I realize I haven't been blogging with the regularity that I used to have. There's been a million trillion things that I've wanted to blog about (okay maybe not *that* much) but I haven't gotten the time to. So be prepared for a long and possibly emo entry. Or it could be a really short one. Who knows? I've actually forgotten pretty much almost everything that I wanted to say. Well I guess they're not that important then. I'm not gonna chronicle every day since the last time I updated (wednesday) but rather just blog about certain events that have happened.

Thursday was super super freaking stressful for me. Project Work was terrible. Albert and I lost our patience (which is pretty easy for me but pretty darn hard for him, so you know something big is up when even HE gets damn freaking pissed) with the two chinese scholars in our PW group. They weren't doing anything and didn't bother finding out what was to be done. And I was so freaking pissed I asked one of them, "Lin Xin, I'm going to ask you an extremely simple question which requires just a yes or no answer. Did you do anything pertaining to PW during the june holidays?" and he said YES. "what?" and then he said interview stuff, and I asked him to show it to us, and he said he didn't bring his laptop. So I was like, okay, send it to us. And you know what the fucking son a bitch said? "Erm, actually the stuff I found isn't very useful." OH MY GOSH I'M NOT A FREAKING MORON OR SOMETHING! I CAN SEE RIGHT THROUGH YOU, YOU SOB! It was so plain obvious to albert and i that he hadn't done anything. and the other guy? He did some stuff that was total crap. So we gave them deadlines of sunday 11.59pm for them to send the new stuff to them. and I sent a very very nasty and bitchy email out on thursday night (or was i friday?). doesn't matter. And I even deleted a lot of stuff that I wanted to say because it would be rated like R21 on the bitch scale.

And after PW, I went to the grandstand to do Math VA with my group. And guess what? One particular FEMALE, who had earlier said that she was free, had to disappear halfway for godknowswhat. And the next day, she even had the gall to say "but I did my part already!" Well, my dear, if what you did was ranked 8 on a scale of 10, what I did for the project would probably rank 80. I went home, dumped the stuff on my bed and quickly rushed to art friend at takashimaya to buy more materials. And I worked on the VA all the way til 2+am. Even my dad got so worried about me that he came to help me with some stuff. I love my dad. I hate YOU. It was so super stressful but I was so in need of sleep and scared that I would have to stay up the entire night that I didn't even have time to cry or swear or be angry about it. Until the next day, at least. Seeing how well-rested SHE was, and her making that hell of a stupid comment. I hate it that people don't pull their weight, but I guess people know that I'm just too kind and I care too much about my grade so that if someone were gonna ruin it, I'd fix it straight away. I hate people taking advantage of me wanting good grades and hence they think that if they don't do anything I'll just finish it for them. Wish is true, but they will get it big time from me after that.

Went to support NJC Canoeing at MacRitchie Reservoir on friday, along with the rest of the councillors. We were excused from school. (: Met sooo many hot guys there!! From RJ. haha. We were like on a mass boy-watching stakeout! Haha. Ankit, Yi Le, Mylene and I left early and went back to school to meet Mr Yeo and Mr Tan who were gonna take us to Chung Cheng High for some recruitment talk. Haha. It was so funny because Mr Yeo was like mr tan's gonna be driving too, but his car can only fit two people, him and one other person. So we were all "it's okay, we'll all ride in one car". and then mr tan drove out in a red sports car (but toyata) and ankit was like "i'm outta here!". haha that was funny. Chung Cheng was fine. The school was really old and chinese though. Didn't like the feel that much. Like the buildings looked liked like chinese palaces from the outside. Even Yi Le got freaked out. Haha.

After that we went back to school for soccer training. Running was fun, but I got a freaking shin splint or whatever you called it. From this morning actually. I don't know how. Anyway I started thinking about soccer and stuff and about where my future lay, and suddenly my dad's words made a lot of sense. Like he has always and will always berate me about why I joined soccer instead of something like track, where I actually stood a chance of winning something. And we were all thinking about why we don't have a coach, and we should totally have one (so true) but I realized that for some of us, the ultimate dream was to win nationals (which is impossible) or place top 4. But for me the ultimate aim isn't that. It's my aspirations (which I've probably made known to the whole world already). Winning nationals or placing top 4 is a side goal, but it is one of the many small things that will help me get where I want to be. And joining track from the very beginning would've taken me further towards my goals than soccer. As much as I don't wanna believe that this is true, it is. And I don't wanna believe that my parents are right, but they are. At this point, I've already figured out the biggest regret of my life so far. Not taking higher chinese in secondary school. At first I thought I got over that, and I did, because I would've been in different classes and wouldn't have had the awesome experiences I had. But that doesn't matter does it? I could have been in RJ. The Ivy League acceptance-churning machine. My goals would have been closer. I really really regret it. And I don't know if I can ever wash the pain of this regret away. NJ is awesome, I've met awesome friends, but my future. Have I lost it because of what stupid decision? I don't know. I guess I'll find out in due course.

