I reached my goal for schoolwork tonight way before my deadline of 3 am (when I force myself to go to bed). Alas, I am sadly awake even thought this would be a great opportunity to sleep. I have become what I hated most in a roomate - a night owl. I used to say that my best hours were before noon - and I would plan classes for as early as possible so to be fresh and alert.

When I commuted 2.5 hours to Abilene I would leave a 5 am even though I didn't need to leave until 615. I loved getting up and beating traffic. It also gave me some time to stop and eat breakfast with my son before class (who was still on formula at the time and wasn't on solids - wow that was a long time ago). I always without fail start flagging in the afternoon and crave sleep or downtime.

Now I am up and alert and will flag in the morning only to be alert in the afternoon. For those who have faced this situation and ended up on a topsy turvy schedule for one reason or another - what did you do to go back to the old schedule? Did you stay on the new one?

1. What is your occupation?  Student/ Mom

2. What color are your socks right now?  I can't remember the last time I wore socks - it's summer in Texas - who needs socks???

3. What are you listening to right now?  The news on TV - waiting on the weather...

4. What was the last thing that you ate? currently eating chex mix with pickles and rotel

5. Can you drive a stick shift?   no

6. Last person you spoke to on the phone?   my husband 

8. How old are you today? 28 - 29 in December

10. What is your favorite drink? currently Pepsi One or Lipton Tea Mixes

11. Have you ever dyed your hair? who hasn't? 

12. Last time you hugged your child? when I put him to bed...

13. Favorite food? can't ever go wrong with grilled cheese with tomato with tomato soup with olives rotel and cracker crumbles

14. Last movie you watched? "Cars" with the fella tonight - "The prize winner in Defiance Ohio" with hubby last night

15. Favorite day of the year? my son's birthday

17. Who are you named after?  my mom and my aunt

19. Ocean or pool?    used to be ocean but now with the fella - a pool feels safer

20. Cherries or Blueberries?  both - but I guess blueberries

21. Do you want your friends to e-mail you back? with this thing - nah - especially since I blogged it instead

22. Who is the most likely to respond?  Harvey or the invisible man

So tired...

I have never felt so uneasy about a move. There is no peace about this move. I haven't seen my hubby in 2+ weeks, the little fella is restless waking up at 1 am, and I end up getting up multiple times at night walking around making sure everything is okay. I am permantly nauseous thanks to a personal ailment and with no sleep thanks to school (I generally run on 4 hours a night - lately less) I am just running on nerves and caffine.

Currently I resemble a cat that has been shocked one time too many and twiches a little - I even jump at the slightest noise - if I had claws I would be on the ceiling.

I know that I have done all I can do to prepare. Sure there are a few things left to do and I could get them done now but honestly I don't care. There is a funk over me and I know that I just have to perk up and regain strength tommrow so to prepare for Friday. Maybe less funk more panic...

Panic and fear - that is exactly what is wrong. I am so afraid of doing this on my own. It seems that nothing is easy for me, I can never do things the easy way. Those who know me personally can agree to this.

I just want to close my eyes and be there with my things and with hubby and be done.  

Warning: if you call me please do not ask if I am ready - I cannot stand that question right now.

Thanks for letting me gripe - I know that it is annoying but boy do I feel better.