I am sooooooooooo Fucking fed up with everything. Non Ed'd people saying don't be stupid.... just eat. They dont understand wtf we go through. I hardly know or talk to many of you on here, but im always here for you just as i know that you will always be here for me.
Sorry im not making much sense im just so pissed off with shit loads of stuff right now! UGH!
I've just added some new modeling pics. Lemme know what you think! I've been ill with the flu all week, im bk down to 46 kilos i had actually gained to 48 *gross* i know. Anyways on my way bk down, feeling a bit better too.
So i know i hardly ever write in here, but i just feel like writing tonight. I should really keep up with it. Im so behind on Fo too. Well i got down to 45 kilos 99lbs but i've gained somewhat bk up to 47 yuk yuk yuk. Im losing again though, every time i look in the mirror i just see a giant fat blob and these 2 kilos have just added more fat to that blob. blah im blabbing.... well i guess im allowed to its almost 6am here! Anyways currently just trying to eat as little as possible and exercise as much as i can, my body is hurting so bad though ugh! My daily cals atm are under 500 so as long as i continue like this hopefully someday soon ill see 45 on the scale and then 44, 43 .........
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