Perception

I try to butt out because of my opinions. I like to listen to other people talk about things they believe so I can learn about them.

Matt and I were talking about different relationships yesterday. Dealing with a few of our friends, our relationship, what other people may see and what we see. It brought to mind that all they will see is their own views because they don't get out of their heads to discover what I may be thinking or feeling. Try on my shoes and see where I take you. Of course, I'm just as guilty. Isn't it funny how I can be leary of someone because all I have is my own view? When they do the same thing to me.

I love growing up. I hate it too. It's like walking into an unknown forest in the middle of the night. I have to feel my way forward slowly, watching every step. I've done a lot of growing up this summer. It's been scary and frustrating and wonderful and all different emotions at the same time. Sigh... Yet we never stop this "growing up" process, do we?

WTF Mate?

So my job might be killing me. Since I work all night. But I'm a night person so I guess it adds up...

Matt got the Youth Minister job at Victory!!! Yay!!!!!

My baby niece is SOO cute!!!! She looks just like her momma and is just adorable!!!!

Hmm... What's the point in xanga?

The Beginnings of a Lonesome Summer

I got a job!!!!!! I'm working at Buffalo Wild Wings as a cashier making $8 an hour!!!!!! I start that today. At 5. This is something new for me since I've never worked in food. Yay!

I'm kinda lonely since all my friends are at home or at school. I miss Matt. But Kim's gonna come visit me!!! Yay!!! Hopefully I won't go stir crazy before then.

My sister's on bed rest for the next 3 weeks until Hannah is born. Her blood pressure has been too high so after spending 24 hours in the hospital, they told her to take it easy. Hannah looks perfectly fine in her sonograms so we're not freaking out. Hopefully she'll go full-term.

Oh me.

Only a year left until adulthood.

Random thoughts

Hmm. It's been a while. A long while.

I've been asked lately how I'm doing. How is my world? I'm extremely good. Great. Spectacular. Looking back on my life from high school to this point, it's amazing I am who I became. I allowed God to lead me, then I said I would be fine on my own, then realized that I would NEVER be able to handle my life and allowed God to take complete control again. It's a wonderful feeling just to let go and be shown a single step at a time. It's freeing to know that even though I don't know the way, God does. I'm not trying to dog on Doug but my life is better now. I did, however, learn alot and wouldn't change the past for anything.

On another note, I think I need to get a photo page. Not that I'd have time for it. My priorities have changed lately. But I've taken some amazing photos that I would like to publish. Whitney, do you have a suggestion?

Well... I want to encourage you to continue to listen to God. He can speak through anything so keep your ears open. I know that once I learned how to listen, I'm constantly learning from him and hearing his voice.

I love you all.

Oh.

And I'm in love.