Currently Listening Illuminate By David Crowder Band see related

Most of the time we talk to God, we forget that He talks to us back! We say "I love you" and a resounding "I love You!" bounces from the heavens, but we never hear it. We say,"Here I am, take all of me" and He whispers, "here I am, take all of Me" yet we still don't hear it. With every word spoken, He is repeating it right back to us. God revealed this to me last semester through a song. I had forgotten this revelation until He spoke to me again tonight. I have been praying for God to reveal Himself to me as my lover, and like I said in an earlier post, lovers reveal themselves in the little things. Well, during some ministry time after service tonight that song was sung and Jesus just whispered to me, "they're playing our song!" I love Him! This is a song that normally we sing to Jesus, but I would like you to look at it as Him singing it right back to you.

There is none like you
no one else can touch my heart like you do
 I could search for all eternity long
and find there is none like you

So some amazing things happened tonight. I am so incredibly.....I don't know. There's no words to describe how I feel. Let me just say that it's good!! No, it's so much more than good. I know that everything is going to be alright. This weekend I just felt that there was a huge battle over my soul (I know that sounds conceited, but...). I felt like all of heaven and all of hell were in this eternal struggle for my future. I am happy to report that I know that heaven won! (did you ever doubt)

I don't know if it's just me, but I have this hard time seeing God as my lover. I have no problem seeing him as my father and me as his child, but when it comes to him being my prince and my ultimate lover, I have a hard time. I just can't get my little mind around such a concept. I know that I need to be content in him in everyway, but.....I don't know how! I do know, though, that He will reveal himself in little ways, in the little things. When you're in love, it's the little things that count. You don't love someone for all the big, obvious things, but the small things that only you, the person in love, sees. I just feel like this is going to be an encouragement to someone else besides me. Just look for the little things that God is doing in your life because He's revealing His love for you. He's revealing Himself as your lover in the small tokens, but it will take a love for Him to recognize them.

Advice for the day:  Fall in love!!!!

Currently Listening The Triptych By Demon Hunter see related

So this is what I'm feeling right now!!!

Time has had its way with me

My broken, tired hands can't build a thing

The wires that have held me still

Embedded now in flesh, define my will

The idle of my days has won

The empty I have fed has made me numb

Despite what you will find in me

The failures of my past still swell beneath

 

I need a heart that carries on through the pain

When the walls start collapsing again

Give me a soul that never ceases to follow

Despite the infection within

 

Our careless feet leaving trails

Never minding the fragile dirt we all end in

 

This is where I find my fall

The cares that held me life don't work at all

And every step away from here

Is closer to the plague I hold so dear

 

Awaiting my end

Breathing in the day that find me new

Redemption begins

Bleeding out the flaws in place of you

Currently Watching Dirty Dancing - Havana Nights see related

I don't think I've ever been so content with not knowing what was going to happen in my life than I am now. *sigh*

I'm ready to go back to school, but at the same time I'm not. I'm actually kinda scared. It seems like this year has flown by and I just want it to slow down. Sometimes I just want to pause a moment and stay there for awhile. Then other times I just want to fast forward my life to where I think I want to be.

Advice for the day:  Play games! (lots of games)

Currently Watching Must Love Dogs (Widescreen Edition) see related

Only 4 more days until I come home!  I'm pretty excited. I can't wait to give my mom a big hug, I have really needed one lately.

So my Friday night was horrible. I have been really mixed up about some situations, but my mom came through for me. I spent Saturday making four trips to the airport so my friends could all leave me to go home. It kinda sucks that I've gotta stay an extra week, luckily my family here hasn't gone anywhere. I don't know that spending a lot of time here is very good either.

So generally I like to post advice for the day, but right now I could use some advice. So, how about it? Any advice?