whats in an AIM profile?

this is what i had put as my profile as of today:
what should this profile be about? should i have one thats truely about me? should i put funny quotes that me n my friends have said. should i have something about love. how about my name and my boyfriend's name... oh yeah i dont have one. should i tell u what time of year it is? what's really in a profile. its stuff u want people to know about you. it depends on what u want people to know.

so who i am is who i am!
i've got some awesome best friends! n i have some pretty cool friends.
i have a family n i love them.
u dont need to know much about me, unless u wanna IM me and talk.
and u no what, talking can actually bring you to knowin more about someone.
to bad i lost contact with some people bc we never really talked. but that ok bc maybe one day we'll talk again.

thats not that bad is it? i dont think it is. but its true right? i mean there are many different kinds of profiles out there. the ones that people say their name and their bf/gf's names with the date they started going out. thats cute i guess. im sure when i get one i might do it. some people say like "summer '07" woo! its not like we dont know what season it is. but its up to them what they want in it. i mean i have had profiles talking about how i love 3702. which is the day i met aaron. but really it was a big crush. i never got to go out with him and really it'll be fate if we're ment to be. in some profiles it would say i love my friends or something like that and it would have the initials of their friends. its up to who ever the profile belongs to, to say whatever in the profile.

i guess to end this is to say
BE YOURSELF AND DONT CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK ABOUT YOU OR YOUR LIFE. also dont try to be someone your not.
peace out people <3

 ok so it seems like im kinda updating more and more now. isnt that interesting? yes? good. well ne ways this is how today went:

i woke up maybe around 9. mom and dad were gone. i was amazed at 9 my dad was gone. cause normally i would sleep maybe till 9:15am n hear him still downstairs, then leave around 9:30 or 10. but whatever. so i got up. ate some breakfast. ok tip: dont really buy those fun pak cerals for kids... unless u no u like all those. i knew i liked frosted flakes... but thats all i knew... i cant really remember the other names bc i ate them like the past weeks or something. but like fruit loops i though i would like eatting. but it was just too sugary. coco krispes(sp) that was too chocolately. pops was good, but weird that it was in like not the same kinda bags the others were in, in their boxes. oh well.

then after that i thought eh why not write in my journal. i mean im not gonna use it for humanities again. bc im not going back to that school so yeah. so i got it and i drew some sad(bad) looking pictures. lol idk with markers i cant draw very well. oh well. then i was like i wanna do something like have it say "best friends" in the middle. i did it but then changed it so the middle said "my friends + best friends are:" and then made it into like a cloud or something. then i wrote people's names. i wasnt sure if i should have put down matt's name but i did it any ways. then it came to around 1:30pm - 2pm, which is when ping said he might come home to get some stuff before he went to otakon. and he was bringin matt and justin with him. see if u read my last two rantin n ravin or how ever u spell it, i was sad and feeling weird bc matt was weird around me the last two times i had seen him. so in the txt ping txted me it said he would be home around then to get some stuff and that i could hug matt. i thought that was nice. lol

but while i was writin in my humanities journal the phone rang. it was lakeshore learning store, the manager trisha(sp) had called and wanted to talk to me and maybe schedule(sp) an interview. so i ended up calling the store back, bc i didnt make it to the phone in time to pick it up, but anyways i called and she said maybe an interview on monday at 3:30pm or tuesday. so i was like i'll have to ask my mom if thats ok. she was like sure, when you find out please call me back. so i said ok n we hung up. by then ping was home and trying to figure out what he wanted to bring. so i went out and saw matt n justin still in the car. so i walked outside and waited for matt to get out and he hugged. let me tell u this, it felt good to get a hug from him. i know thats weird to think of just getting a hug can feel good? yeah well idk i guess it was me being emotional about friends. i mean i have been through friendships i didnt wanna lose matt as a friend. but yeah it was good to get a hug from him. then i hugged justin too, while he was still in the car. the came in the house for a little bit. then they both wanted to see the backyard idky... my backyard is weird. i havent been back there since idk maybe when natasha come over and she wanted to put her bird on a plant? i played back there when i was little (exageration kinda). then ping was done and then they left. i did wish i had money and could have went with them but i guess i'll just have to hope i have enough money for next year.

so then i went back inside and brought up the stuff for my dad's machine, turned it on. then i think i went to eat something... or maybe i went on the computer. i think i went to the computer. i checked some of myspace and my email. then i got a phone call from cecily. she asked if she wanted to know if i wanted to be picked up or just meet her at her house. i was like umm pick me up? she was like ok. so then i turned off the computer planning on coming on later so i x-ed everything out and logged off and turned it off and then got outside and waited a while. then i called my mom and told her i was gonna hang out with cecily. she said ok. then i told her the manager, trisha, from lakeshore learning store called and said that maybe we could have an interview at 3:30pm on monday or tuesday. n i thought oh man its not gonna work bc no one would be home to drive me. then when my mom heard that she was like ok tell her u can go on monday. so i was like but i dont have the number its inside and im outside waitin for cecily. and she was like go inside and call then u can go out. so i did and by the time i was done with the call cecily was at my house. i was like wow. so i have an interview on monday. =] yay i hope i do good and get the job. i think it will be good to work there. i can see all the teachers supplies and everything. i can help stock things. the dmv is near by. sj and maggie will be near by in the hong kong supermarket. on my lunch breaks maybe i could go and get some chinese food. =] yummy!

