| ok...yeah its been awhile since i updated. so here it goes...well beto & i broke up : , ( its so depresing...i love him so much & i dont know how to let him know. its so bad. i hate it. he was the only guy i saw myself with for the rest of my life...but obviously i wasnt the only girl he wanted to be with. he says he still loves me but yeah. if you truly loved someone then you want to see them hurt. but i understand that all this is my fault so i have to deal with it. hopefully me & him can still be friends. i pray that we get back together. i dont know if i can live without him. i think we are still going to homecoming together but idk. i hope so. & there is this softball tourney in turon where his grandparents live & im suppose to play in it...well its a two day thing & im suppose to spend the night at either his grandparents house or his uncles. but idk. i want to but it will be a little weird. i hope he doesnt move on because it will be so hard to see him with another girl. its so retarded...but yet its not. i want him to be happy & if his is happier without me then that is fine with me...i guess. no wait. what am i saying. im lying to myself. i cant deal with it. i need him....i want him. maybe he is the one man for me but maybe just not at this time in our lifes. idk...this is the worst week ever like literally...i got grounded, beto broke up with me, & my fish just died today. gah! i hate it. so depressed....then my best friend is mad because supposedly her boyfriend & i talk too much...when we only talked last night because i had to ask him a question about his ipod and we just kept talking. but i hate it. its like God's letting me down in everything. gah! i so badly want it to all go back to normal when beto & i never fought. when sofia & i were best friends. when it was okay when i talked to jonathan. when i had a fish. when i was ungrounded. its soooooo depressing. life sucks...especially when its like everyone is against you. love is soo hard. especially when you love someone soooooo MUCH. and they dont realize it. it hurts.....i hope it gets better...soon. well feel free to leave comments...love you-allison |
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| hi. i just dropped by to update really quick. umm...addie had her baby. it was a boy and his name is joshua travis. and for all of you who know kerick he looks a lot like him. umm...my grandpa passed away today. so pray for our family. im going to miss him but i know he is in a better place. well call me sometime if you want to hang out but if you do probably not anytime this week cuz of everything happening. umm...i guess ill ttyl. love you all- "little bit".
ps. that is what my grandpa used to call me. |
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| hello everyone- how are your summers going so far? my is kinda boring but i guess its ok cuz hopefully it will eventually get better! baby tj & baby peyton will be here next week sometime! im so excited! yeah i didnt even know i was going to have a cousin named peyton until yesterday & she is a girl...so both a baby boy & girl! yeah! umm...what is everyone doing for 4th of july...cuz im not doing anything...i dont think! we should have a huge party at my house! umm...beto & i are doing WONDERFUL! it will be four months on july 1st...how exciting! o yeah i forgot the other day i went and babysat for this lady my mom works with & i watched one kid that is three & i got paid fourty dollars isnt that crazy...but shes rich so... yeah! umm well i think im going to go! ttyl! love you all-allison
ps. i got my cell phone back so...call me so we can do something!! |
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| hey guys...so im back for another round of this...speaking of rounds....im so angry i dont like softball cuz it takes up all of your weekends! grrrr....& it is preventing me from hanging out with my boyfriend & seeing him! i havent seen him since saturday : ' ( then yesterday my mom made me so angry! grrr! i want to go up to the lake for a week & just chill! geezz! i have softball this weekend in russell....blah! idk im kinda confused! yeah anyways....i think im gonna go! call me if you want to do something! ttyl! love you all- allison |
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| hey guys- sup? notta lot here! got done & passed driver's ed...so watch out for me...lol! ill make a better update later! k! love you all-allison |
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