Well... I have been informed that I needed to make a new post.  So here it is.  I'm setting in 6th hour so this one isn't going to be all that great, and I’ll probably add more when I get home.  Although I have also been told many times that my posts are too long but what could you expect when I only do it about once a week... if that.  So I guess the most exciting thing that happened to me within the last few days was that things are better with me and Dani.  Thanks to this guy named Justin and god of course.  Friday night once I got off work and went to Friday night fire as soon as I walked in, Kindra turned around and said "speak of the devil."  I talked to him, and he told me that somehow Dani had ended up at his house.  Automatically I was discouraged.  I finally wasn't having to deal with that all the time.  Nobody was asking about it anymore. Things were cool, but here it was again.  He told me that basically I needed to humble myself and fix this whole thing or in the long run it was going to hinder both of our relationships with God.  This all started because he asked her to come to church and she didn't want to because of all this drama.  So here I have this, and the bad part is I know he's right. I don't want him to be, but he was.  So, once I get in into Friday Night Fire I’m just praying about it hardcore.  She and I had been banned by our parents from each other and I knew that if I made contact with her I would be going against that.  While I was praying about it I just prayed to be broken... Basically so I could put down my pride and tackle this thing.  While I was in prayer God told me to tell her I love her.  I almost stood up and left service to do it right there, but something held me back because I knew I needed to finish out my time with God there.  So I simply sent her a message that said something along the lines of "through all of this I just wanted you to know that I still love you. I'm not asking for anything in return I just wanted you to know."  Immediately she calls me.  I didn't answer I sent her another message telling her that I would call her back after I got out of service at midnight...  There’s the bell I’ll finish later.

Ok I'm back.  So right after I get out of FNF I call her and she's totally cool to me.  I was expecting her to be mad at least about something.  I simply told her that we weren't going to talk about the past and try to point fingers because that would only lead us to fighting more.  She agreed.  It was awesome.  I even cried on the phone with her, and I don't cry so that's a big deal for me.  Oh and while I was in the service still... you know how I said I prayed to be broken...  It worked.  Probably more than I would want it to, but there was a reason I’m sure.  Well later that night we ended up staying at the church talking to Justin, Joe, and Andy (I think that's his name)  Till about 5:30.  It was great fun.  I think I actually fell asleep on the ground, and I’m pretty sure that I woke up because Justin was tickling my foot.  Once again, I'm not exactly sure so don't quote me on that one.  My mind isn't too clear at late hours.    The next day I had to work and then Dani asked me to go to this party with her.  Once I found out that it was a frat party I decided not to go.  Jesse called me cuz he was bored and he came over and watched The Wedding Date with me and my mom.  Sunday I went to church.  For once I had a reason to park in the Handicapped parking area.  Kyle sorry it was appropriate I still love you.  Um... After church I went to my aunts and swam/hung out/ate a lot of food.  After that I went to the hub.  Today I went to school and tried to bring Kyle his hat.  Right now I’m gong to go put prices on my old junk and try to sell it, and later I’m going to go to the edge and try to manage without David. Well I think that's about all I’ve got.  I updated...so there.  Everybody have a nice day.  Much love
Ashley

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Well... less drama.  Yay.  Life is much better when that happens.  Well sense the last post lets see.  I was accused of being a lesbian and a bunch of drama followed it.  I really just hated life there for a moment.  It was bad.  I talked to my dad about it and he made me realize that I have to forgive her in my heart or it's going to put up a barrier between me and god,  so that's what I did.  He also told me that is isn't her that's acting like this technically you know the whole it's the devil sort of thing. That one was hard to come into grasp with but he's right.  So that's the latest development with the whole thing.  Forgiveness and peace.  That's what I’m aiming for.  Incase you didn't notice I spent this weekend with my dad.  I love him I really do, well I love who he is not who he used to be.  When you think about it that's really all that matters we can't change who we used to be but we can change who we are, and trust me he has done that one %110  I love it.  My father is finally a man of god that I can go to when I need spiritual guidance and I can know in faith that he is going to be lead of the Holy Spirit and not just be pulling what he said to me out of his butt.  Oh and by the way if anybody has any questions about the Dani thing that they need to hear my side of the story for and want to get any questions cleared up go ahead and give me a call or leave me a comment whichever you prefer I would be glad to clear up any confusion.  I don't really feel like rambling on about things in my life that don't really matter but I’m with Abby on the whole not feeling like there a part of this world right now thing.  I was listening to pastor Bryan preach about how we don't belong to this world and how we belong to the Kingdom and it totally hit home for me...  Rachel was setting next to me and we just looked at each other like yep that explains it.  Oh today the guys made there first 2 goals (soccer) and Kindra, Kaydee, Rachel, Katie, and I all decided that were going to become the boys soccer fan club very exciting cutting edge news.  Oh and Rachel, and I are going to become our own crocheting club also very exciting.  Well I think that's it less detail.  Sorry for anybody who felt like knowing my every move.  God bless.
Ashley

I think I have officially decided to convert to my other xanga it's andsothisislife  If you want to say something to me you can do it there, but I don't think I'm going to close this one down just for sentimental reasons. 

Well... If anybody read by chance the post that was up earlier today, I just thought I would let you know that that one wasn't me.  It was completely vulgar, and I’m pretty sure it was Danielle although she's denying it.  Somehow I can't think of another person that hates me enough right now and knows my password to do that to me.  So I guess completely disregard anything that you may have read, and I’m sorry for any confusion.
Ashley

Hello everybody out there.  I have a quick question for anybody who will listen.  If anybody by chance has the "vulgar" not by me post saved on anything.  Either by when you're subscribed to me and they send you the daily post thing, or any other reason if you could let me know that would be amazing and I would be eternally in your debt.  Thank you all and god bless.