Oh a lighter note, Xue Yuan came back for guitar concert. I was at the grandstand after training and I heard a "VANESSAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!" and it was her. Haha.

Went for the UN Seminar thing on sunday. It was so boring I slept more than 3/4 the time. And I even slept until I couldn't sleep anymore and started doing tutorials. For lunch Geraldine, Shirley and I didn't want to eat the catered food because it was so gross so we walked to Orchard Hotel and had Subway for lunch. We were at RELC on orange grove road (haha the place I took my SAT subject tests!) so it wasn't that far.

Sunday was by far the best day. Went to church. Met new people! Dennis and Keith. I think those were their names haha. Worship was unplugged. Sunday school was really empty. Everyone's on summer vacation now. It's amazing how my problems all seem to evaporate while I'm in church. I'm sooo going for Collide. But I can't go for passion. :(

 

I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.
- Philippians 4:13

Anywhere you go anyone you meet
Remember that your eyes can be your enemies
I said hell is so close and heaven's out of reach
But I ain't giving up quite yet I've got too much to lose
 
Hold me down sweet and low little girl
Hold me down sweet and low and I'll carry you home
Hold me down sweet and low little girl
Hold me down and I'll carry you home

The rain is gonna fall the sun is gonna shine
The wind is gonna blow the water's gonna rise
She said when that day comes look into my eyes
No one's giving up quite yet we've got too much to lose

Hold me down sweet and low little girl
Hold me down sweet and low and I'll carry you home
Hold me down sweet and low little girl
Hold me down and I'll carry you

All the way and you say your fine
But you're still young and out of line
When all I need's to turn around
To make it last to make it count
I ain't gonna make the same mistakes
That put my mama in her grave
I don't wanna be alone

Hold me down sweet and low little girl
Hold me down sweet and low and I'll carry you home
Hold me down sweet and low little girl
Hold me down and I'll carry you home

Today was really really awful.

Started off with chem, where our chem tutor practically screamed at us. For not doing some worksheet. Which I did. She said that she already gave us an extension and yet some groups (it was group work) were still doing it in the morning. Right right. As if we have enough time to dedicate the entire long weekend to chemistry.

Math was pretty good. Ms chua gave us free food! Haha. for youth day. yay. had to be the best lesson of the day, although i was FREEZING and had to drape my solaris shirt over my arms. and when mrs chua turned off the air-con it automatically turned on after like 5 minutes, so she had to keep turning it off. ah well.

physics lecture was hell dumb. they suddenly came up with a SEATING ARRANGEMENT, and we had to follow it (unlike the econs and math ones which i dont follow) because simon tan was ushering people around. and not sitting with the people i'm used to sitting with was really really weird, especially since i fell asleep and there was no one to keep me awake by entertaining me. and i was like six rows from the front and i was utterly amazed because i'd never sat so near the front before! although i'm sure there's a correlation between where you sit during lectures and what you get for CTs. haha. and now i have to go for physics consolidation sessions! because i failed. sigh. there goes my thursdays. :(

chem lecture was okay. i actually learnt stuff! haha. liwen and i moved to sit together but jing min and shi yun were stuck in the middle so they couldn't join us.

we had free period for contact because mr low wasn't in school. i tried to do some tutorials, and failed miserably. i got kinda distracted.

after lunch was physics tutorial, our first proper tutorial with our new physics tutor. let me tell you, this was one of the low points of my day. i'm not going to go into details because i'm just gonna get all emo again. anyway he kinda told us class off for not checking out his physics blog for what to prepare for lesson (i bet none of us remembered) and then he started teaching us this hell-weird method of studying. which involved copying out the lecture notes and re-writing them in your own words and splitting the points up into different points etc etc that i didn't quite get. and i didn't think it was useful anyway. and he went on and on about why must we be spoon-fed? and shouldn't we be more independent BLAH BLAH BLAH. and i got kinda pissed i kept sticking out my middle finger. how un-ladylike. and more stuff happened and i was really gonna cry. this guy was such a self-absorbed ass. and he split the class into two, one part being 'mainstream' and the other being 'advanced learners' and he said that they'll be doing different stuff during lessons, which is completely fine. until he started saying degrading stuff about the mainstream people (of which i'm in, duh, because i failed physics) and he was treating us like babies. and other other stuff i don't wanna talk about. so yea. and when i came out of the class i was really on the verge of crying.

