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Saturday, December 08, 2001

Sat, 08 Dec 2001 05:59:41 GMT

I can't believe it's almost Xmas, now. I also can't believe I saw almost 4,000 people die in front of my eyes.

Wednesday, August 01, 2001

Wed, 01 Aug 2001 12:21:55 GMT

Where's the year gone? It's August already!!!

Monday, July 23, 2001

Mon, 23 Jul 2001 03:57:53 GMT

The count down has begun. The engines have been fired and are warming up. It looks as if it's only 7 days before I will be living alone with my dog and cat. There's a song about NYC on U2's latest album and it describes the city pretty well: "In New York freedom looks like too many choices." So I'll have my freedom, my choices, my solitude, my options, my hopes, my dreams, my friends, my trials, my life. What a strange new beginning, again.

Saturday, July 21, 2001

Sat, 21 Jul 2001 05:15:29 GMT

I went and saw Final Fantasy tonight. It was entertaining and interesting to see such complete animation. Their movement is a little stiff and the skin doesn't move enough to seem as if it is connected to a living creature. How ironic that the movie is about the essence of life and it has a very flat effect in this category. Though DEFINITELY check out the movie if you want to see where animation and virtual reality are going. Anyone see The Looker with Susan Day in the '80s?

I actually left for the movie with 10 minutes to get across town to 3rd and 11th St from 8th and 13th taking a cab across 14th street. Well there is construction on 14th and it took forever. But I had the best conversation with the cab driver who is from Bangladesh. We talked about how NYC has changed since we've been here -both 14 years.

Anyway, I got to the cineplex late and the cineplex is showing the movie in two different theaters. Mine was up on the 7th floor and I went to the one on the 5th floor. I didn't realize what floor the escalators were stopping on. So the funny thing is I went into see the last 25 minutes of Final Fantasy. When it ended, I had finished my bottle of water and M&M's and I went up to the 7th floor. I, of course came in even further late, but it wasn't too hard to catch up with the movie. When it ended, again, I tried going back to the other theater to see the beginning, but I came in on it at the same place I came in in the beginning the second time and I found out I would have to wait 45 minutes to see the beginning. The movie's not SO deep that I missed anything. It was interesting seeing it out of sequence. I think because I saw the ending first it made up for missing the beginning....

Saturday, July 21, 2001

Sat, 21 Jul 2001 04:34:59 GMT

We're really just a bunch of hemorrhoids with legs walking around bouncing off each other.

Don't forget to stop and enjoy the Dunkin'Donuts or two every once-in-awhile. Enjoy your life how ever you do.

Tuesday, July 10, 2001

Tue, 10 Jul 2001 03:30:42 GMT

Purple Scratch & Sniff Panties Part II

So I had the opportunity to feed the cats of my neighbors and I clipped the purple panties to a chain holding a plant in their living room. When I spoke to Jennifer, I had to stifle my urge to ask her if she noticed anything new. Or maybe she knows and I will be greeted with them soon....

Friday, July 06, 2001

Fri, 06 Jul 2001 00:14:11 GMT

I think I need to get a job. I have my own business supporting the software on computers and networks. I am so bored with it right now. I'm not learning anything new. My company has expanded and contracted. As I type, I am waiting for a chunk of a total of 20 gigabytes of data to copy back to the file server that I am working on. Real important stuff, but very idle. I've already read some of nytimes.com and abcnews.com. I checked my horoscope -but I don't take much stock in it. The server says 22,659 files left to copy with 54 minutes to go.

I have worked on my own for 10 years and I sense the future knocking on my door. I think computers will be easier to use and to fix and I don't want to do what I'm doing till I'm 55. There are people that I have worked with who have gotten great jobs managing technology. I think it's time I try to get one as well. It can't hurt to look. I will give myself some time because I'd hate not to look before I leap. I think I have a great company name and I got a registered trademark for it so I'm not looking forward to giving it up. I think that I might even like to live in another city other than NYC where I've lived for the last 14 years.

I'm not one to make rash decisions, but I need a change...

Tuesday, July 03, 2001

Tue, 03 Jul 2001 04:04:59 GMT

Sadness seems to leave a feeling needing to be rid of. Joy and Happiness seem to be feelings to be shared with another.

Monday, July 02, 2001

Mon, 02 Jul 2001 04:10:50 GMT

Sunday, July 01, 2001

Sun, 01 Jul 2001 14:31:29 GMT

A house in the woods.... My house in the woods.
One that I shared for 6 months with my lover. My newly, ex-lover.
This weekend is the one that we're working as a team, once again.
But this time, separating our belongings.
Who know what the future holds....
I have no expectations, a little excitement, fear and sorrow from time to time.
I 'm pulled towards the happiness of my new sense of freedom,
Yet also of sadness and the awareness:
what we had was both wonderful and hard to cope with at times.
Both strong personalities and an intolerance for patience.

We may find our niche with future partners, or we may find that what we had is all that there is to have and share between two people.