| Updates....I haven't eaten anything in about four days.
I've lost a pound for each day.
CW: 112
GW: 105
I cannot wait to reach my goal.
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| Not Good Enough.I haven't been doing that well lately.
I hate this.
I can't seem to do anything right.
I haven't weighed in while.
I need to.
I'm scared to.
I start fasting again tomorrow.
Maybe a water/juice fast.
Although I can't have much juice.
All that sugar isn't good for you.
Just a little bit to keep me satisfied so I won't binge on something stupid.
I can't gain anymore.
I need to weigh tomorrow.
I will in the morning.I live in house with pigs.
Why me?
They know no responsibility or self control.
Just losing themselves in food.
I need to lose this flab on my stomach.
I cannot stand looking at it.
I must be strong.
I must hold on.
I must be thin.   |
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| Bones, bones, and more bones.I CAN SEE THE BONES!!!
Aren't they lovely?
Beautiful!
Maybe I should post some pics....
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| Empty.Today:
1 cup of coffee
So proud.
Feeling good.
Empty.
I need to go shopping for some fat-free stuff.
Something that won't make me feel like a cow if I need to have something.
I'm doing good so far.
No one knows.
No one suspects anything.
After all this time with my ed no one freaking knows that I'm doing this again.
I feel so freaking powerful.
I am stronger than they are.
They are so weak and give in to the temptation.
Not me.
I will not fail.
Not this time.
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| Make the Pledge.~*PLEDGE TO ANA*~
"Ana, let me see the error of my ways, the flaws of my mind, and the imperfections on my body.
Give me the self-control to change, and the strength to satisfy your every command.
Remind me every day of my inadequacy.
Show me the path of perfection, and punish me if I stray.
If
I cheat on you and procreate with Ronald McDonald, I will kneel over my
toilet and thrust my fingers deep in my throat and beg for your
forgiveness.
I'm so weak, I know, but only with your strength inside me I will become a woman worthy of love and respect.
I have faith and trust you in all you say, and will love and respect your judgement if you never leave my side.
Set for me strict regimes and mind control.
I love and worship you, Ana. You are my only loyal and honest friend.
I hope one day we will be together, forever, in perfection." |
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