wow... reading tha last blog i posted up brings back some memories. it's been so long since we've been apart, but i still love him. ugh.. seems like i'm wastin' my time tho since we don't even talk anymore, but iuno. it's juss that lil part of me tellin' me to wait cus he IS gonna' come back.. "/ but forreal tho, it hurts goin' on day by day without him. i hate havin' dreams of us being back together again then waking up to reality to find that he really isn't there anymore.. *sigh. wha's wrong with me? ..i really don't know... but i hope that i really will be truely happy again...

"i let him go becus i din't wanna' cry anymore, but now i'm cryin' becus he's gone.." -- TRUE.

heeeyy everyone! i havn't been on this ina minute huh? well i'm bored&Myspace doesn't work for me so here i am[: well yeah, it's almost August! Summer went by soo fast&it was kinna' boring too. i still gotta' start on my damn reading >.< buh yeah, i really havn't been doing anything this whole summer. juss played volleyball for a league, buh thas about it. juss tryna' spend as much time as i can whid tha boyfriend yenno? we been through hella' shit in tha beginning of Summer, buh now things are good again[: i love him. tomoro's bout to be 8Months. can you believe it? i never thought we would've came so far. this is tha longest by far. &hopefully there's more months to come. i'm so thankful thoe.. tuh have him in my life. iuno wuh i'd do whidout him. he's tha one who makes my day. he cheers me up&is always there tuh listen. he wipes my tears away. damn thoe.. words can't express how much i love him&how thankful i am. buh yeah, hope you guys are enjoying ur summers while it lasts! yeeah well i guess this is all i have to say for now. thank you for reading[: buhbye!

1124O5; "i would've never imagined myself tuh be so blessed.."

HAPPY HOLiDAYS!

yeea, well yesterday was christmas. i jess went ta my cuhsins' house in union city. most of my other cousins weren't there 'cause they all went to other places for vacation, so it was kinna' boring because it wasn't many people there. i learned how to play thee piano sort of! haha it was funn. jess chilled there&played games. opened presents later on. i got some earrings from my cuhsin, pjs from another cuhsin, an ecko jacket from my sister, a nice sweater from my other cousin. yuuppp, the my sister was like "i think that present's for you too." &i was like "how do you know?" cos it din't have no name tag or anything. but i jess opened it anyway&it was this ecko jacket that i been wantin' cos it matched my dubs&my mom was all telling me i could get it after christmas because it'll prolly be on sale then, but it ain't at tha store anymore. i was helllla' mad. i had a feeling she got it for me, but i wasn't sure. haha fucker. jess kidding x) after opening presents, we played white elephant. i got a hand repairing kit, weird yesss, but yea thas was basically my christmas. din't get many presents cos i'm above tha "age limit".

today, i woke up early&went to target whid my sisters, aunt&cousin. jess bought some candy, sweats, earphones and a video game to keep me occupied in tha car ride to reno. then we went to stonestown. got some jeans from wet seal. after that, we went home&yea. now i'm hellla' bored. i was suppose to kicc it whid my munchkin, buh i went out in tha morning&so did he, so idhunno where he is now. hella bootaye, i miss him! ohhh welll.... as for tha next couple of days, i'll be in reno. yepyep, decided not ta go snowboarding cos imma go anyways in january for our snow trip. jess gonna' stick to sledding&playin' games at circus circus haha. i guess thas'all for now, bye!

lets reeecap..

friday was thee falcon rally. it wasn't as fun as i expected. me&lisa din't even get to run our gingerbread man booth. other people took it away from us! sheesh. so we jess made our own gingerbread cookies. they tasted goooood =) staff vs student game, we lost of course. afterscoo jess chilled at lil vis. stupid amir punched my thigh hella' hard. i was finna' get him bacc buh he went home. loserr. saw aaron johnson. havn't seen him inna' while. loserface transferred ta aptos. he loves it there haha.

saturday i went downtown whid lisa. bought some xmas presents. we ate ben&jerrys ice cream =) it was goooood, buh we got a big stomach ache afterwards >.< then we did our tradition of takin' pics in thee photo booth. yep. then on tha way home, we bought burritos! haha

sunday i went ta tanforan&serramonte whid my sisterr. then went to paul's house. helped him wrap presents. sort of. haha. then went home.

mondayy i went downtown whid tha munchkin. we watcheddd king kong. it was gay. there was some hellla' scary looking people in that movie!

todayy idhunno wha imma do. buh rhy now i'm jess babysitting my lil cuhsin. poor baby's sick. x) might go movies today? idhunno. buh tomoro imma kicc it whid people i havn't seen inna long while. yeep. thas about it, enjoy yor winter breaks everyone. byeee.