skipped double gp lecture, went down to the grandstand to accompany jingmin who'd been sitting there since lunch and finished my waves tutorial. (i don't care, mr physics teacher, i'm just gonna finish the entire thing and not give a shit about which questions you want us to do first. because as far as i'm concerned, i don't see why i have to wait for you to give me instructions when i can jolly well finish it by myself. so there.) after that, went to the council room to get the math va stuff which i chucked inside my locker. then started working on the va until about 3.45 when the other people came down. was supposed to run with soccer girls but ended up just running one round and going back to do VA because my group members were leaving.

so did VA all the way until six. and a certain group member of mine just totally pissed me off by standing around, observing and not doing anything at all. and disappearing halfway to do i dont know what. and omg, i was playing music on my phone, and she'd suddenly go, hey! that's a nice song!, and pick up my phone WITHOUT ASKING and send it to her phone. or at least i hope that was what she was doing and not invading any privacy by reading my texts or something. and she would just stand there being silly and stupid. especially with the glue. LONG STORY. not worth my breath. and she was just observing what i was doing towards the end, while we were almost done, and so i told her what time she had to leave, and she said as soon as possible, and i was like "you can leave now if you want to, we'll finish up here". and she goes NOOOO, I'LL WAIT TIL YOU FINISH. and do you know her f--king reason?! Because she knows that when she goes we will bitch about her!!! THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID!!! Although in horrible english. I WAS THINKING, I DONT NEED YOU HERE, YOU CAN GO. YOU'RE NOT DOING ANYTHING ANYWAY, SO GO AHEAD, JUST LEAVE! I DON'T WANNA SEE YOUR SLACKER FACE! Of course I didn't say that to her face because I didn't want to be a bigger bitch than I already was. But ZOMG. She was pissing the hell out of me. Anyway, stupid girl, if I wanted to bitch about you I can do it ANYTIME, ANYWHERE. And you can't stop me. And for some reason, maybe stress and all, I wanted to just cry. and cry and cry the stupid stress and hate away. it's amazing huh, i was the one almost crying even though i was the mean one. And I asked her to do some stuff, and she made some stupid excuse that I just didn't want to deal with anymore, so I just decided to do it by myself. I just can't believe she's so selfish. This is a GROUP PROJECT for fuck's sake. and on sunday, during the meeting at KAP, she would do stuff randomly without consulting the rest of the group, like asking us if it's okay. and she would shoot down people's ideas with "carry on with your work! you think that can be done?". I'm just putting it in better english. ARGH. I don't know what else to say man.

SPAIN WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am really really tired now so I'm gonna sleep after writing this entry. But anway the match was awesome!! I was up working on nothing in particular, reading physics SPA notes (but not fully concentrating), all the way til 2.30am when Gabriella messaged me and asked me to watch the closing ceremony because apparently some balloon thingie was really cute, so I turned it on and omg, it was so funny! Haha. Enrique Iglesias performed too. I can't stand him. Apparently his dad used to be a pretty famous goalkeeper. The match was good. Germany started well, Spain started crappy and my heart was beating so fast! I remember saying to my sister after 11 minutes, if Spain continue to play that way, Germany will win. Anyway the sexy spaniards (and their far from sexy coach) must've heard me because they started picking up the pace. (: And they did really well! Spain played so so good. (: Michael Ballack was less than inspiring for the Germans. Sometimes, I swear, I wanna punch his arrogant face. Fernando Torres was awesome. and sexy too. HE SCORED!! I was elated!!! FERNANDO TORRES!! The guy whom I named a blog after. I still remember the awesome present Leanne and Sophia and Kaitlyn gave me for my 15th birthday, the photo album they created of pictures of me and fernando together. OMG. And the camera kept shifting to the Spanish bench, and I saw poor injured David Villa. Top scorer of the this year's championships. (: and Casillas was very reliable, made like no mistakes! Not the same can be said about Lehmann though. And Spain could've scored more, there were some pretty unlucky misses. Omg during the closing stages of the game I was so scared that it'd go to extra time, because the German balls (no pun intended) were pulverizing the Spanish goal and I was so afraid that they would score. And I really didn't want it to go to penalties because, well, Spain suck at it and the Germans rock hard at penalties. But Spain held on in the end. SO HAPPY. I was falling asleep throughout the match, but thankfully the exciting football kept me awake. I slept during half time, haha. But after the match I was too excited and elated and high to sleep, even though I was yawning half the time. WOOHOO. (:

