 12:00:00 GMT

THE LAST "2X" ...

Alrite ... The last "2X" ... birthday is finally here ... Yeah ... I'm "30 - 1" now ... Is that cool? LOL! Been eating so much lately ...

1. 06/06 - Dinner @ Palate, SoHo ... Thanks for J.Tong ...

2. 07/06 - Dinner @ Al Dente, SoHo ... Thanks for the 13 guests ...

3. 08/06 - Brunch @ One Bar, Central ... Thanks for P.Li ...

4. 09/06 - Lunch @ Anytime, CWB ... Thanks for V.Cheow ...

5. 09/06 - Late dinner @ Cafe O, Sheung Wan ... With J.Tam ...

6. 10/06 - Lunch @ "Zhu Jia Cai", TST East ... Thanks for M.Wong, T.Wong, M.Ng ...

7. 11/06 - Lunch @ Aku, TST East ... Thanks for my teammates ...

8. 11/06 - Dinner @ King Ludwig Beerhall, TST ... Thanks for M.Wong, P.Kwok, C.Yuen ...

9. 12/06 - Lunch @ Nara, Nara, TST East ... Thanks for SY Lau, N. Hayashi ...

10. 13/06 - Lunch @ TBC, YokuKawa, TST East ... Thanks for S.Tung, W.Tse ...

11. 14/06 - Dinner @ Paul's Kitchen, SoHo ... Joint BD dinner with B.Lam ...

12. 15/06 - Dinner @ Canucck, SoHo ... Thanks R.Lee

13. ... MORE? LOL!

Furthermore, thank you for all the local and overseas calls and SMSs from all of my best friends ... Few to mention ...

1. From SIN : A.Liew - You are the most punctual ... LOL!

2. From JFK : E.Lam (Long Island) - Thanks for the song ... =P

3. From SYD : C.Chen ...

4. From YYZ : P.Luong ...

5. From KUL : E.Tan ...

6. From CDG : J.Lai - ONLY FACEBOOK MESSAGE? Emmmmm ...

7. From SIN : MH Tan ...

8. From HKG : L.Yung ...

9. From SIN : J.Ong ...

10. From HKG/SFO : Y.Chiu ...

11. From PVG : Dad & Mom ...

12. From SIN : Sister ...

13. From KUL : P.Lim ...

14. And moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ... I luv you all and more updates later ... =)

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Sat, 31 May 2008 14:13:22 GMT

LONG ISLAND

"Long Island is long" ... Does anyone actually know how long is Long Island though? LOL! ... I've been thinking and missing this joke in the past few days ... But I ain't sure how long more will I remember this joke ... Or, was that just a joke to me? Was the whole thing a joke to me?

Back to reality please ...

I don't remember how many long distance relationships that I've ever engaged ... The only thing that I remember is that ... they all failed ... and my last long distance was ... December 2005 ... And ever since then, I've promised myself that no more long distance relationship anymore ...

But the thing is ... up until now ... it seems that all my 'normal relationship' also failed ... LOL! I ain't' sure whether it's my problem ... or theirs? Is that because I didn't make enough effort? Or, is that because I'd made too much effort?

Sometimes, I do afraid of ppl leaving something such as toothbrush, clothing, underwear, etc. in my place ... coz I know they will get an excuse to come back again! But sometimes, I'm even more scared that they leave nothing behind ... coz it means, they get a chance of not coming back again! Ironic eh? LOL!

Back to reality please ...

Kinda busy after exam ... Busy catching up with friends and being a 'tour guide' for few friends visiting HK ...

1. Met up with Vince C tonite and dinner @ SOHO ... So nice to see him again ... Still remember the bitching and clubbing days with him and Kel while I was in Shanghai ... It was so much fun!

2. Dessert with Vince C, Glenn G and his friend JC ... Sorry that I couldn't go club tonite coz of the stupid thing on my face! >_< ...

3. Didn't do much with EL ... Hope that he enjoyed his bitching trip in HK ... LOL!

4. Supper and brunch with OY ... Nice catching up and knew much more in details what had happened after you left Canada now ... LOL!

5. Planning a 'joint birthday dinner' with BL ... Paul's Kitchen ... Here we come!

6. Planning my own BD dinner with my best friends in HK ... and thinking what to do next year ... Sigh ... >_< ... But I think I wanna make it big ... "International Invitation" will be sent ... LOL!

Back to reality please ...

Count down in effect ... The most terrified moment each year is coming ... 10 more days to the last "2X" ...

In love with Joanna Wang lately ... =)

Monday, May 12, 2008

Mon, 12 May 2008 11:04:21 GMT

IN SEARCH OF ... SOMETHING

It has been over 4 months since I last updated ... But it doesn't mean that there's nothing happened in the past 4 months ...