Ok.  Bungee tripping was awesome at The Edge.  No broken bones, which is a definite plus, but I’m pretty sure that Rachel got whiplash, and I got major grass stains.  Yay for grass stains.  To me there just memories...on clothes like when someone's like hey you have a stain on your skirt I’ll just be like yeah it’s cool I got it bungee tripping.  Yeah that's right.  After the edge we all went to Kindra's house and had a meeting, and then all went to Abby’s and hung out.  We played more with the bungee and I star tripped.  It was awesome, but I didn't fall, and I wanted to.  So...I didn't get home till like after one that night and mom didn't even freak out major bonus.  Last night I basically just had a normal night work yeah boring.  The next day, oh wait that's today; you'll never guess what I did... That's right I went to school.  I felt like a big girl.  I have the easiest classes.  The Theater Arts teacher seemed cool, and that's one thing that I was super worried about. Swaffard oh my gosh that guy is hilarious, and I don't think he even means to be.  I'm excited about Psychology, oh and Kacey moved back.  I walked in the class room and I was just like oh who is the pretty red head.  It was her I was so excited so I sat by her but we didn't really get to do that much catching up because we had to read the stupid hand book and all.  Choir is so much smaller this year I think we have like 60 some people this year as apposed to 90 some.  Yeah big difference.  Also stoked about Reck sports.  I think I’m going to get to swim in a pond and I’m going to stink and I don't even care.  Oh and I felt all important today I got to type something up for an announcement for Mr. Weeks cross country.  It was fun.  It came in handy having taken Keyboarding last year.  I would have been much worse off if I hadn't.  Maybe I’ll become a secretary.  Then again maybe not.  And then music history seemed cool.  All I could thing when she said we got to bring music in was MUM I have to expose the world to mum.  So yeah that was school.  Oh I forgot to mention that my alarm didn't go off Meggan called me and woke me up so that's a good thing that she called me.  If not you never know I may still be in bed.  After school I went to the thrift store.  It was awesome.  Actually it wasn't all that great I got a couple of random T-shirts that I have no clue what then mean, and a camera bag, and a belt.  But the camera bag is by far my favorite part it's way cool.  I use it as a purse, and it's way old school.  I don't know you just have to see it.  Church was good.  Sprite sucks.  No not really but the Devil does.  Yeah that's right I said it.  You suck devil.  I wonder if he got that.  I hope he did.  I talked to Chris about the front line thing and I think he totally got it.  He didn't make me feel bad or anything which was a major good thing.  Yeah I think that's all I have.  Nothing major just day to day live and you all love me enough to read it all.  Either that or you're all stocking me.  Oh and Kristen gets extra props again because she burnt me a CD yeah that's right you're all jealous again.  Yay for the Shins. 
Ashley

Ok goal for this post less detail.  I don't know if it's going to happen but that's what I’m going for.  The rest of Scan McDowell was awesome, and the last night worship was amazing.  Only I didn't get to hang out after words because I had to come home and watch Kirby (my brother.)  Dani came with me thought we watched I "heart" huckabees.  For anyone who has seen this movie, I bless you're soul.  That movie is bizarre, and that's all there is to it.  Hmm...  Thursday was a very stressful day.  I got up early to go down to this almost sketchy place downtown because they thought they had two rims for my tires.  They thought wrong they didn't have them and mom was mad that we drove all the way down there for nothing.  I could see where her frustration came from.  It sucked.  We get home and my dad calls me, and I told him about the situation, and he found some.  So mom and I went and got Kirby from school and went clear back down there to get some.  They had them Yay.  Then next day was tire day.  Wal-mart sucks.  In some areas they’re good.  There open all the time, and well Harry Potter. But...I went down there told them what to do about everything, and waited, and waited, and waited.  Finally I got sick of walking around aimlessly, and I decided I was going to eat something.  Yay for Pop tarts.  I bought them and then well... watched Harry potter right in front of the paint section.  Kindra came by and saw me.  She laughed... a lot.  It took them about an hour and a half.  And then Friday night fire rocked my face off.  Abby came and got me when it was almost over and said that they were going to pray over me... It worked, and I flew.  That's all I have to say about that.  Yay for that.  Saturday after work I called Dani, and we met up at Best Buy because Bryce wanted to see Meggan.  Yay for that one too.  When I get there Meggan seems all out of sorts, and I asked her what was wrong.  She said nothing.  I told her not to lie, upon which she told me that she felt like she was going to pass out, that she hadn't eaten, and she was lacking sleep.  I go out to my car and bring the remainder of the pop tarts and my water.  SHE COULDN'T LIFT THE BOTTLE.  That was when it got bad.  She decided that she was going to take her break, and that was when she hit the ground.  She couldn't feel random parts of her body.  It wasn't good.  I think she's better now but that scared me bad.  We all went back to Dani’s house and we were going to try and sneak into some concert.  I'm still not sure who it was.  Then Dani got into it with her dad and went back to highland.  Bryce and I hung out and spent hours trying to decide what we were going to do, and never did anything.  I finally took him home and then I stayed the night at Kaydee’s house.  I woke up and went to church.  Kaydee I have decided that I need your alarm clock that thing is impossible to sleep through.  Rachel and I played this awesome game with these two guys.  It was incredible I’m pretty sure were doing it at the edge tomorrow.  Yay for that one too.  Hmm... After church I went to my aunt’s house and my cousin has a girlfriend.  I think it's his first one which makes me happy I love that kid.  Well I think I’m out peeps.  Catch you all later.

Ashley

Oh and special love to Kindra, Andy, Jeff, Kristen, and Abby.  You know why.  Oh and more love to Kristen, because I thin she is the only person who actually listened to my weird song.