Slept for a couple of hours, was supposed to reach school by 830 to meet ahem some idiot (aka keith chnioh) who didn't know what to do for physics spa and wanted my notes. Anyway both of us overslept haha. And so we pushed the time back to like 915. And I fell asleep again. On the couch! Haha and in the car. Anyway at least my mom was taking me to school, so I didn't have to walk one big round. The side gate was closed already. At least I didn't have to write my name down in the latecomers book. But then again, I wouldn't have been a latecomer anyway, since I was supposed to report by 930 and was in fact EARLY. But my classmates said that a few of them had to write their names down. Ah well.

Physics SPA was easy. I kinda prefer SPA over the old practical, because if we screw one up we can kinda compensate for it, because we're assessed so many times, but for the O Level one-shot one, you're screwed if you screw it. Does that make sense?

And I got my chinese VA today!! THANKS LIWEN YOU ARE AWESOME. Haha. Woohoo. It's due like next tuesday so I have some time to type it out nicely, print it and decorate it. (: yay.

So left school, went to town with Leena and Liwen and Leena pangsei-ed us!! We were like...huh. Okay. We went to Wheelock, and I got stopped at Borders because the stupid security alarm system thingie went off. Turned out to be my wallet. So they demagnetised it. THANK YOU BORDERS SECURITY GUARD. Went to eat lunch at NYDC. and I ran into CHARLOTTE AND ALMAS AND ALEX!! Haha charlotte and almas. And omg the first thing almas said was "OMG VANESSA!!!" and the second thing was "SPAIN WON!!!!!!" hahaha. woohoo spain and fernando torres.

Went home after that and I fell asleep on my bed for FOUR HOURS. I didn't draw the curtains so when I woke up it was really bright, the light coming from outside and everything, and I went "OMG did I sleep through the whole night"? Haha so funny. Then my first instinct was to reach up and touch my eyeball to see if my contacts were still there. And they were. And I looked at the clock and it was like 6-something pm and I was like OOHHHH.

Okay I'm gonna go now because I need sleep, but I'm gonna leave y'all with awesome pictures!

 

xoxo
Vanessa

O M G.

 

 

Haha okay I haven't updated in quite a bit. Stupid Common Tests sucking the energy out of me. Like seriously, I come home, eat lunch, bathe, and promptly fall asleep. Without even mugging. And I wake up at like ten pm and panic and go, what the hell, just go back to sleep. Haha. Okay I am so so so freaking screwed for CTs. This is the result of watching TV or falling asleep or watching Euro 08 when I'm supposed to be mugging. Euro 08 has caused me to wake up at like 2pm, although it helps that I study all the way to 2.45am before a match starts. But I've had like no mood to actually study properly. Like this was like random floating around. I think I studied harder for tests last year. First day was GP and Econs and they were actually pretty much okay, so I was quite encouraged and went home to mug chem for damn long on monday night. But chemistry on tuesday was ZOMG HORRIBLE. If I'd known that it would be so freaking hard and that my mugging (which wasn't real mugging anyway) wouldn't have counted for anything, I would've just slept through the whole of monday. It was so so horrible, I left the equivalent of three pages blank, including the whole last page. What the hell I just hope I can pass chem. Wednesday was math and it was not bad, but I don't think I can score an A, and ms chua is so gonna kill me because I'm in accelerated math. But it was more like not studying enough, hence I didn't know how to draw the dy/dx graph, and also some other stuff that I totally blanked on. Left some weirdo parts blank, and the parts that I did ain't exactly all right either. Damn it, Math is supposed to be my forte! After that was chinese listening comprehension, which was really really easy. (: Haha the only thing I'm confident of passing with an A! Sigh sigh. Physics was today, and if I thought chem was bad enough, oh gosh, I should've known better. Omg I did all the holiday homework they set from some purple book they gave us, and I knew how to do like more than 90% of the questions, but I totally couldn't do the CT! They split the paper into three parts, and the second part, the short answer part, I totally screwed. I left like HALF the paper blank. I didn't know what I was writing for most of the other half. So so so damn screwed. At least I could do the third section. But omg, all the easy questions like "define simple harmonic motion" and "explain what is meant by upthrust" I couldn't do because I didn't memorize stuff that well, except the Laws and the formulas. I was like ZOMG, are you kidding me?! I'm just hoping I don't get a U for physics, I think I'd be pleased with a S. But even a S is out of reach now. :(

