My new song

No Way Out   By: Mark John Negrelli IV

We sat upon the bed,

We said the things we said

And I could not believe you seem so much like me

We exchanged our poetry,

I'll guess that we could talk about anything

Then I asked have you ever felt abandoned?

Felt so lost that you were stranded,

Just like all the walls are closing in

And you were left inside

Have you ever felt like your days were numbered?

Stuck under a tree in thunder

And there is no way out!

Ready for another day

Slowly watch me waste away,

Having' fun, bein' cool

Like we did in high school,

Elementary romance feelin' nervous all the time,

Crack a smile hold it up,

Just don’t let it hit the ground,

Sex, Drugs, livin’ life,

All the things we learned not to do,

Typical teenage machines,

Anyone tell me what this means?

I could learn, I could try,

Never really had an alibi

Wish I did, that's no lie

Everybody's asking

[Chorus]

Why?

When you feel like you can fly

You gotta know I don’t have the answer for you,

Drives me crazy but it's not over

There’s so much more to life then this

Why?

When you feel like you can fly

You gotta know I don’t have the answer for you,

Drives me crazy but it's not over

There’s so much more to life then this

Things seem so hallucinary,

In the corners of my mind they scare me,

I just want to run away,

Won’t someone please help me?

Then I ask have you ever felt abandoned?

Felt so lost that you were stranded,

Just like all the walls are closing in

And you were left inside

Have you ever felt like your days were numbered?

Stuck under a tree in thunder

And there is no way out

And you ask

[Chorus]

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Ok on May 7th my birthday I went to a concert, I saw someone who has helped me more then she will ever know and I'm  pretty sure with out her I would not be doing so hot but she helped me see that the path I was on would of screwed my life up. you know who you are and I just want to say thank you. I dont know what it is about you but what I do know is your amazing god has truly touched you and and I'm so glad that we met.

God gives us many choices some good and some bad and let me tell you I have made my share of bad chocies but the good thing is that God already knew that I would fall down and sure he dosent like it but he still picked me back up time and time again. I know what it feels like to loose control and think like there is nothing to look forward to but I found that God gives us things to look forward to. God came down and walked beside me last friday after i left the bar after a night of DJ'ing (no drinks). I was tired and I wanted to give up I had been up since 7am and here it is 2:30 and im walking home with about 800 cds for a 5 mile walk.  he asked me a question he asked me if I liked the path I'm on and I broke down and said God I hate the path im on and he reminded me what it was like to be loved. so now I ask him what can I do to get back on track God he told me to live my life through him and go the places he shows me. almost every day I am around drugs and/or alcohol and its hard to say know but I found out that I can say no they look at me funny when there offering free drugs but thats not what God wants. Life for me the last few months has sucked, I live in a basement that has no bathroom. I dont have easy access to a laundramat or a kitchen to cook in but I have made do with what I have. in the last 6 months I have had 5 jobs I still have 1 and that DJ'ing. I've been through 2 cars in 6 months. my Saturn's engine block blew up because I didnt change the oil enough. My S10 is fixable but I dont have the money the upper ball joint broke. my bank closed my account because I Owe 75 dollars. and my cell was turned off because I owe about 300. but I'm starting to re-pay those debts and im gonna put them behind me so that I can start again  fresh and renewed in the spirit. I wanna get dirty being Jesus's hands and feet and I'm gonna do it 100%

Winter Jam was great. call me i cant get online often.

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O.k. I'm back in Ohio here is why. Anna was doing something that was life threatening I told her I would do anything to help her and I wouldnt tell her parents if she let me help her. she told me she needed to fight her own battles. I had no choice but to tell her father what was going on. he blamed me for everything he said that ever since I came to town Anna was lying and doing all kinds of other things but it wasn't my fault. he told me that he wanted me to have little to no contact with his family for a long time. I don't know anyone there so I was S.O.L. so I came home very much still in love with Anna even though she is pissed at me. one day she will realize that I really did tell her dad out of love not to hurt her. Savannah I will always love you please lets work this out and stay close untill you are 18 then we can be together again.