Every time is the last time 'til the next rolls 'round

is this what you call tact?
i swear you're as subtle as a brick in the small of my back
so let's end this call, and end this conversation

i'd throw myself to the sea
if god promised you're inside.

you said that you would die for me
but you must live for me too.

and your turpentine kiss goes straight to my lips
and i am robbed of all colors...

i'm about to do all of the things i've dreamed of
and i don't even miss you at all.

A thousand other girls could never reach you.
How could I have been the one?

Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone I could save
If they don't put me away
It'll be a miracle.

your choice, it's simple her or me. and i'm sure she's really great. but, i love you... in a really, really big... pretend to like your taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you love you. so pick me. choose me. love me.

when we meet again,
we'll probably talk about the weather
cause that's what people do when they grow apart.
and that's what we'll do when we grow apart.

well here i am. i don't know how to say this.
the only thing i know is awkward silence.

Weekends are for the warriors
All those late nights walking through front doors at daybreak
Raise all, of the glasses high
This one's to all of us sitting around here on Friday night
I remember eighteen
Hated Mondays
And sitting and staring at the clock dying to get away
Don't look back and have no regrets
We only got two days and time won't wait for us

I take for granted,
all the moments that I'm with you.

My arms, they're getting tired.
From holding this relationship up.
Ten fingers isn't quite enough.
Your heart is getting heavy.
This could mean goodbye for us.

she said "come on boy, tell me what you're thinking now. dont be shy"
and he said "alright, i'll try... all the stars up in the sky and the leaves in the trees. all the broken bits that make you trip up and grassy bits in between. all the matter in the world is how much i like you."

"'cause even if you get sick of me, i won't let you go. i'll hang onto you forever."

 He said, "Hey, beautiful. By the end of tonight you'll be completely in love with me and then when I leave, I won't give a damn about how much I hurt you."

you need that boy like a bowling ball
dropped on your head
which means not at all

you have too much to give
to live to waste your time on him
maybe he'll change
if you could be better
but maybe it's not your fault
he's checkin out the waitress now
but someday you'll change
one day you're stronger
and you will have changed enough
and it's time to get out

There's no promise of safety
With these secondhand wings
But I'm willing to find out
What impossible means.

But listen carefully to the sound of your loneliness.
Like a heartbeat.. drives you mad.
In the stillness of remembering
what you had.

I'm sick of always hearing
All the sad songs on the radio
All day it is there to remind
An oversensetive guy
That he's lost and alone

I hate our favorite restaurant
Our favorite movie, our favorite show
We would stay up all through the night
We would laugh and get high
And never answer the phone
I can't forgive, can't forget
Can't give in, what went wrong?
Cause you said this was right
You fucked up my life

"Relationships don't work the way they do on television and in the movies. Will they? Won't they? And then they finally do, and they're happy forever. Gimme a break. Nine out of ten of them end because they weren't right for each other to begin with, and half of the ones who get married get divorced anyway, and I'm telling you right now, through all this stuff I have not become a cynic. I haven't. Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and, y'know, in some cultures, a chicken. You can call me a sucker, I don't care, because I do believe in it. Bottom line: couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don't let it take them down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time. If it's right, and they're real lucky, one of them will say something."

The ice we skate is getting pretty thin,
The waters getting warm so you might as well swim.
My world's on fire, how about yours?
That's the way I like it and I never get bored.

If someone is too shallow to say something to your face,;; then you shouldn’t pay attention to what they say behind your back.

Everyone has a weakness;; and you are mine.

 It’s not about who stays real to you to your face, it’s about who stays real to you behind your back.

It doesn’t take strength to hold a grudge;; it takes strength to let go of one.

you should never regret anything ;; because every little detail of your life, made you who you are in the end.

& you say we’re too young but maybe you’re too old to remember.

and it’s when I see them acting like idiots that I realize how much I love them.

when a person tells you that “you’re not good enough”;; that’s when you know that you are better.

I was born to be stubborn, to be a little bitchy, to push people, to push myself.  I was taught to never take life for granted, to live a little to love with everything I had, to never give up, to believe in myself.. and most of all to fight for myself.

if you aren’t willing to risk it all... then you don’t want it bad enough.

live for the moments that you can’t put into words.

I don’t care what people think of me.  The people I care about know the real me and that’s all that matters. – Paris Hilton

because you’re beautiful and you don’t know it.. because you’re smart and you don’t believe it.. you’re the kind of girl that guys don’t get over. & you’re the kind of girl that other girls get compared to.