After physics there was physics lecture and I was too distraught and my attention span was like fully-utilized for the day so Liwen and Keith and I left school. Haha we went to Cine, and silly Liwen didn't want to watch a movie, even after massive begging on our part, so we ate at Pasta Mania. Walked to HMV (I bought the Sum41 CD and the Man United DVD....woohoo!) and then to don't know where. Erm around Isetan and Wheelock and Paragon and Shaw and Starbucks at Lido (not necessarily in that order) and we did loads of shit like put blusher on Keith and the woman at the counter was staring at us. And omg, we saw a group of Nan Hua primary students outside Paragon, and Keith and I were like "eh! your senior! She's from nanhua" and pointing at Liwen, and Keith was like "next time you'll become like her" and while we were walking away we heard one boy shout "BUT I DONT WANT" and omg, that sent Keith and I into fits of laughter! And Liwen was really embarrassed haha. It was seriously funny. Hahahaha. Haha suaning Liwen alot, like how she'd look in the SCGS uniform (just imagine it!) and if we go bowling can we use her as a bowling ball. Haha. So terrible. And story of the day, we saw these students from, we presume, an international school, and their uniform was so damn gross. It was like a checkered skirt (with huge squares) and blue blouse and their socks were freaking high and their skirts were freaking high, tucked in, and long. That was in HMV and I dragged Liwen behind one of the shelves and immediately attempted to pull my skirt waayyyyy up. But obviously I couldn't achieve their effect because my skirt rode up and became like a mini skirt. Haha it was so so funny. After that we saw them EVERYWHERE. Then took a train from Somerset to City Hall. Went to Marina Square. Bowling. OMG I totally sucked at it. Like more score was TWENTY EIGHT haha. And I taught Liwen how to throw the ball and in the end her score turned out to be almost twice that of mine. Sucked. What a waste of money. Wandered around many shops and called Luther and Mylene and tried to persuade them to come. And failed. And Keith pretended to be Youjie while on the phone with Mylene and I think she ALMOST believed it. Haha. Dinner at Long Johns Silvers. I didn't eat. And omg we started talking about academics and I got so depressed and I found out Liwen's gonna have Math, Chem and Physics tuition! Like omg! And we swore not to sleep in lectures and tutorials anymore and to do the tutorials conscientiously (i.e. not copy from anyone) because we have to do freaking well for promos! Seeing that we all screwed CTs. Anyway we left after that. Liwen didn't want to share a cab with us cause she lives like on the other side of the island! The cab ride cost SO MUCH because that was this massive traffic jam. It cost like $12-something to my place and about $20 all the way to Keith's. Damn expensive! Keith said the idea of tuition is very tempting right now. OMG YES. I will fail. Seriously. Chem and physics. Can do econs and math on my own, but my chem and physics really suck. Maybe it's because I never really studied properly. Argh. So time for tuition man.

I solemnly promise to mug for promos, and mug way in advance, and do my tutorials properly, and listen in lectures, stop ponning lectures and classes, stop sleeping in the lectures and classes I actually attend, and get 4 As for promos. I HAVE TO. I AM SO DEAD.

piano exam tomorrow! (technically, LATER)

i'm freaked.

 
Coach Patent Francine Satchel Brass/Mahogany

Louis Vuitton Monogram Multicolore Beverly GM

Manchester United Season Review 07/08
(I'm ordering it online!)

Manchester United Training Top - Comet Red
(ordering online too!)

Manchester United Hoodie - Comet Red
(yet another order from the online store)

Spain national kit (: I wanna print "David Villa 7" on the back. Not sure where I can get that done though. :(

And I want/need a new water bottle. Since I'm always having to drink from others' bottles or buy my own drinks. Any Nike water bottle will do. But not the squirt squirt one. Haha I had that in primary school!

I need new sunglasses too. (: But they're not high on my priority list since I have quite a few pairs. My favourite's the Dolce and Gabbana one though. Explains why there are scratches on the lens. Use them too much. But I still love them and wanna keep them for as long as I can. (:

And loads of new clothes. I shall go shopping the weekend straight after CTs. (before physics SPA) First stop: Guess. Second? Armani Jeans. And so on and so forth.

