Well spring is deffinately in the air ~ guys are all around and maybe because I have a renewed sense of self confidence humm not sure really I just know there appears to me that 'guys' just wanna hang with me.  It is kind of fun and I am not really sure what to think but I do know some day... some great ... lucky guy who will consider himself to be really blessed will snatch me for his own and ya know when I think about it a  big ring just might do the trick pending on who does it that is... jk...  it isn't really up to me anyhow, God decides who I am with and hey I TRUST HIMI  ngith sleepy

 Humm.... I believe it is best to not "hide things" so ... here is where I bring things into the open and "share MY thoughts and MY feelings" and I "vent".  I know that things that God is working through me are things others may deal with because many a times I have read things others have said and thought wow... I think that too.... I do believe you must question EVERYTHING! and then if it doesn't sift through the Word of God and come out solid.. then it needs to be addressed.... Jesus addressed things and He was tortured as a result... 

 Jesus didn't want us to live under leagalistic rules and regulations, He did however want us to draw near to Him so that He would draw near to us.  He didn't want us to do things to please man... but to do it out of a heart that wanted to be obedient to God and in submission to Him first and foremost.  The woman about to be stoned ... when Jesus said... He who is without sin... cast the first stone.  Then Jesus knelt to touch the woman and say where are your accusers... go and sin no more.  Because the woman felt the Love and compassion and not condemnation from her Saviour we don't know what happened from that point on really... with her that is...  but what we do know is that Jesus was there to protect and defend her.  There seems to be a "lack of Love" but a whole lot of "pointing fingers" and "do it this way ... or else" mentalities going on today.  Many people don't feel accepted.  The Love of God is not as strong as the desire to play "Holy Ghost" towards others is.   To teach is to disciple to instruct ... to guide.. now what a person does with what they learn is for them to decided... to push someone to do something is wrong... but if the desire is in them to be what "GOD desires for them to be" they will choose to learn, grow, and develop through obedience first to "the Word of God" and through "asking someone to support them in doing so". It all begins with the heart... what guides us is an attitude of the heart... the heart is wicked and decietful above all else... but when we ask God to purify our hearts and if we really long to obey God we would choose to be 'set apart'.   Only God knows the hearts of humans and I believe the most important thing to do is to Love and not judge, not to play "Holy Spirit" but to bear one anothers burdens and encourage and exhort one another. There is simply NOT ENOUGH of this done in the world today... I DID NOT SAY WHO .... so if you are offended ... hummm check to see if you have done what is wrong and ask God to check the motives of your heart.... I We includes ALL THE PEOPLE OF the WORLD ... not just a certain people...

ohh and by the way.... the church and the body.... is Christ's....  NOT to be claimed by any one person, denomination, or "team of people" and Only Jesus can claim what is His. Oh and we will have no barriers in heaven ... why are there barriers here on earth???? offended... .take it up with GOD!  I am NOT your "Holy Ghost" and neither is anyone else "mine" !!! 

things worked out ok for me with the leaders ... just pray for them to pick the best "accountability" person for me ... one that won't lie to me, go behind my back and turn on me.   God have your hand in the pickings. thanks Lord

p.s. I have come to realize that there are some things that I will not tollerate...

the "guy friend" I have allows his 'friend' to treat me rude and unkind.  2nd my "guy friend" seems to be rather selfish and not really caring what my feelings are in the matters of "friendship"  ~ I have decided to take a stance and say that I am worth far more than he treats me and that it is high time he either steps up to the plate and is truly my friend that defends me against his rude friend and he acts like a friend and doesn't take advantage of my good heart and walk all over me... or .. he can just move on WITHOUT ME! I realize there are other 'fish in the sea' and many have offered to 'snag me' maybe I need to venture out more. hummm

Currently Watching 13 Going on 30/Maid in Manhattan By Jennifer Garner see related

 What would you think if  "someone" of "authority" came up to you at chrurch and said... "3 of us want to 'talk' to you about something". 

Would you feel it is a set up to "knock you down" ~ when all you've faced with "leadership" is being ridiculed and talked down to lately or "talked about" ~ I know I can do NOTHING right in their eyes ~ ya know it was the pastor that left us... that was the ONLY ONE ... who said "who defends Amy" or "who has Amy's back?" 

  When... what have I ever done wrong?  I don't do drugs, I don't 'sleep around', I don't hang out out with bad people, I am not a bad influence.  However, I do encourage and I exhort others, I love others and I guess my only fault is reccognizing the things that others "ignore" and I state facts about 'the church' as a whole and the things that every church does that is contrary to the Bible.  We are all human and only God can judge us and we need to help each other and support each other instead of "talk about each other".  Where is the LOVE???

  It all began with my "accountability person" who "turned on me" ~ she went to leaders who "hashed over" what stupid thing I did over a year ago that hurt no one but ME! I felt as if my "attorney" that was to be "on my side" went to the other side and instantly became my "prosecutor" with information that was "suppose" to be strictly confidential.  She could have came to me telling me that she had a concern  about something I was doing and was wanting to share it with someone else and that I could go along so that she would know how to help me and still "keep my confidence" in her as my "accountability" person.  BUT NO... you see.. having a "brother" who is a part of the leadership of the church is not to a benefit when he is just as critical of me and judgemental when what crime have I DONE?   hummm... go ahead try to convict me.... under what grounds.... ONLY GOD KNOWS MY HEART and my heart is in His hands and I trust ONLY HIM!  

Few know me... really know me.... and know the depth of my love and my compassion and heart.  I still love those that accuse me, harm me, try to destroy me, and yet... who on earth will stand beside me still?  I only know God is with me ~