She was a girl who knew how to be happy even when she was sad... and that’s really important.

the hardest things to say ;; are the words that mean the most

I aint gonna live my life coulda ; woulda ; shoulda – I just fucking do it.

now seems like forever ;; but you’re only young once.

love... it’s about two people who can just look at each other and not say a word.. and just know.

"let him know the treasure he has.
don't let him make any mistakes."

he reached for her hand. "i don't want to lose you."
his voice was almost in a whisper. she could
feel the tears again & she fought them back.
"but you don't want to keep me either, do you?"
to that, he had no responce.

every single person has at least one secret
that would break your heart. if we could just
remember this, i think there would be a lot
more compassion and tolerance in the world.

i wish i'd seen you as a little boy,
without your armor to fend off the world.
i would take you under my wing and protected
you from everything. so you wouldn't be afraid
to tell me what i need to hear.

so you're with her and not with me;
i hope she's sweet & oh, so pretty.

you have such a pretty smile,
it's a shame the things you hide behind it.

there weren't any fireworks or shining stars
in our eyes. just a boy and a girl holding hands.
that's all they needed.

she had warm summer eyes
that flickered like fireflies
when she stared at the world.

you have to accept that people
are going to stay in our hearts;
even if they are out of our lives.

you always said this never hurt you.
i always thought you were a liar.

sometimes your greatest pains
become your greatest strengths.

and i hope when you looked into her eyes,
you saw my reflection <3

i can't stop thinking about what could of happened
if we wouldn't of given up on eachother.

change is a funny thing.
we are never quite sure what we are becoming, or why.
then one day we look at ourselves
and wonder who we are, and how we got there.

i may only be able to count my good friends
on my fingers, and that doesn't say much about me.
but it says everything about them.

somehow we know that
being together is what makes us
better than we already are. 

i'm not a bitch i just have
low bullshit tolerance.

the shit you hear about me might
be true, but then again it could be
as fake as the bitch that told you.

take the moment of hope & let it run, never look
back at all the damage we have done now to each other
- Third Eye Blind

and it might not make any sense to you
or any of my friends but somehow, still,
you affect the things that i do.

but i'd rather be working for a paycheck
than waiting to win the lottery.
besides maybe this time is different;
i mean, i really think you like me.

 under the streetlight, dancing by herself,
she is waiting for a car to stop, a star to fall,
someone to change her life.

 i hope you know that you are my best friend.
tonight i said goodbye, but i should of said more.
thanks for the best times of my life<3

there's one person you'll never get over no matter how long it's been.

and she loves regardless of everything that has
stained her life. she loves with everything she has left.
and that's beautiful.

either she was someone she didn't want to be,
or she was somebody who nobody wanted.

You spend your life thinking you're on the right track,
only to discover you're on the wrong train.

"The prettiest dresses are
worn to be taken off."
Jean Cocteau

We sat in your car on that chilly, fall night
talking about how much i've grown up
and how you've lost yourself.

So, go on, go an take on the world.
Expand your wings across the sky, take
my words and say goodnight, and
never say goodbye.

And in the end the words won't matter,
'Cause in the end nothing stays the same
And in the end dreams just scatter and fall like rain.

So you failed. You wanna be really great?
Then have the courage to fail big and stick around.

Make them wonder why you're still smiling.

Maybe one day you'll be better, you'll be smarter.
More grown up, and a better son or daughter.
And a real good friend, and you'll be awake.
You'll be alert, you'll be positive though it hurts.
And you'll laugh and embrace all of your
friends and you'll be a real good listener.
You'll be honest, you'll be brave,
you'll be handsome and you'll be beautiful;
you'll be happy.

Always fight, until you can't anymore,
than be fought for.

Sometimes you need to forget what you want
and know what you deserve.

 There's never an ending, just new beginnings.

clearing out some files.

enjoyyy =]

I know you're sorry;
I just don't know if that's good enough.

Everyone says we're like
the girls next door.
You all must have

really weird neighbors

science only goes so far, them comes god.
- the notebook

the day i learn to fly,
im never coming down.

my biggest fear

I realize now, that when your heart breaks you have to fight like hell to make sure your still alive, because you are. And that pain you feel, that's life, the confusion and the fear, that's there to remind you that somewhere out there is something better. And that something is worth fighting for.

New York is lovely in the winter time
All the sidewalks are white as snow
The buildings, all the people that pass me by
How the smile on his face says he's in love

it's tough being alone when you're naive and you just want to believe everything everyone says. oh, it would be great if i could just deal with it.

People put you down enough, you start to believe it...
The bad stuff is easier to believe,
you ever notice that?

