ana_beautyXO's Xanga

Monday, March 19, 2007

Mon, 19 Mar 2007 10:30:45 GMT

bulemic girls:

i went to the denist for my 6 month check up, and i had 8 cavities, all in the back of my mouth.

this is due to making myself puke and cocaine.
just don't eat ladies. if you're gonna throw it up, just don't eat it. it's wasteful.

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 15:23:14 GMT

people tell me i've gotten too skinny.
i don't know how to take that.

i'd still like to be skinnier

Saturday, December 16, 2006

Sat, 16 Dec 2006 16:09:24 GMT

i've let my ana xanga go, however i'm 25lbs lower than my starting weight...and 5lbs less than iwas in the 8th grade. i am now 120 lbs and moving down. HELL YEAH.

idk. i feel skinny and my mom took me to the doctor and they bitched at me to eat
i've just been eating healthy, binging here and here, but for the most part, just not eating. it's become habit and sometimes i hate it and i'm miserable. but fucking...who cares. its me. it's my body and it's changing and will continue to change until perfection.

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 15:45:10 GMT

intake:
b- slept through
l- 2 cups of coffee (0)
d-tba
s-2 cups of coffee (0)

i'm not hungry. i've got plenty to do today. i'll stay busy and keep my mind off eating.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

Sat, 29 Jul 2006 15:56:44 GMT

i've been gone for some time now. i haven't lost sight of ana, but due to extreme stress and depression, i've eaten more. i'm back at 130. aug. 3 is is on thursday. and i'm 20lbs away, still. i failed. but i'm picking myself back up and figuring out what my new goal dates will be and all that shit i hate doing.

fasting today.
probably fasting tomorrow and DEFINATELY fasting on monday b/c i have to go shopping for all new clothes and i am deathly scared. i'm going by myself to minimize the imbarassment.

everyone says they can tell i've lost a lot of weight but i'm really not seeing it at all. i have my skinny days...more frequently but still. i'm fat.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 12:01:19 GMT

current stats:
height: 5'5
weight: 125

intake:
breakfast:
coffee: 0
a little bit of chex mix: 80
lunch
water/ice: 0
dinner
tba

yesss. i'm down 5lbs. 15 more to go.
i can't work out again until maybe tomorrow because i'm really sore. i was stupid and didn't stretch after i ran. so i'm really sore.

Monday, July 03, 2006

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 15:07:39 GMT

intake:
breakfast
slept through: 0

lunch
2 cups of coffee, cigarette: 0

dinner
salad w/ honey mustard dressing: 180
french onion soup: 300

total: 480

exercise:
100 crunches
25 pushups
1.3 miles jogged [and it's 100 degrees no joke outside.]

total: -250-300

net total: 100-230

not bad not bad.
i'm going to start myown personal journal. everytime i want to eat i'll write "aug. 1st" and "110" and "you're fat" over and over to staple it into my mind to keep me motivated.

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Sun, 02 Jul 2006 10:09:30 GMT

looks as though i'll have to start my dieting and working out TOMORROW b/c we are taking my brother out to eat since he leaves tuesday. i've already had one chocolate covered donut. fuck. i took a zinc pill though and i've had 2 cups of coffee. i'll try to get a salad wherever we go.

if anybody knows about zinc pills and whether they help or not. please leave me a comment telling me a little about them.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Sat, 01 Jul 2006 13:36:22 GMT

goddamn. i hate when i go to my grandmother's. i binge like a mother fucker.
i'm back to 130. which means i have 1 month to lose 20lbs if i want to be 110 by aug. 1st.

what the fuck. i better go running. i can't eat all month. i have to run and work out and not stop. which will help with all this shit that's going on.

holy fucking shit. i'm in so much trouble with myself.

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 11:29:09 GMT

i've done so well on keeping my intake at 500 and not eating any meat. fasting today though. getting drunk tonight. which will make me not want to eat tomorrow. sweet.

+ =
all i want. all i need. and alone, will make me thin and full all along the way. it gives me energy, works as a great laxitive, and makes my whole body feel better. thank you coffee and cigarettes =]

edit:
not drinking tonight. but probably tomorrow night. haven't eaten anything all day. my stomach is really cramped up b/c i started my period today. so i feel somewhat bloaty. ew. i'm stayin strong on my coffee and cigarettes. mm mm good.

ugh. i wish i could look like her.