i'm geTTing toO coMfortable!!!

I used to be scared to be alone, not getting phonecalls or messages from my friends, or not getting invitations for dinner and movies. but its different this time..... i'm getting too comfortable being single!!! this is so unlike me... and it's making me really scared.

hOw???? and right now im facing so much problems at work... 3 of my staff quit on the same day n left the company just like that. so dissapointing!!!

haizzz....another story of my life recently.... 

mY liFe nOwadAys...

I have been quite busy with my work lately... Lots of problems came up one after another challenging me. Sometimes I feel so exhausted dealing and solving those problems. Haizz... how I wish that right now I am working for someone else and not my own company. I need a break!!! However, weirdly sometimes I do love the busy-ness that im facing... as it does make me not think about certain things that will upset me. But sometimes, I do feel kinda empty.... and when this feeling comes, I really wish that I have that special someone who is beside me to comfort me when Im exhausted from working too hard.

Anyway, nothing exciting is going on in my life right now...

Haizz.. last week i had lots of stuff in my mind what i wanted to write in xanga... but now when i got the chance i am actually clueless what i want to write...this is so frustrating....

I am taking my staff for a holiday this end of june... I am not sure if they actually deserve the holiday.... the company is going to spend so much money for this annual outing and i am not sure if they are going to give me the best out of themselves for my company.... All these people just know to expect so much from me but do not give the most to me....ArrGhhh they are really giving me headache....

I think im writing crap... i better stop then... next time when I have things on my mind to write, I will quickly write them....

good night everyone....

Sarah taGGed mE!!!

Hahaha.. it has been a long time since I checked out my friend's blog or even update my own blog. And tonight I decided maybe it's time for me to roam around the net and checked out my friend's blog, friendster and facebook. And guess what, I got tagged by Sarah... and I am going to have fun with it.... :) Thank you Sarah... I think it has been such a long time since I did this kind of things...

I need a NEW bag!!! Getting bored with all my bags already.... anyway, i carried my black Fendi bag today and I kinda have a lot of things inside it recently.... Just have so many things to do recently that I dumped everything that I havent done inside my bag...

• My grandma's bank book to be updated
• My gucci wallet
• My name card pouch which angeline bought for me..Thanks ngel...
• My LV coin pouch
• 3 CD-RW containing my company accounting data
• A pack of playing cards... played tai ti with my mother and she got hooked with the game :)
• An oil blotter
• A pack of watson tissue
• Another coin pouch that Jenie got me from Japan
• My iPhone that I have been wanting to use but no time to transfer the contact number
• My keys
• Lip gloss and Carmex lip balm.. the best lip balm ever
• A pen
• A lighter... not sure how it got into my bag as I dont even smoke
• My staff photographs for me to make their ID cards
• Couple name cards regarding my company annual outing
• and a piece of paper which has my things to do list and several job des for my new staffs

Pheww thats about it... I usually carry my 2 phones too.. but they are not in the bag right now as im charging them. Oh no this bag tag made me think that I haven't accomplished much of my work... ArrGGhhhh!!!!

I wOn yEstErdaY!!

After firing a newly recruited staff yesterday and feeling exhausted teaching her about simple credit calculation for about a week in a hot stuffy room, I decided that I need to have a break after work last night. So I called up Taufik if he wanted to have dinner with me. So we went to Yakoya... all you can eat shabu2 only for Rp. 113,000. So worth it and satisfied...:) After the dinner, Mochtar invited me for a poker game in Randy's house. Of course, I agreed immediately as it has been a long time, and I think poker game will relieve some stress. And guess what, I won Rp 200,000!!!! I was so happy... I ate dinner for free last night :)

The winning really made my day yesterday.... first time and I won big!!!

greY's aNatomy

Finally... grey's anatomy season 4 is available at mangga dua. Ughh.. I have been waiting for this season for so long... and finally it has arrived. I was so excited when I bought it last sunday and all I wanted to do is go back home and watch the episodes. So far, I already watched 5 episodes and it didn't dissapoint me. The show is still up to my expectation. Good as ever...

I love grey's anatomy so much.... this show made me learn about a lot of things... life... love... career... friends... relationship...and many more things. I post this entry today because I want to share a quote that I find really meaningful from one of the episodes.

"The thing about addiction is: it never ends well. Because eventually whatever it is that getting us high, will stop feeling good and starts to hurt. Still, they say you dont kick the habit till you hit rock bottom. But how do you know that you are there? Because no matter how badly it is hurting us, letting go hurts even more."

My gosh.. dont you guys soo agree with this??? I don't know about you guys... but I feel exactly like that. I know that bad addiction just has to stop. But to stop doing it, I will get so badly hurt. Although the hurt is momentarily, but I just doesn't want to be in that situation. Until... it hit me rock bottom. Sigh... I have to change...