Waking up past regretting feelings,

With all this things we do,

Falling through the same wholes,

Experiencing same dreams

Underneath the pink sheets we wish,

We have the best days, we believe

Lost strings, try to tie up, we think

Making up for lost friends, we fell.

Between the drawers emptying,

We missed, obvious screams of fear

Close them up again I’m done

Filling up this whole with love

Holding to this undone grip,

Jealousy walks through hallways

Killing cries of hoping lies

Expecting to keep it alive

written by me.

IM a d d i c t e d TO w o r d s AND THEY ARE u s e l e s s ♪ It hurts, it destroys 'til it kills.

t's the only way I have learned to express myself,
Through other peoples descriptions of life.
I'm afraid, I'm alone and entirely useless..


If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echos in every room
I would

Rain ♥ Bows make me happy! :)♥

I think I've already lost you
I think you're already gone
I think I'm finally scared now
You think I'm weak
I think you're wrong

Look into the eyes of fear
To see the one pain
Of this soul my dear
The shadows over my head
That there is nothing now
And will be nothing in the end
Oh nothing in the end
Oh I'm on my knees
I'm begging please

I'll speak in riddles so you can understand ♥
I'll draw in pencil so you can trace with pen ♥ 
So in love with me, like sand to wet feet ♥
I'll write both our names into the wet concrete ♥

I am not the one that you should blame
So take what I left you for the pain
And do your best to forget my name

telling me to go
but hands beg me to stay
your lips say that you love
your eyes say that you hate

there's truth in your lies
doubt in your faith
what you build you lay to waste
there's truth in your lies
doubt in your faith
all i've got's what you didn't take

Don't be afraid
I've taken my beating
I've shared what i made
I'm strong on the surface
Not all the way through
I've never been perfect
But neither have you
So if you're asking me I want you to know

Forgetting / all the hurt inside you learned to hide so well
Pretending / someone else can come and save me from myself
I can't be who you are

Between the sadness and the smile
Lies the flicker of the fire
You always said this never hurt you
I always said you were a liar
With all the towers and the wires
There still lies a little silence
Two hearts and one connection
One voice lacks emotion now

...& lately i'm not scared♥

Words are flowing out like
endless rain into a paper cup 
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting through my open mind
Possessing and caressing me

Sounds of laughter shades of life
are ringing through my open ears
inciting and inviting me
Limitless undying love which
shines around me like a million suns
It calls me on and on across the universe

You were the only face I'd ever known
I was the light from the lamp on the floor
And only as bright as you wanted me to be
But, I am no gentleman, I can be a prick
And I do regret more than I admit
You have been followed back to the same place
I sat with you drink for drink
Take the pain out of love and then love won't exist

This balance has weighed out our hearts desire.
I'm trying to make it alone.
Well it's not like it hurts that much anyway.
Upside down and inside out.
When I leave here I'm going alone.
But I'm dying, I'm dying to touch.
And it's not like it, not like it hurts much anyway. 

Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?
'Cause I wouldn't believe you if you said the same to me.
Near death, last breath, and barely hanging on-
Would you believe me if I said I didn't need you?

...she said this doesn't hurt♥ 

I feel her smooth skin slightly
brush against the back side of my arm
I need the song started over
Your crying made me miss my favorite part
I hear the exclaimation point
Her eyes are so there
They're greener
Lay back, the song is almost over
I tried to hear you out but I dozed off
I need the song started over
Your crying made me miss my favorite part
Rachael, it's times like this I wonder
Your eyes are so there
They're meaner

If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air
It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you to stop it now
If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air
It won't hurt half as much and I'll beg for you just tell me something