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Wednesday, February 22, 2006
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this plan
although i've lost almost everything (much, much more than what's visible to the observer.) in the past two weeks, i can see myself changing daily. i've got nowhere near the mentality i had last week. and it's simply getting better. i'm grateful for breaths taken
and hearts beating.
as the issues continue to be risen and the outlook becomes even darker, i would like to keep it with me, if possible.
i have almost nothing, although i can still profess the faithfulness that God has had with me.
it's amazing, and i'd recommend it to anyone.
no problems are too complicated.
and it's so simple.
it dosen't include church and it dosen't include professing your beliefs to the entire world.
yet. however, i predict it won't be much longer before you're too excited to be silent.
just prayer.
for rill.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
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scattered words and empty thoughts seem to pour from my heart. i've never felt so torn before, but it's then i feel Your grace falls like rain. washing away my pain. the only place i can go is Your arms, where i throw you my feeble prayers. i still believe in Your faithfulness.
i can handle everything in my life falling apart; however, i don't know if i'm able to withstand my faith in my church dissipating. it's the glue that holds me together and i'm not whole without it. but i'm very dissapointed. and i don't mind anyone reading that and finding whatever meaning they want in it.
whats happened since august? i'm thinking about going back for a large part of the summer.
Monday, January 30, 2006
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everyone look at richies xanga and laugh at him for being canadian and never updating. www.xanga.com/bairman1827.
i guess we all can't be committed to things like i am.
we all also can't be waiting patiently to go to jeremys, as there is only one jeremy and one sarah. speaking of patient, i found myself being extremely patient earlier today which is rather uncharacteristic for me.
since it was nice today, i traded in the rhondezvous to drive my beloved car. aw. how cute.
anyway.
it all started out when i carefully and meteciously pulled out from eakastown road and a gay retarded explorer came flying out of nowhere almost causing me to collide into his back end. he proceeded to be a jerk the whole way to 28 and i proceeded to tailgate him until... a long time later.
and that's that.
Saturday, January 21, 2006
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my poor xanga. so neglected.
i'm thinking about trying out some new churches in the comming weeks. for no particular reason. nothing against evangel heights.
("oh my golly molly, i heard that sarah lantz girl hated church so badly that she quit going, i saw her pumping gas at BP, she's going to hell in a handbasket!")
but i'm thinking it might be a good idea to be exposed to some other stuff. any suggestions (i'm not into ritual animal sacrifices or anything, and anything involving kool aid is defintely out)?
cause i've been housing all this doubt and insecurity. i've been dying to get out, it might be the death of me. even though theres no way to know where i'll go, i promise i'll go. i'm begging you to be my escape.
Friday, January 13, 2006
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things are so much different!
asldfjaslkjf. if i could just talk to you, i think things would be alot better.
wahtever.
she said i think i'm going to boston
i think i'll start a new life
i think i'll start it over
no one knows my name
i'll get out of california
i'm tired of the weather
yes please.
afchick845
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- Name: sarah
- Country: United States
- State: Pennsylvania
- Metro: Pittsburgh
- Birthday: 7/10/1988
- Gender: Female
- Member Since: 6/13/2003