She said,
“Die to live and live to die baby. Say it five times fast, it’ll drive your tongue crazy."

maybe you should just drink a lot less coffee
and never, ever watch the ten o'clock news.
maybe you should just kiss someone nice.

i'm sorry that you don't call me anymore
and i'm sorry we don't talk and laugh like before.

Second chances, they don't ever matter,
People never change.
Once a whore, you're nothing more,
I'm sorry, that'll never change.

I’m blending in so you won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate.

Did you forget to read the script?
There was never a role for her
It was always you and me, just me

i could be your last first kiss
and your last first dance.
first real love & your last romance.
i could be your man, baby, take my hand.
come see the world with me.

Back in school they never taught us
what we needed to know
Like how to deal with despair
or someone breaking your heart
For twelve years I've held it all together
but a night like this is begging to pull me apart
 
…Apparently you're going to hell. Reasons include:
Pot smoking, cigarette smoking, alcohol drinking,
guitar playing, having a tattoo, showing cleavage,
showing bellybuttons, girls showing their knees/elbows,
girls wearing tight pants/miniskirts, being blonde, being
fat, cursing, kissing on the mouth/holding hands before
marriage, having premarital sex, masturbation, having
anal/oral sex, being homosexual, judging people, being
Selfish, playing sports, women working, watching BET/
MTV/VH1/TNT, associating with Hollywood, listening
to “gangster rap”, techno, Christian bands, and Rock,
believing in evolution, being Catholic/Jewish/
Buddhist/Methodist/Protestant/Mormon/Muslim/
Hindu/Agnostic/Atheist, being a woman, being in a
sorority or fraternity, owning a pet, sin, have sinned, or
plan on sinning in the future...
Don't Worry. Hell is going to be a Party.

you left my heart as empty
as a monday morning church
it used to be so full of faith
now it only hurts

I love you even though I hate this thing that we've become.
I need you even though I can live without this.

she's got a homemade sign it says,
"go ahead try to figure out what my future looks like,"

i don't want to live my life like a story,
always thinking i could've been something

..don't run along side and control me

You told me you can't wait to see me.
And you didn't bother to even show up.
This whole situation's incredibly typical,
I should have seen it all along

sleeping to dream about you
and i'm so tired
of having to live without you

mary got pregnant from a kid named tom
who said he was in love
he said, "don't worry 'bout a thing.
baby doll, i'm the man you've been dreamin' of."
but three months later
he say he won't date her or return her call
and she swears, "god damn!
if i find that man, i'm cuttin' off his balls."
and then she heads for the clinic
and she gets some static walkin' through the door
they call her a killer, and they call her a sinner, and they call her a whore
but god forbid, you ever had to walk a mile in her shoes
cause then you really might know what it's like to have to choose

So say hello to all the boys at the top of this table that you're under

Lipstick lullabies
This is sorry for the last time
And baby I understand that you're making new friends
This is how you get by
The moral this time is
Girls make boys cry

I do understand the impulse.
The impulse to put your hand out and want someone to
be there at the end of your reach. To want someone
to be close to. To want to kiss or touch even if it's wrong.
The point is you can't control these feelings.
Even if they're wrong, they're there.
They're always there.

Certain things they should stay the way they are. You ought to be able to stick them in one of those big glass cases and just leave them alone. I know that's impossible, but it's too bad anyway.- Catcher in the Rye

state the obvious:
i didn't get my perfect fantasy
i realized you love yourself more than you could ever love me
so go and tell your friends that i'm obsessive and crazy
that's fine, i'll tell mine you're gay.

summer is calling,
its wanting postcards and polaroids
and memories of last year,
but i can't let go

 I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed, to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

'Wait!' Emily Cried. Her words were thick with tears, but she lifted her chin and crossed her arms tight over her chest to keep from shaking. 'I, um, I have this problem. I broke up with my boyfriend you see. And I'm pretty upset about it, so I wanted to talk to my best friend,' She swallowed and looked at the black ground. 'Thing is they're both you.'

you'll sit alone forever
if you wait for the right time.
what are you hoping for?

We should get jerseys cause we make a great team
But yours would look better than mine, cause you're outta my league

And I know that it's so cliche to tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new best day of my life

When things in your life start going shitty, don't try to stop them. There's no point because the harder you fight to fix them, the more goes wrong. Just suck it up, and take it. If you realize that as soon as things hit rock bottom, they get better.. it will make this entire process seem a bit more painless.

it's all about the icing

and nobody cares about what's inside
you could see the outside face
it looks good, it must be great

your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
do you know you're unlike any other?
you'll always be my thunder,
and i said your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
i don't wanna ever love another.

& next time my name's about to roll off your tongue,
i hope you choke on it.