January - 2nd semester started and busy @ work ...

February - SYD + SIN ... A relaxing holiday ...

March - SIN + Sister's wedding @ BKI, missed my flight for the first time in my life ... A lesson to me that DON'T DRINK AND FLY IN THE NEXT MORNING!

April - A very busy month ... submitted total of 4 written reports which occupied most of my weekends ... CC is back! Great catch up with everyone ...

May - CC is leaving us again ... Prepare my emotion for the next big day ...

It's not easy to end 'something' ... But, it's enough for the ambiguous 'thing' for the past 1 year ... And I believe both of us know that it's not gonna work ... After all ... I just couldn't find the one ... Why is it so hard?

Thought of taking a long sleep to avoid thinking something this afternoon ... but ended up, I was waken up by a horrible dream ... It is hard to search ... in the dream ... and it is hard to trace ... for the message ... It is even harder to understand ... why I got such a dream ...

"BANG!" ...

Just like that ... Things keep flying over and over my head ... I'm trying to recall what I have been doing in the past 1 year ... or even more than 1 year ago ... I'm thinking what will it suppose to be if ... I didn't take the MSc ... Will my life be more easy ... in terms of ... "life" ... and love?

4 more months ... just 4 more months and I'll be free from this MSc thing ... But what's next? It doesn't mean that I can find someone or something that ... I have been looking for ... It will just mean that I will have MORE time to search for ... the "thing" ...

Soul mate ... What does a soul mate mean for?

"Do we find a partner to be our soul mate? Or do we find the best friend to be our soul mate?"

Or, do we actually need a soul mate? What is a soul mate? ...

I've seen "The Queer Show" last month ... It is funny and ... it is also meaningful ...

Monday, December 31, 2007

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 05:24:59 GMT

REVIEW AND RESOLUTION

Review of Year 2007: -

1. To perform well at works and get high increment and more bonus in 2008! - SHOULD HAVE ... result to be released in April/June 2008 respectively

2. To pass all exams with at least C+ and above - YES, B+ and B+

3. To travel to at least 1 of these cities CDG, LHR, JFK, YYZ - YES, cities that I had been to - CDG, DPS, KUL, SIN

4. To increase more saving by 30% - NO, only 25%

5. To move to a better apartment in July (closer to work and time saving) - YES, move in to a more convenient and bigger place

6. Number of relationship(s) that I had - ZERO

7. Number of date(s) that I had - TWO

8. Job(s) changed - ZERO

9. Possessions - Prada * 2pcs, Paul Smith * 1pcs, D&G * 2pcs, G-Star * 3pcs, Diesel * 4pcs, Dirk Bikkembergs * 1pcs

Resolution for Year 2008: -

1. To complete my MSc program in August with GPA 3.0 and above

2. To travel to at least 1 of these cities - SYD, FRA, LHR, JFK

3. To increase more saving by 30%

4. To change a new phone or camera

5. To change a new job after August (either higher salary or higher position)

6. To operate Lasik Eye Surgery

7. To figure out "what do I exactly want?"

8. To learn better social skills ...

Monday, December 17, 2007

Mon, 17 Dec 2007 12:09:31 GMT

OVER

Over! Over! Finally finished all of my exams for this term! So relief now ... Two more terms then I will finish the whole program! Looking for it ... ...

Was organizing my folders and saw this "Fly" song ... Listened to it just now and brought back so many memories ...

Bumped into my coworker on my way home tonite ... He asked me if I go club ... I replied "Don't I look like a club person?" LOL!

In fact ... I definitely was ... But how about now? Sometimes, I just think that the "feeling" isn't here anymore ...

Or, is it something else?

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Tue, 04 Dec 2007 10:28:09 GMT

RESOLUTION 2007

It's time to to review my resolution for 2007 ... and think of the new ones for 2008 ... ...

aaznraver's Xanga

Sunday, July 06, 2008

** WHAT SUP? **

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

** TASTELESS **

Thursday, June 26, 2008

** SUITABLE VS. LIKE **

Sunday, June 15, 2008

** LATELY, I'VE BEEN ... **

Tuesday, June 10, 2008

** THE LAST "2X" ... **

Saturday, May 31, 2008

** LONG ISLAND **

Monday, May 12, 2008

** IN SEARCH OF ... SOMETHING **

Monday, December 31, 2007

** REVIEW AND RESOLUTION **

Monday, December 17, 2007

** OVER **

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

** RESOLUTION 2007 **

WHAT SUP?

TASTELESS

SUITABLE VS. LIKE

LATELY, I'VE BEEN ...

THE LAST "2X" ...

LONG ISLAND

IN SEARCH OF ... SOMETHING

REVIEW AND RESOLUTION

OVER

RESOLUTION 2007