Humanity

We can be certain on a lot of things in this world, like sunrise, sunset, the presence of gravity, tide... but whenever human factor is involved, nothing can be assured.

Human is the source of changes and amendments, one could change his mind regardless of time, place or whatever accountable. Just that we'd never have the chance to go back and pick another choice, so "what if" is just another bull shit phrase in our language.

"Chances" in my dictionary is just a word, or an idea, so rough that I could not take it into account.
I don't care if its a 90% or 10% success, to me its either yes or no, no one would get a 90% yes or 10% yes ever.
That's why I like to see people spending money on gambling: horse racing or soccer matches, any horse or soccer team could perform better or worse with all the factors around - no one would know.
I know some people sees this as a "hope" though.

Is "Hope" our greatest strength and yet our great weakness?
Let's take a deep breath and think about it......
Sometimes when people ran out of ways, they could just "hope", so is it their ultimate strength... or weakness?

I do not suggest that I've lost my trust towards human, but after all the things I saw and I experienced...
What more could I expect? What "hope" could I rely on?

I will just sit here peacefully and witness the unknown.

如果, 如果

剛剛渡過了一個很繁忙的通宵班...
aircraft switch, outport sickness, flight cancel, flight delay, flight re-route, flight divert... 還有多點嗎?

嗯... 入正題...

零晨時份, 身旁同事的手機響了幾次, 看似平淡但其實說著些很甜蜜的話
那十個指頭不停親吻著鍵盤的同時, 我在想...

「如果我還住在大埔, 這時候應該會有人打電話給我吧」
「其實在電話裡只要簡單的一兩句, 也會令人很安慰, 至少可以舒緩一下那工作壓力」

「如果... 如果歷史有如果的話... 那麼...」
「其實我到底是胡思亂想得太多, 還是一種自然反應?」

很多時候我也認同現在的生活很不錯, 起碼戶口的數字; 家裡的小貓們 很令我安心; 快慰,
不過到了夜深人靜, 總會有些感慨; 有些反思

啊... 夠了... 再說下去 我會亂想更多

明天會更好... 吧!

昨晚去過的

昨晚去了兩個地方, 兩個之前經常到訪的老地方...

抱歉, 沒有帶相機, 未能在這裡分享那些影像

沙田 IKEA 帶給我的回憶... 是我放縱的讓它們一一重現,
到底是要失去後才懂得珍惜; 還是面對改變的適應力太低?

大埔頭村, 環境是那麼的親切; 空氣仍是那麼的清新
深呼吸... 深呼吸... 呼.....................

Narrowed Openings

I guess regret is kind of my thing...
not that I mean I am always at the bottom of the valley,
I do take them seriously for reminders of any kind.

On my long way back from MK just a while ago,
two young ladies were talking about life,
relationship and some other issues regarding their view on certain things right behind me.
The content was very interesting, sounds like me some years back,
I just hope you two will continue exploring your minds,
find the meaning of your lives on your own, not by the atmosphere.

I also wish I had the courage to speak up to you guys
when we stepped out of the mini van at three o'clock in the midnight.

Cabinets In The Head

Ever since I started my days in the aviation, my ability to memorize keeps building up...
I am so sure that the good years on the ramp with all numbers and characters triggered the power

Had a few friends giving comments on the "horrible" ability, I could just remember the EXACT figures even if I have only saw it once, yes, its horrible to me too

I find it sometimes very sour being able to remember that much, especially when you "visit the old place", but I am still contented with the ability to mark the way I'm living; the things that happens for the last twenty six years of days and nights.

Thank you and I hope that continues...