Have another drink and drive yourself home.
I hope there's ice on all the roads.
And you can think of me when you forget your seatbelt,
and again when your head goes through the windshield.

you've got this new head filled up with smoke
I got my veins all tangled close
to the jukebox bars you frequent
the safest place to hide.

you crawled into my mind
when you crawled into my bed.
said everything i've ever longed to hear.

you're the star
and it's the scene where
you let down everyone who cares.

Well you thought I’d wait around forever...
But baby get real
I just kicked you to the curb
In my red high heels

in my father's eyes, if you weren't perfect, you simply weren't.

 updateeeee =]

Summer is for breaking. Pack nothing. Leave without a note. Follow your internal compass.
Wear what you slept in. Sleep in what you`re wearing.
Use SPF. Listen to the ocean ;; but don`t take it`s advice word for word. Insist on karaoke.
Display Skin. Attract a following. Steal a Heart. Lose track of time. LIVE YOUR LIFE.
-- American Eagle. <3

Sorry Hun, but, unlike you,
I'm not the doorknob,
where everyone gets a turn.
I'm more of a casino, where
only the lucky ones,
hit the Jackpot

When people tell you that you're weird,
Take it as a compliment;
It just means you have originality.

What's teenage love? It's staying up late for each other & barely staying awake in class the next day. It's passing each other between classes & stopping to say Hi, but ending up running to your next class right before the bell rings. It's going to the mall, wandering around hand in hand, with a silence that's comfortable. It's watching a movie in the theaters with his arm slowly creeping onto your shoulders, & you resting your head in his arms. It's walking around at night, for no reason at all; his chest, her head, looking at the stars. It's uncertainty of how long it will last, a risk you're both willing to take, even if it means you'll have a broken heart. It's not yet true love, not like, nor lust, nor infatuation. It's teenage love, here to stay, here to play with our hearts & never to go away.

&& Even the biggest failure,
beat the hell out of never trying.
Grey's Anatomy.

I didn't realize how much I needed you
until you were almost gone.

i don't like being this weak.
feeling this vulnerable.
crying tears that don't need to be shed.
letting you have complete and utter control over me.
but i can't help it.
i'm just in love with you.

one of the worst feelings in the world is having to doubt something
you thought was unquestionable

I'm here to please, so grab my hips, put me right where you want
me, kiss me like you'll never let go
& take my breath away, boy. It's all yours.

You're either in love or you're not in love.
There is no "I think" ; no in between.

HEY KIDS, this is for you. here's to the kids whose idea of a good night is sitting on the hood of the car, watching the stars. here's to the kids who were never too good at life, but still were wicked cool. here's to the kids who listened to panic! at the disco & my chemical romance before they were on MTV, & blamed MTV for ruining their life. here's to the kids who care more about music then hair cuts. here's to the kids who have ever had a broken heart from someone who didnt even know they existed. here's to the kids who have read the perks of being a wall flower & didnt feel so lonely after doing so. here's to the kids that spend their days in photo booths with their best friends. here's to the kids that second guess themselves on everything they do. here's to the kids who will never have 100% confidence in anything they do, & to the kids that are okay with that. HEY KIDS, this is for you

How can you say that I'm at fault? The one to blame is you. I'm so tired of apologizing to myself for you and what you've done to me.. and I've tried to forgive myself about caring about you... There's nothing I can do.

they all say
"you would look so cute together;;
you two are perfect for each other"
i quickly deny it
but i secretly think the same..

When I look at him & see all 
those memories of us
 I just wonder if maybe
 he's still seeing them too

Everyone has someone in their life
that keeps them looking forward
to another day.

and when the whole world seems against you,
that's really your time to shine.

I can't stop thinking about him, & the truth is, I don't want
to stop thinking about him because when I think about him, I'm happy.

there are two great days in a persons life;;
the day they were born && the day
they figure out why.

but something's wrong with that smile today.
congratulations, kid. you got to her

Thank God for the friends who are willing
to give up their whole day,
just to make sure you get through yours okay.

Maybe it's not about the happy ending.
Maybe it's about the story.

If there's one piece of advice I can give you, it's this.
When there's something you really want, fight for it.
Don't give up no matter how hopeless it seems.
And when you've lost all hope, ask yourself if in 10 years from now,
you'll wish you had given it one more shot because the
best things in life don't come free.
 
"We accept the love we think we deserve."
-the perks of being a wallflower

People have scars. In all sorts of unexpected places. Like secret roadmaps of their personal histories. Diagrams of all their old wounds. Most of our wounds heal, leaving nothing behind but a scar, but some of them don't. Some wounds we carry with us everywhere and though the cut's long gone, the pain still lingers.
[ Grey's Anatomy ]

Did you know that Cinderella didn't have
to take her dress off to win her prince?
She had Romance without Regrets,
and she didnt lose anything that she
couldn't get back the next day.