i dont wanna get my hopes up, but man i wanna work there. its like a really good opertunity(sp) for me. i hope i get to work there. umm so yeah i went to the mall with cecily n we saw britt. then we got yelled at by one of britt's bosses and then we walked around the mall. we looked around at tops, dresses, clothes in general. at the verizon booth thing and the t-mobile things, i think they were trying to sell cell phones but we didnt need it. then we got bored of the mall, said bye to britt and went to chittick and just swung for a little n then sat on the bench. we talked about friendships and just life stuff. then i came home around 5:50pm or so. came on the computer. read the rest of my emails, went on facebook, went on myspace, came on here and checked if louisa was online on aim. i talked to emily for a little, then i got hooked in the games on zwinky. yeah i had an old one and i redid one of the outfits, but then i forgot the password so i wasnt able to go into the zwinkytopia(sp). so then i made a newer one. and then i made an outfit and then went into zwinkytopia and played some games and chatted.

then i txted ty and asked her if she was having fun at otakon. she said yes but i miss you and i do wish you were here. its not the same without you. it made me feel loved and i was like aww i miss u and wish i was there. or i said something like that. but then i told her i was happy that matt had hugged me before when i saw him. then she was like i wish i could give u a hug too wifey i miss you. see that just made me wanna be at otakon and not worry about whatever was gonna happen this weekend. like i probably would have a fun weekend and then just have an interview on monday. and it would hopefully go well. i just hope that this weekend my dad doesnt piss me off again. bc well... i dont have tough strong emotions i guess you can say, towards the things my dad says sometimes. like i broke down on ping's bday bc my dad was jokin and he thought it was funny when really its startin to piss me off that he thinks its funny. he doesnt know when to stop really. but whatever i just hope they have fun at otakon and i get to see some video of otakon. im sure they're all having fun.

my hopes:
i do a good interview
i get a nice dress for that wedding im going to
my friends who are at otakon are having and going to have fun there
my dad not to piss me off this weekend
... my prom nails to fall off!!!! lol (my two middle finger, fake nails fell off today tonight... now u cant flip someone off with style haha jk)

im out for tonight <33 love you ppl!
~ alyse

oh wait this is a picture ty sent me of matt from the convention =] matt told me his cosplay is a school student. he looks like it and also he looks like he could be a hotel conseairge(sp) =] he looks cute ^_^

ok peace out ppl!

a little rantin n ravin

so it'd be an under statement if i said i dont let things bother me that has happened in the past.

it bothers me still that i've been through friendships like jenn's and shelley's. but its not like i can make up for that. but i did apologize to cecily for being the stupid person i was not wanting to be her friend. she was a great friend to me she never did anything bad for me to not wanna be friends with her. take the thought that i thought she always wanted to say she was right or knew everything, people are just like that. but me and cecily are friends again. as of july 16th or some where around there.

the thing that really bothers me is my dad. the fact that he has changed over he years. the thing that i remember the most is that when i was younger it was either my mom or my brothers that told me that my brothers were jealous of me bc i was so close to my dad. now im envious of myself when i was younger, or maybe im envious of ping. he seems to be at ok level with dad. what i used to be at i guess. but its just the thought of what ping said the other day. he told me that he says things sometimes as mean as dad but i always seem to take dad's meanings worse. i told him the reason for that is because i dont think my dad has any confidence that i do anything. that even though i try to work my hardest in school or put out applications for work or even do anything in my life, its for a good thing. i try my hardest to do things but i dont think my dad even thinks i try. i no i shouldnt worry about what my dad says but u no it would be nice if one day i knew he knew i was trying in life. bc i remember one day last week or so, i wasnt in the same room as my mom and dad or well i wasnt seen and i heard my dad say to my mom, "what does she do all day nothing?" which isnt true. i bring up stuff for his machine, i do applications when i can, i might be making a new layout or making my brothers card. or maybe im patching up a friendship. but i think the things i do are nothing to him even if one thing is for him. he's not only mean to me, i no just his words can annoy my brothers and even my mom. but they are tough, they can handle all his critizim. but i can... thats what i tell some of my friends sometimes i hate my dad. i no there are worse things dad's can do to their family. like leave their families or the worse is they dont do anything and their health goes bad and they die. but i mean i dont wish death upon my father, i just wish they he could stop changin in the way that he seems more mean ever time he picks on me. he picks on me thinking its funny but its not every single time he does it.

i keep thinking that maybe even if i tried to talk to matt, he wouldnt wanna talk to me. i mean i no i didnt even try but idk i guess its like im afraid of losing another good friend. yes everyone changes as they grow up no matter what. its for better or for worse. but idk i just miss the old matt. when we would talk on aim sometimes. or everytime we saw each other we werent feeling weird n not wanting to hug the other. i miss how close we used to be. am i being pushed away as a friend? not everything can stay the same i no that. things just randomly change in life and i just have to deal with it. =/

<33~ alyse

::edit:: 7:35pm
i felt better after 4:27pm or so. i walked up to chittick and me and cecily just swung kinda and talked for a while. it was fun we reministed (sp) good memories good times.  well im talking to her on the phone now so im gonna finish this up right here ^_^ peace out ppl! =]

omg omg omg omg! there is a NANA nintendo DS game!!!!

ok if i have more to say later i'll update.

like what i did?

i wanted to change the pictures i had. so i changed them to "my sassy girl" pictures =] isnt it pretty? i also did one on "it started with a kiss" n then saved the code. i kinda wish i could make my own layout. *sighs* oh well

so thats all i kinda came to write in this to say. other than that i was just doing the pictures. i'll update again when i actually have something to say. =] peace out ^_^v