I haven't posted in a grand while... so I will try to update about everything.

Sadly not much goes on in my life.

The latest... I bought a new laptop because my other is died.  I think it might start up again maybe two more times and stay on for maybe 10 minutes! lol... that's kinda been it lately... a 10 minute period of on time.  So I got a Best Buy card and I have 6 months to pay off this purchase... let's pray I can do that! lol.... for real though our economy is crappy right now and the prices of my everyday items have gone up up up I think to myself... well what can I take away- Food... (cause I obviously don't need that to survive!) yeah right... so I can't give that up... Gas- not! I have to get to work and it's too far to walk or bicycle... Maybe I can find someone to move into my room with me and I can go back to the dorm style living with another person literally in my room with me so that my rent goes down even cheaper... hmm NO... I just don't see that happening... (although this is the best option!) I have to pay off student loans, my braces, car insurance... cell phone... house bills... yep... I would love to find something to cut I but I can't.  So the other option is working everyday .... for like 11 hours a day (which I can't always pick up so lately I've only been getting 7.7 hours a day... which is not enough!) So Work is frustrating... God will take care of me... it will all work out ok!

My cousin Mary Ann is coming to visit me in September... her boyfriend's softball team is playing at the Wide World of Sports so they are coming down three days early to spend time with me around the parks! Yay! I'm excited to see them... I asked for those three days off... and got it granted! See somethings do work out for me!

I rearranged my bedroom... I like the new set up... not that anyone on here ever saw the old set up... but anywho that's what's new with me.

I've been having morbid thoughts lately and have prayed that God just takes care of me and my loved ones.  I have been having horrible dreams.. Although when I wake up and I think back to them they always seem funny after the fact... like I just know how to make a horrible situation funny even though it isn't funny at all... I should write my dreams into a TV series! Really! lol

Alright I don't have anything useful or brilliant to say...

I need some serious make out time! lol

I haven't written in forever.  My computer is still dying but is holding out till I have enough money to just buy a cheap laptop that does it's emailing/word/excel duties! lol. 

I'm tired a lot lately.  I have been having back pains so I went to the Dr for an adjustment (ya know pop my back in) She couldnt twist me hard enough to get it to pop because my muscles were so tight and because I bend easily... but anywho so she gave me a prescription to have Physical Therapy- Soft Tissue to work out the knots on my back!  She also gave me a muscle relaxer but I think it makes me depressed.  I know that sounds weird but I took it for two days and I can't explain to you how I felt but it was ... well depressing I didn't take it today (my body ached) but I was back to my naturally happy self... I mean yes there were things here or there that irratated me but in like 3 secs I was over it and smiling again (like norm) but those other days... everything just settled and all those small pissy moments but boiled inside and I sat and looked at myself and my surroundings in a not so nice light... so I think I will have to call her and tell her to switch my muscle relaxers!

I feel as though I should try to have fun before I die.... and some would say that we are all in the process of dying, yeah it sounds pestimistic- but- if that was true and I should have fun before I die... I should always be having fun! So there you go... fun fun fun with Anne Marie....

I need some rest!