Mm... 6:32 A.M. Pacific Daylight Savings Time is the equivalent to 10:32 P.M. in Korea.

Rain in the summer sucks. Especially when you don't pack for it.

My parents are so cheap. $100 bucks between me and my brother. Everyone should have $200 at least.

I miss San Francisco. I miss friends. I miss mild weather.

I'm gonna try to do the whole blog thing over again. For those of you who don't remember, Blogger was a complete failure. So I opted for some wordpress. Yai's Kor. ORLY? YARLY!

So. It's 3:01A.M. according to the clock on my computer. I'm still up, typing away, to again, the light of a single desk lamp while listening to some Jason Mraz. The odds are highly likely that I will not wake up tomorrow on time. I will most likely stumble into Physiology a half an hour late. But I'm not sleepy. I'm not at all tired. When I  finish writing, I'll probably force myself to sleep. But there's no point on stopping right now, so onwards to the content.

I've been thinking about why people, some in their last years of high school and beyond still xanga. I remember in middle school xanga was the "hip, cool thing to do". To spill out your guts and daily routine in a regular schedule. About what she did and who he was hanging out with. But as time went on, we all eventually deserted the community known as xanga.com. We either stopped and opted for something much more user friendly like Blogspot, wordpress, or livejournal. Or we stopped blogging altogether and simply went on living life without having to keep a dairy of sorts. Honestly, I only keep the xanga to keep getting the Subscriptions to see if somebody writes up something interesting. But as the number of people who maintain xanga dwindle, so does the amount of interesting content. Xanga, to me is now nothing but another site on which to procrastinate on.

But I digress. I was wondering why people still xanga, why people haven't grown out of the blog phase. I can only think of a few reasons, but feel free to add your own.

1. They don't want to keep a real, pen and paper journal.
2. They enjoy telling others about their lives.
3. They procrastinate.
4. They are looking for others to comment or care about them. In a word, attention.
5. They are too chicken to tell people what they think face to face.
   

So out of the infinite possibilities on which to keep blogging on personal content, I only have four reasons. All of which are pretty frivolous. I retort to these people, hypocrite that I am.

1. Stop being lazy. Just go out and buy a small notebook, label it journal, and start writing. Everything worth maintaining starts out as a mountain. Besides, there is a possibility that one day, you won't want to blog in a place that people can see. Or that you can no longer log into xanga or add new content. The next best thing? Write it down. Get back to your roots. And if you want others to know about it, publish it. Make it public. But at least you have that choice right? With xanga, it's always public first, so why not switch the order. A journal on paper will last longer and mean much more than one that's online or one you have to print out.
2. Gossip, basically. About yourself. Shameless gossip. And if you want that, just send a message through AIM, or start a newsletter. Or the best thing would be to tell in person. Cut out the middleman all together. I'm not gonna lie, all of us feel that self-importance that we are better than certain other people. And it shows. Xanga exposes that. So why not just take it to the next level and tell people face to face. Build up interpersonal skills. The only reason why I retort to this one is because it's usually forced on people. I don't wanna hear all about you. Just the interesting or important things that happen that are worth sharing. And that usually comes out in conversation anyway. In summary: Xanga is extraneous. Just talk to people.
   
3. Nothing much I can say here. Except do your homework/work/project/whatever your avoiding. It'll come back and bite you in the ass if your not ready for the second wave.
   
4. Attention seekers. The ones that need to feel validated through someone's praises. Well xanga isn't gonna give it to you. Not if everybody drops off it. The only way to get that attention your seeking? Talk to more people. That's all it is. Start slow. Maybe start more instant messages, or start with casual conversation. But build on it. Work up so that in the end, you have a network of people who respect you as their friend. Because when you get right down to it, what would you rather have, internet "fame" or meaningful relationships?
5. Just tell them in the yearbook. Why not? It's that time of year. Or to put it bluntly, grow some.

This was more for me than you, my audience. It was to accomplish two goals: to tell myself to stop xanga all together and to bore myself to sleep. I have definitely accomplished the latter. So I will not have to force myself to sleep. The former I don't think worked as well, as I am not sound of might at the moment. So good night and ignore. Unless it's too late and you read through it entirely. Don't take it seriously. Unless you want to.