its December!

I survived thanksgiving. I was tryeing to make peace with every1 but there are hurt feelings.

i asked God to help me find who He wants me to be. thats the real important thing to me.

not my parents. not my freinds. not even you.

Peeps telling me what i want to hear. Peeps telling me that Im right. Peeps saying Im wrong.

i hope that God lets me know. i'm tryeing to become the best ME i can be.

cant wait for Christmas now...

Going home for Thanksgiving

ok, I've been trying to live as a man all so I can go home this week.

Im not sure what will happen, and Im scared. Wednesday night theres mass.

so busy

caut between what I want and what I need....

I just want to be happy. I want to be part of my family, and I want to fit into sosiety.

I want to be proud of me. I think I'll try being a man again. It can't hurt right?

I'm determined

My parents have asked me to wait before making any permanint changes.

I'm not even sure what I am anymore. I'm going to find out tho. I have too. 

If this is right, why am I so dipressed?

It's so hard to find what is right. I feel so alone. Noone knows yet who I am inside.

Is this a faze? Will I grow out of this?

Some say I'm born like this. Some say it's all in my head. Some say the devil made me do it.

I am lonley.