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Thursday, August 18, 2005

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 16:16:45 GMT

This week has had its ups and downs....on the plus side, i lost 3 pounds. Though, i couldve lost way more if i didnt eat as much as i did. I also get paid today and its the last day of dance "boot camp" lol.

On the down side, i still have to complete 19 entries/passages from my 2 summer reading books for school. (and its due the first day of school and we have a test on it also.) the thing is, i start school next week! so looks like summer is offitially coming to an end. However, i am excited about ONE little thing that associates with school.... skipping breakfast and lunch.. it helps me soo much to not eat during the school year bc im constantly occupied with work and socializing with friends and dance.

I cant wait to lose all this weight!!!

Monday, August 15, 2005

Mon, 15 Aug 2005 01:59:07 GMT

ive been so bad

fasting this week + 4 hours of dance intensive = WEIGHT LOSS RESULTS!!!

Thursday, August 11, 2005

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 16:15:34 GMT

Intake Today: WATERMELON and gum... and water... thats all

past few days have been just absolutely horrible.. so i plan to make up for that.

Polina Semionova

^why can't I be perfect

Thursday, August 04, 2005

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 18:30:06 GMT

soooo todays Intake:::::::::::

2 pancakes - blah.. 300 cal?

Not planning on eating the rest of the day unless its negative calories.

2 bottles of water- 6 points

300 cals - 8 points

1 hour of exercise - 5 points

total::::::::: 19 points

(goal of 20 so ill probably drink more water or something)

ThInSpIrAtIoN:::::::::

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 03:42:53 GMT

today sucked blahh.. ill make up for it tomorrow, i promise<3

sooo im going to try this new thing, and usually i wouldnt make things so complicated by having rules and "points" but, im thinking its the only way to get back on track.::::::::

Rules
1. Don't eat while watching tv or on the computer.
2. Keep track of all your calories.
3. Don't eat after 8 o clock.
4. Eat under 700 a day.
5. Exercise every day.

Points

0-250 cals

10 points

251-500 cals

8 points

501-750 cals

6 points

751-1000 cals

3 points

1001-1250 cals

0 points

Each glass/bottle of water

3 points

each hour of exercise

5 points

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 21:18:09 GMT

ok so usually i wouldnt post lyrics, but this is an acception... this song playing is called Paper Bag by Fiona Apple. i really like it, and its triggering.

FIONA APPLE
"Paper Bag"

I was staring at the sky, just looking for a star
To pray on, or wish on, or something like that
I was having a sweet fix of a daydream of a boy
Whose reality I knew, was a hopeless to be had
But then the dove of hope began its downward slope
And I believed for a moment that my chances
Were approaching to be grabbed
But as it came down near, so did a weary tear
I thought it was a bird, but it was just a paper bag
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
And I went crazy again today, looking for a strand to climb
Looking for a little hope
Baby said he couldn't stay, wouldn't put his lips to mine,
And a fail to kiss is a fail to cope
I said, 'Honey, I don't feel so good, don't feel justified
Come on put a little love here in my void,' he said
'It's all in your head,' and I said, 'So's everything'
But he didn't get it I thought he was a man
But he was just a little boy
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love
Hunger hurts, and I want him so bad, oh it kills
'Cause I know I'm a mess he don't wanna clean up
I got to fold 'cause these hands are too shaky to hold
Hunger hurts, but starving works, when it costs too much to love

Well this is my first entry so i guess i will tell a little about myself. My name is Tia. I loove to dance (esp. ballet<3) and as we all know that profession is as competitive as it can get... and part of the job description is being thin<<--- my main 'obsession'.

15 years old.....5'7.....HW-140 LW-99 CW-130 GW-99

****intake today:::: as of 5:15 pm

2 pancakes (purged out)

****number of days till dance starts up again:::: 20

not including the days i work at the studio