I know it hurts. I know that. But if you
give up now, you may be missing something
greater than you could have ever imagined.
And no one wants to miss something like
that. Something that could change their life
forever. Just keep holding on baby.
And I promise it will get better.

And most best friends survive middle-school together, and experience
freshman year of high-school together. They are there for the first kiss
and then the first heartbreak. They are there for the Sweet Sixteen and
the drivers test that seems to determine it all. They are there for prom
and for graduation senior year. They are there from the point where we
become young adults, until the point where they watch us become adults.
And go on with our lives, to accomplish new things. They are there for you.
And sometimes no matter how much you wish your best friend could be
there, they can't. It's the ultimate unfairness and cruelty of life, but nonetheless,
it's there. However, deep down you know that if she could be there, she would.
Deep down, I know that. That no matter the distance, she is there for me.
And that, in it's simplicity, is why I love her.

And I thought that all those little kids are going to grow up someday.
And all of those little kids are going to do the things that we do.
And they will all kiss someone someday.
But for now, sledding is enough.
I think it would be great if sledding were always enough, but it isn't.
-- The Perks Of Being A Wallflower

I love you in a big pretend to like your taste in music,
let you eat the last piece of cheesecake,
hold a radio above my head outside your window,
unfortunate way that makes me hate you.
so pick me, choose me, love me.
-- Grey's Anatomy

Here's to all the girls who used to be his number one. The ones who waited all night for him to call, only to check the caller ID the next morning & be disappointed. The ones who made it through that bitter break up, dried your own tears, & moved on with your life, only to have him walk back in it months later like nothing ever happened. Those of you who cried on the first day you talked again because you knew exactly where this phone call was going. The ones who listened to him say, "I only want to be your friend", one day, and the next, listened to him say how much he loves & misses you. We deserve something, and this is our tribute. Here's to the ones that took him back, hoping that maybe this time, he was different, hoping that maybe people really do change. We listened to our friends tell us that we were stupid for even thinking about giving him another chance, caught crap from our parents, & even snuck around to see him for while. We went through the great stage with no fights all over again. We started this out thinking it would be just friends, & ended up falling in love with him again. We wanted nothing more in the world than to hear him tell us he loved us too, that even though things were bad in the past, they would be different this time. And when we finally heard it, it was like we were dreaming. This is for us. Here's to the ones who believed what he said, sat around all over again waiting for a phone call that might come in a few hours, or a few days. Here's for the tears cried and dried all over again. We wanted so desperately to believe that he was really busy, he couldn't possibly call us at that moment, or even that he fell asleep early. We trained ourselves to believe the lies because we wanted to believe we had found the one for us. We learned to settle for someone who didn't treat us the way we should be treated. Here's for the ones who did their hair and make up & put on their prettiest earrings, only to hear him say that he couldn't see us today. The ones who never believed it when people told us there might be someone else. We just couldn't believe that he could do this to us again. This is for those great girls who loved him more than words can say, & took him back no matter what happened last time because they couldn't bear to look back on their lives one day & wonder "what if". This is for the girls that stayed up all night long listening to him whine about an ex girlfriend who cheated on him, & cried during the entire conversation. The ones who hoped he would realize that he deserved better, that he deserved us. When he said that he loved you, but he was in love with her, he didn't mean it. This is for the ones that held on to something that was never there to begin with. This is for us girls, who somehow managed to get him to forget about her, & get him to tell us that he was in love with us again, only to have him tell us three weeks later that "things were going too fast, he needs time." Here's to the girls who couldn't cry to their friends because of how stupid they felt. The ones who held it all in when things came crumbling to pieces again. This is for the ones who couldn't bear to even tell their mom what was going on, for fear of an "I told you so." The ones that could just tell that they had made a mistake ever allowing him into their hearts & their dreams again. We knew that we deserved better the entire time, that we deserved a guy who would call when he said he was going to, one that would come see us whenever he got the chance, one that would really care about us. We just wanted the one that we loved like that. Here's for the ones that finally realized that he never gave a crap about them. Here's for the time that he broke your heart again. This is for those days spent trying to hold back the tears, & the tears that turned into anger, then disappointment. Here's for us girls who finally realized that we deserve better. This is for those confusing days, when you miss him & want nothing more than to hear his voice, or feel his arms around your waist. Stay strong and remember that relationships are like broken glass; sometimes it's better to leave it alone rather than try to put th