Meandering Aphorsims

  • I JUST WANT SOME CONTROL!!!!

    "I give up! I can't keep fighting! I am so sick of arguing! I want my life back, but NO! I can't have it my way, I gotta take the highway and follow you and what YOU want me to do....

    As I mentioned in my blog at a previous time, I have an illness, an illness I cannot control. Also, I have a job, which I cannot control. My family and their home, that I have zero say-so in. And my parents jobs which I cannot control either....it is so frustrating! Aggravating! Angering!

    And I want some peace in it.

    How do you achieve that piece of freedom and control in your life? How can I find what I need to control and what I need to let everyone else control?

    I googled 'control your life' and several step-programs came up showing how to achieve control of your life. But, my question is, how do we lose the control? When we are born we are solely dependent on a mother and a father to feed and change us and keep us clean. As we grow, we achieve more independence and separate from our parents to our social friends and their lives, but we are limited in a curfew. We go through school and have our share of heartbreak. We dream about being a heroic fireman or vetranarian, but things out of our control gain us and take us away from those dreams. We get jobs to make money and now have romantic partners. The jobs control our time and money intake. Our romantic interests control our money outake and how the apartment looks and what we eat. We slowly lose control, but we lose it slyly and without knowing, until one day, we wake up to find a dog we're allergic to and a person sleeping next to us, and we don't remember how we got involved together. Everything has gone downhill. What happened to everything we wanted to do? Or everything we could have done?

    If you have some answer, please share."

  • What is your favorite comfort food?

    "Chocolate. It's warm and melts. It can be extremely sweet or very bitter and can be found in a variety of ways (with fruit, chips, crackers, other candy....). It is a very versatile food."

       

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  • "Love....

    It has no boundaries.

    Limitless.

    Unending.

    If you love, you are not bound by the rules of others.

    You do anything to protect it.

    Shield it.

    Love doesn't care who thinks what.

    It will never abandon.

    It will stay strong.

    Love knows forgiveness and mercy.

    It conquers ALL things.

    It tears down every wall.

    Love will walk with you.

    Love will die with you."

  • everyone rocks, but me

    "So, my boyfriend beat Devil May Cry 4 without me. I'm so sad. His graduation is tomorrow too. I got him a nice, new watch as a gift. My parents got a nice Audi sedan for dad for work. And nothing else has changed in my life."

  • What are your thoughts on assisted suicide? Is it in any way acceptable?

    "Kinda got me thinking, if someone's signs a DNR and they are depressed, and the doctor agrees to it, knowing the person is depressed, when the person becomes non-responsive, is that considered assisted suicide, since they could have tried and quite possibly could have recusitated the person? What about pulling the plug? I don't believe suicide is ever an option, it is a choice and one that means you are absolutely giving up everything just because you have reached rock-bottom."

       

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  • Currently Gaming
    Devil May Cry 4
    By Capcom USA
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    long time

    "Howdy, ya'll. Haven't talked in awhile. Today we had a graduation thing at my church and my love got his zipper on his gown stuck when he tried taking it off, so he had to put it back on, then when he stood up, he tripped over the hem. I about died. It was so hilarious. So, I'm really indecisive about what to do for college, really scared still. Nervous, worried, obssessed....it will be so different than anything I've ever known and that frightens me. One thing I am that is like my mom is that I am a person of habit. One difference and it completely throws me off. I'm gonna try though. As many classes as I can take online! Well, how's life for everyone else out there?!"

     

    P.S. "And the game above, it kicks ass."

  • What is the best age to have children? Why?

    "Personally, it has to do with the individual's maturity. Everyone matures at a different age, women are quicker to mature emotionally than men, but men mature physically faster than women. 

    It takes me back to the question: When's the appropriate age to have sex? In my opinion, 18. You kinda begin getting a grasp on what you want in a partner at that age and begin to look for the right things in people, so around that age you are 'ready' to have sex with someone. If you get involved in a sexual relationship, be prepared for accidents. If you are not ready for a kid, you are not ready to have sex.

    I myself, would love a kid, even though I am very young. I feel mature enough to handle that situation, but maybe others don't feel the same. I strongly suggest before starting a family, try to get SOME college under your belt! That's my take on it."

       

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  • What is the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you?

    "Told me they loved me. Sometimes it was a lie, sometimes out of guilt, maybe a parental or familial love, a friendship love, and surely now it is a real, true, vivid love from a man to a woman. Any time I was told I was loved though, it filled me with a swelling, like my chest filled with packing peanuts (because they are light and airy and compactible, like love).

    The first time a boy told me he loved me, it felt good. I was euphoric because of it, but when he told me stopped loving me, I realized he never loved me to begin with. It made me sad because if you love someone, you will never stop loving them. No matter how badly they hurt you, once you learned to love them, it is so hard not to love them again.

    I have now found true love in a man that loved me from the exact moment he laid eyes on me (kid you not, it was love at first sight, for him). I hurt his heart pretty bad by rejecting him, but he came back thinking he had stopped loving me and by this time, I had grown enough to love him too. Luckily for me, I was given a second chance, and he absolutely loved the fact that I love him too!

    Just remember, love is a fickle thing and it can cause you to do some stupid things, and some very, very smart ones."

       

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  • where did i go wrong?

    "I have...no, had a brother. He used to be our comedian. He would always make us laugh and sometimes, when he's clean I guess, he still can.

    I don't know how or when it happened, but he is thoroughly obssessed with thug culture and lifestyle. Fighting, smoking anything that can be smoked, popped, snorted, drank, and just changed from the comedic little brother he used to be.

    My dad and I have a similar illness and my dad is heavily medicated most of the time. Guess who broke into daddy's meds? Yeah, expensive meds that helps my dad cope with the pain and my BROTHER decides to use my dad's pills to take the edge off everything?

    What the hell? Where DID we go wrong? Did we miss the signs?"

  • What makes someone a "good person"?

    "I think it's your own view. I think honesty, compassion, and forgiveness are the 3 qualities a "good person" should have. But everyone has different quantities of these qualities, and in turn, that makes us view eachother as good or bad. I believe that if you have compassion you can easily attain the other quailities. But this is my view. To each their own."

       

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