From tonight onwards, no more Euro 08 matches starting at midnight. For the next four days, it'll be 2 matches simultaneously at 2.45am. And after that, one match per night. Finally, time to catch up on my sleep! Although I'll miss watching two soccer matches a night, I sure won't miss sleeping at five and waking up at ten. (For instance, this morning, when I was almost late for church). Although yesterday was pretty good- I got up pretty late. But I'm gonna miss the intensive 45 minutes of mugging between the 2 matches.

Piano exam on wednesday! Omg. I failed it once already, I'm not gonna fail again. I must get my diploma!

Another studio practice for the exam tomorrow, from 12 to 1. That means I have to rush off after training, again. And I'm not sure if I can make it for training. My parents are really getting pissed that I'm spending all my time on soccer. Like omg, whatever. And I need to catch up on my sleep too. Portugal playing tonight! Or rather tomorrow morning haha. And I must admit I love watching Croatia beat the crap out of everyone! Croatia has to have the ugliest players but omg, they play awesome. The most boring part of the tournament so far has got to be the first half an hour of Greece vs. Russia this morning. It was so boring, I was falling asleep! I don't know why I wanted to watch it in the first place, but I had serious doubts after Eugene (Teo) reminded me of "the greek back 4 passing the ball between them in a triangle 7 consecutive times". But I still watched anyway. And Keith said his dad managed to watch Euro on the internet FOR FREE. Like are you kidding me?? That's like impossible! Okay maybe not but omg, I like paid $20+ to watch!! Well at least I get to watch it on a huge flat screen TV. (: The stupid guy called me during Sweden-Spain half time to brag about free Euro 08 and ask about the next match. Like what the heck. The other day Jeffrey also mentioned that he could get free telecast from Indonesian channels using his TV antennae, but how the hell do you get free telecasts ONLINE?!

Omg I just realized that I have Math and Chinese VAs due a couple of weeks after the hols. Like omg, I'm in deep shit. Because I HAVEN'T STARTED DOING ANYTHING!!! Omg omg omg omg. I don't have time to train for Nike 10k run! I knew this would happen, so I didn't sign up. And people were like, there's still Great Eastern and Standard Chartered runs, (and the new paper big walk. i can't believe they mentioned that!) but I'm like, this is NIKE!!! NIKE!!! The rest cost like ten bucks to run, but nike costs like thirty plus. but WHO CARES?!?! It's NIKE! Like omg, I was so upset when I found out the run was on 31st aug. Why can't it be later?

Okay okay back to mugging. AGAIN. I'm doing physics now. Must finish by midnight! Because I wanna sleep before the matches haha. (: And I wanna start on chem tomorrow.

OMG OMG OMG. I freaking hate physics! Argh. I've been doing physics the WHOLE day. Well since after returning to NJ after piano studio practice. Which was after soccer training. Grrrrr stupid physics. I can actually do SOME questions. As in SOME. The MINORITY. Physics is driving me insane. Omg I don't think I can pass physics! Like I don't even understand some of it. Maybe that's because I haven't started mugging for physics yet. Maybe I'll understand after mugging. I HOPE. Because I HAVE TO PASS PHYSICS. Or my parents are gonna kill me because they say I've been PLAYING AND WATCHING TOO MUCH SOCCER. What the hell. I'd die without soccer. Serious. OMG FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I HAVE EXAMS DURING MAJOR TOURNAMENTS. And I swear I'm gonna finish the stupid holiday homework or else I'm not gonna let myself watch Croatia vs. Germany. I have ONE HOUR. I'm not even thinking about watching Austria vs. Poland. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME PASS PHYSICS!!

Thanks to Chuck and Blair and Episode 7 (Victor/Victrola) of Gossip Girl, Sum 41's With Me has become the #1 make-out song of all time! (at least according to me)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wOgx6k-MJTo

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you
I wait here forever just to to see you smile
Cause it's true I am nothing without you

Through it all
I've made my mistakes
I'll stumble and fall
But I mean these words

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
And I'll hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

Thoughts read unspoken forever and now
Pieces of memories fall to the ground
I know what I did and how so I won't let this go
Cause it's true I am nothing without you

On the streets
Where I walked alone
With nowhere to go
I've come to an end

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
And I'll hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

In front of your eyes it falls from the skies
When you don't know what you're looking to find
In front of your eyes it falls from the skies
When you just never know what you will find
What you will find what you will find
What you will find what you will find

I don't want this moment to ever end
Where everything's nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
And I'll hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

I want you to know
With everything I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
And I'll hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go