and today we'll strive to feel alive.

                                 if only for a moment.

time is a funny thing.

                   time creates change. hopefully dragging along security and adjustment.

i've learned some things since high school. i'm not a kid. the consequences of my actions are way more severe than when i was 15. but i've also realized that it's not just about growing up...it's also about growing apart. the social circle becomes smaller. the phone rings less. friends diminish some. bands end....the term best friend becomes an absolute ghost.

then you get your head out of your ass. and realize that you're still learning how to grow apart and how break away from the added security of a high school homeroom. time flies, life goes on and you play the cards you are freshly dealt. no matter how long it takes getting used to.

allow things to mold and shape your being. take everything as it comes with full stride. don't embed yourself in the past. don't burrow on the thought of losing touch with certain people. concentrate on what time is going to bring next. total loss of control isn't always a bad thing. i'm ready to expand in ways i never thought possible.

Im coming. I love you.

            tonight:

                                                                       what real friends are all about.

thanks, jeff. i owe you one.