life goes by entirely too fast.

thinking about this makes my heart and head hurt. oddly enough, i meant to type head the first time in that sentence, but heart came out. a sign. yea, i think so.

i can't believe i am done student teaching in only three short days. i can not wait.

also can not wait to graduate. can not come soon enough

i am ready to move on. one of my biology kids asked me today what i was going to do after i left. i was like good question. that actually meant a lot to me. i actually impacted some students. and thats always a good feeling.

i feel unlike sarah recently. too much emotional crap going on inside my head. ek!

my friends keep getting engaged. i'm so happy for them!!

big changes are in my future

that sounds kinda like a chinese fortune cookie.

sometimes i feel like i am heartless. attending a visitation tonight makes me think about all the loved ones i have lost. and how that effects my life, or does not effect my life. i feel like it should have more of an impact, but does it?? i think i keep to much inside, put up too much of a tough front. but i dont know any other way. sometimes it makes me feel like a bad person.

my student teaching adviosor visited me at school today. i think that he is a good advisor, but i also think that he is full of himself. we played a review game today, and it was well undercontrol. yay me. seriously that is an accomplishment because one of my classes is pretty cRazy. not even kidding, you have never seen anything like it. infact, i think it would be like having 5 three year olds haveing a temper tantrum. yea, thats about it. except they arent yelling, they are doing being immature freshmen. doing things for laughs and popularity and their grades are suffering from it.

last week, i had the entire week off and pretty much did nothing   

as a result of being lazy, i have had a week of endless tasks. its like doing laundry, it never gets done. something always needs to be taken care of.

so this has been a long week. TGIF........tomorrow.

p.s. i guess i thought i would have more time for xanga and to reflect on my day, but i am kind of living in the survival mode of teaching and well frankly i havent gone to bed before 11 15 (half way into family guy on adult swim. hehe). i will do what i can, like i always do. So it is bed time, my favorite time of day.

i have decided that this is unreal.something that has been a part of my life since i was eight is coming to a closure this coming weekend. i can not believe that this going to be my last swim meet. EVER. well unless i become a master like good old coach brown......eh not so much.  i guess its not like swimming is leaving my life forever, just the organized  part and being in awesome shape part of swimming is.

the last time i wrote in this thing, i thought about the entry itself. i was like this is just my every day life. and like this featured questions application has these really mind bending questions (some of them). i was just thinking why people feel the need to have these 'realizations'. which is kinda ironic right now because i am doing it, so i am going to stop. i dont know where i was going with that one.....

i hate packing. i feel like my friends at camp. i need someone to keep me on task. and just someone to keep me company while doing it. i can not wait for this summer. i miss the care free life and just plain good times with friends. i still have to do my application.......next week hopefully.

i have the whoooooooooooooooole next week off, so hopefully i can get some things done like going to the ISD to become a sub teacher, doing my camp application, going home, seeing the lion king!! I nearly forgot i was doing that! natkat, my mom and i are going to see it at the stranahan (?) theatre in toledo! YAY!

and i am sure there are other things i should do. not sure what yet though. its not till next week and i havent really thought about it in detail all that much. heck, its a week away. one day at a time. i need to survive this weekend first

yippee for not celebrating valentines day alone. i will be with the entire swim team and thats more love than you can ever recieve. just kidding, but seriously i wouldnt have it any other way. ehhhhhhhh maybe.....who knows. i just really dont think its a big deal. i like the candy and cards but not the mushy crap.

my teacher certification test scores are going to be unoffically released this weekend. i am not going to look at them until sunday though because 1) no time to look it up and 2) if i failed, i dont want to know right away. im sure i didnt fail though.....atleast i hope.

can't wait to have a beer. or 12. 

i suppose this weekend is kind of a big deal.