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Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 3/31/1981
Gender: Female
Interests: My dog Wilson, movies, reading books, eating, anything outdoorsy, dogs, playing poker, watching korean drama...
Expertise: eating, tasting, receiving massages, loving dogs
Occupation: Student
Industry: Legal
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Member Since:
7/5/2002
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| my new life at SacI haven't xangaed in about 3 months now... because I have been studying for an evil thing called "california bar" and took the evil thing for 3 days.. then went out of country for over a month. I traveled all over thailand, korea and the east coast for about 6 weeks... attended two weddings, visited countless relatives for the first time in 17 years, re-connected with dear college buddies, ate really good thai and korean food, and racked up my credit card charges like a proper OC girl. ah, what a life I had. Studying like a madwoman while crying every other hour out of fear that I was gonna fail... and then travling like a nomad without a worry or care in the world. Now, back to reality... This is my week #2 at Sac. This new life of mine is... a bit confusing and scary to me... because I am not sure exactly what I am doing... and I have so much time on my hand. After going to school for 19 years, it's such an odd feeling to have no homework or studying to do. I get to watch some TV.. or read a book. what a strange concept. I feel equally lost at work. I am never sure of what I am doing. I feel like I never have anything intelligent to say to any questions. I often pull sarah palin by blanking out... or saying wrong names... I am at the bottom of the food pyramid here. Maybe it takes a few weeks to feel comfortable... maybe I will get smart all the sudden and know what I am doing. I guess it's okay to feel uncertain and lost at times. I will eventually figure out what to do... or at least, I will enjoy the ride along the way... | | |
| going blindI think I am going blind... or my eye balls are gonna pop out. I am sure my fellow barbri-ers can agree with me. I've never read so much or at least stared at reading materials for so long in my life. And my ass hurts from sitting all day.
But the good news? It will be all over in about 2 weeks!!!! weeeeee!!!!!
oh, i am having some serious nightmares.. i am either taking the bar exam or going over the elements in my dream. a week ago, i had a dream that it was november... and we were checking out result to see if we passed or not. and I didn't pass... so i went to the state bar of california office and complained and demanded to know why i failed.. and the bar person said "well, we wanted to pass you, but you just have too many freckles. We can't pass anyone with that many freckles." WTH?!??!?! i can't pass the bar bc i have freckles??! Having freckles have always been my personal insecurities.. bc growing up, my brother would always tease me that my face was dirty bc of freckles. so that dream sucked.
hope everyone's having a wonderful summer... and if you are studying for the exam like me, here is a *HUG*!
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| Community PropertyI need to vent. Today was the last Barbri subject lecture (we have 2 more, but they are essay workshops) and it was Community Property... Thank goodness I didn't take CP in law school bc I would've either shot myself or someone else. It is the most depressing subject for me because the entire time of the lecture, all I can think of is "I hope i never get a divorce." and then I imagine myself as a sad, old, divorcee with 3 dogs.. wait a sec, maybe i won't be that sad since I absolutely love doggies. But the point is that, divorces are always messy.. especially when $$ is involved.
I always believed in pre-nups and i still do.. but i am having some second thoughts on it.. it's so depressing to divide up all your assets even before getting married... it's like "I love you so I will give you this much... but I need to save this much for myself just in case I fall out of love with you or just in case I trade you in for a hotter, younger woman in 10 years."
I just assumed that you combine all your $$ and create one bank account when you get married.. but I guess I was wrong... you have CP (Community Property) and SP (Separate Property) during marriage. And it gets really complicated as you throw in life insurance proceeds, pension funds, u.s. bonds, stock options, etc.
I know this is silly because this is what everyone wants, but I really want to find just ONE person whom I can spend rest of my life with... I don't want to have to divide up our properties... I don't want to have to go through the process of "I should get one half of this bc it's CP.. and I get 100% of this bc it was purchased with my SP funds" etc. But worse than the $$ division, I don't want to wake up one morning after 10 years of marriage to find out that he is not in love with me anymore... or even worse yet, I am not in love with him and would rather go thru this process of dividing up than stay with him. I know people fall in and out of love without control.. sometimes, it's intended.. but a lot of time, it just happens without a fault of either spouses... and THAT scares me... that I might not have control over it... over his heart.. over my own heart... over what happens to our marriage.
I really shouldn't be thinking about this.. because 1) I have a bar exam in 2 weeks, 2) I am not anywhere near the possibility of getting married and 3) I have a bar exam to worry about.
But I am still sad... I don't think I should ever practice family/divorce law.. i would just cry all the time and ask my clients to remember all the good times that they had and to reconsider... I'd be the worst divorce atty.
I think I am just gonna pack my CP studying for today and not study it again til the bar.. and hope that it's not on the bar... I don't want to be sad and depressed again... one day is enough...
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| Bar trip planningStudying for the bar has been... extremely... not... fun. But today, I am so happy and excited. Because I just bought my bar trip air ticket!!!!
After much deliberation, I finally decided to go to Korea for a week and Thailand for 2,3 weeks (maybe visit India and vietnam while I am there) then to SF for a few days.. then off to NY and Rhode Island for a friend's wedding. I bought a flexible ticket (can change dates without extra charge) so exact dates may change... give me a holler if you are gonna be in the area around those dates...would love to catch up with old friends....
So Korea from 8/5 - 8/12
Thailand from 8/12 to 8/26
East coast from 9/1ish to 9/6ish
It's like a light at then end of a long, dark, lonely tunnel. I can't actually see the light yet, but I hear it's there... and I hear it's happy and bright... weeeeeeeeee~!
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| Studying for the bar is... kinda lonely and depressing. I don't want to bring anyone down... but, I just need to vent a bit... and I know some of you will understand and commiserate with me.. bc y'll are going thru it right now too. One moment, I am all gung ho and feel like I can totally do this... and there are moments, when the task is too daunting.. and then there are moments like today when I just feel so lonely and emotional. And this is only the week 2.
maybe the problem is that I haven't found my daily pattern yet. I've been switching it up everyday on a whim.. and study whenever.. work out whenever.. and run errands whenever. I think i need a set schedule... like a dog.. Wilson has a set schedule... he behaves like a clock work... I need to be like wilson. He is the only joy in my life right now.. but yes, I know that I have A TON to be thankful for.. and I am... but i can't help being emotional too.
Tomorrow will be a better day... I just know...
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