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Friday, August 22, 2008

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    The Hours
    By Michael Cunningham
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    The propaganda begins!!

    It is my third day of classes and I 've already gotten my first Christian flyer! Last year I had a collection of Christian propaganda strung on a clothesline in my dorm room. This year I'm taping it on my closet door.

    This first flyer was an invitation to First Assembly of God kinda-almost disguised as an invitation to a free meal. Read the small print: the meal is after the church service. Oh and they're giving away a flatscreen TV, but you must be present to win.  Then there's more information about service times, contact info, yadayada...

    lol, apparently I'm not they're target audience because it would take more than a flatscreen TV to get me to go to First Assembly. If a rapidly spreading deathly disease was sweeping the nation and my only hope of survival was getting a vaccination at First Assembly, well, then I'd go, but ONLY then!

    Fellow non-believers: what would it take to get you to go to church? 

Friday, August 15, 2008

  • time to emo vomit

    After hoarding up my emotions for weeks now, it is time to vomit them all out at once on my blog so you'll be sure to have an unbalanced view of my life and thoughts.

    I. HATE. BEING. SINGLE.

    hatehatehatehatehateHATE it.

    hate.

    Before my first boyfriend I didn't understad why people bitched about being single like it's a disease. Now after going through my first relationship and breakup, I understand completely. After your first break-up, there's this used feeling. Like you've been thrown away. You are unwanted, unloved and on top of that, you can't even find half of your heart.

    It's been overcast for about a week and my mood is reflecting the weather. If it keeps raining, I'm going to have to take a vacation to California. I need sun! I need cooperative weather!

    While I'm foaming at the mouth to go back to school and regain my social life, I'm also painfully aware that before the semester even starts, I'm making a decision that will pretty much kill my chances of getting a date this year: I'm going public as the president of my campus's Gay-Straight Alliance.

    It's something I want to do and I've been planning for months, but the price will be other students assuming that I'm gay and I'm not. I like guys! I would like to date guys and the sooner the better!

    In other news, I finished my book proposal and emailed my first inquiry letter yesterday. I'm planning to mail a proposal to Jossey-Bass this week. Go ME!!

     

Thursday, July 24, 2008

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    God: A Biography
    By Jack Miles
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    Abraham was cool

    I haven't had the motivation to post in a while, but I thought since I had a new subscriber, I should at least update for them!

    I'm reading a great book "God: A Biography" by Jack Miles. He looks at the God of the Bible as a literary character who undergoes changes throughout the story just like any other literary character.

     I never thought of this before, but the Bible is the only book I read where I expect the protagonist to be exactly the same at the end as he is at the beginning. So naturally I'm very confused when I read instructions to stone children in one part and the statement "God is love" in a much later section. Well, it makes sense if you look at the bible as literature with a protagonist who is just trying to figure things out like the other characters.

    I'm reading the chapter about Abraham right now. It never occurred to me how gutsy Abraham is. God keeps promising him over and over that he will have a son, but when years go by and God still hasn't made good on his promise, Abraham straight up laughs at Gos when he tries to tell him "No, really, you're going to have a son. I'm gonna get around to that." I mean, Abraham was basically telling God "Whatever! You've been saying that for years and I ain't seen nothin yet. I gave up on you making good on your promise."

    Now that's gutsy.

    Then later, he blatently defies God when he gives his wife away to some foreign ruler, saying she's his sister. I think that was Abraham's way of saying "I'm through with this whole mess", but God snitched to the foreign ruler about what Abraham did and he gave Sarah back to Abraham.

    I rather like this Abraham character. He's not the meek, submissive father of the faith I was told about in Sunday School.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008

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    The People of Sparks (Books of Ember)
    By Jeanne Duprau
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    Writing the dreaded book proposal

    I have finished 5 paragraphs of my book proposal for the publisher Jossey-Bass. Still a lot more to go!

    On their website they give you a form with lots of questions about your book which you then send through the mail and wait on pins and needles to see if they liked it.

    I am soooo nervous! What if they don't like it?

    I picked this publisher because they did such a good job with Heretic's Guide to Eternity, which is a super-controversial book by Spencer Burke. That book gave me permission to start asking questions about the ethics of God sending people to heaven and hell. A quote from that book which was a huge deal to me was " God is to be questioned as much as he is to be obeyed." After I was granted permission to question God, I granted myself permission to not believe in God. The Heretic's Guide to Eternity set me free to start thinking for myself.

    Over the years, books have enriched me, informed me, entertained me and altered the course of my life. I think an author has a great deal of responsibility for the lives of its readers. Do you agree or disagree?

     

     

Wednesday, May 07, 2008

  • Santa Clause and God- This is going to be fun!

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    I've been mulling this question over for months ever since an interesting convo with my philosophy prof.

    How are Santa Clause and God alike?

    How are they different?

    Which is better, in your opinion? and WHY?

    This is all hypothetical- you don't have to believe in either one to answer. Just use the qualities typically attributed to them by popular culture.

    I think Santa Clause is better because he gives gifts and doesn't expect anything in return. He demands no worship, no adoration, no thank-you cards. He just gives gifts.

    I think Santa Clause and God are alike in that no one I know has ever seen either of them (the ones at the mall are just his helpers). I have never been to where they live (Heaven or the North Pole) or seen any of their helpers (elves or angels). Both supposedly know when you are sleeping, when you are awake and whether you are bad or good.

    I think they are different in that no one has ever started a war over anything to do with Santa Clause. Kids usually stop believing in Santa Clause at some point, but many kids, if they ever did believe in God,  keep believing in God. They are also different because God has control over the weather, laws of nature, time and human interactions whereas Santa Clause is at the mercy of weather (he got Rudolf to light his way because he couldn't see in the fog). No one goes to foreign countries to try to convince peopleto believe in Santa Clause. I don't know of anyone who has ever been killed for believing or disbelieving in Santa Clause.

    They both, however, take over the radio, stores and malls for one month every year!

     

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  • I recently published a book about leaving Christianity. Download it for free: http://www.lulu.com/content/1244074 I'm a college student from the southern USA. I like to laugh and make others laugh because it helps us feel good about ourselves.

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