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Javajunky16

I'm bored w/ having a top-secret site.  It sucks.  So i want ppl to come on there and read and comment!  Cuz i get bored easily and as much as i hate drama i hate the mundane as much if not more!  lol And i kind of don't have to worry about ppl leaving me weird or mean or unwanted posts cuz i ahve a new special layout- so u can't really comment unless u have xanga! HAHA!

OK so THIS is def. the last message ever! lol

~Alex~

Ok. I am officially NOT writing on this xanga anymore.  Too many people are looking at ti and everything i write seems to cause trouble- and I think the reason i was glad school was out in the first palce was so i could escape from all the drama. And it's really catching up to me.  And i hate that.  So those of you and you know who you are, who know what my new xanga is, I'll be psoting on there from now on and you can't tell ANYONE else.  I'm only gonna let a few ppl know what it is.  So for the last entry on here:

Laugh. Cry. Share the Pants.

Wow.

Josh Routh called me and we talked for an hour. 

About nothing really, but it was still fun.  But i's cool b/c when i don't hear from him I get all wishful and daydreamy about how "perfect" of a boyfriend he would be. And I hate that /c then I start acting stupid.  But when I talk to him it kinda keeps me down-to-earth, I know how bizarre that sounds but it's liek I know how he really acts and what's really on his mind and the more we talk the more more I realize, No he may not be the right guy for me, but I can't hold that against him.  He's still a great guy and i love to talk to him.

He keeps saying "I'm bored when are you cominghome again??!! He wants to bike down to my house and hang out or liek have em go to the YMCA w/ him or w/e.  And it's AWESUM  b/c I ain't all like head-over-heels I'm jsut liek OK. Cool.  Like a normal person. lol. And he even suggested we got oa movie or soemthing together!  And I was like ok GREAT!  what's playing? what do u wanna see?  Like he were just a friend- which he IS!

And another awesum thing about talking to him that keeps me sane is that he lsitgens to me. "Listen and Respond" lol for all u Hitch-lovers out there!  And I don't have to go along w./ what he says or take crap from him or anything b/c he'll listen to me and he knows me well.  Like I said I ahven't been to the beach yet and I'm sick of Daytona.  He was like how can u be sick of daytona?  I was like uh, I dunno i just am.  He said he'd be at the beach all the time there were cute girls there.  I was liek oh shutup.  And eh said sorry lol! Or liek if I say something blonde he like laughs at em and the I'm liek WHAT?  And he jsut says "I woin't say anything." It's kidna ncie to ahve a guy friend who knows so well liek that. I mean we had as mcuh fun talking about rock music as we did about pop tarts as we did about sleeping in as we did about me talking too fast as we did about him having a deathwish cuz he's always hurting himself. 

So you get the picture.  I love this kid- but he doesn't have to be my boyfriend and in fact i do't think I want him to. This is a breakthru for me. A new horizon lol!!!  Mark it on the calender Mo!  Alex can liek a boy and not have to go out w/ him!!!!

laugh. cry. share the pants.

(PS: Just so you know the old romantic in me hasn't completely vanished- as it never quite will lol- the way he said my name when he said goodbye was REALLY hot! BUT WE'RE ONLY FRIENDS AND WE ONLY WILL BE!)

HOT HOT HOT!!!

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Ugh I am SOOO ready to go home!  Okay so we went out to the Roadhosuae to eat right?  And the wholefreakin time mydadand my stepmom are fighting like 7th graders! I wanted to say GEEZ JSUT SHUT UP ALREADY!!!  They always gt off on this thing "Oh is that ur girlfriend?"  And then go on and ona bout how I'd enver cheat on u and Why is it differnet for you so u can go ahve a drink with someone and i can't? 

And they must honestly think I ca't hear a word they're syaing /c they completely ignore me the whoel time they're goign at it.  And it's jsut ludicrous the whole thing. They get upset overe verything, they NEVER just drop it and forgive each other, and they behave lie children, making a scene in the restaurant, yelling, throwing napkins at each other.  I jsut couldn't beleive it.  I mean they fight like that sure, but enver jsut blatantly infron t of me!  I was like, GAW!  what is your PROBLEM people (What's your damage, Heather?!  lol GG moment Mo)  Anyway I'm jsut over ti and I wanan go home.  I'm sick fo this palce.  I lvoe my dad and all but I ahve zero respect for him as a person right now.... I really should talk to him, but well, u know. How do u tell a person something like that?  UGH life sucks right now.

Except the day kinda redeemed itself /c Mo caleld at like 10 o clock lol and we talked about how sucky our days had been and how sucky summer was and then we both got on these brilliant strikes and we got some ideas for next schoolyear. Like themes for the months and special stuff we're gonna do for our birthdays (it's the two weeks of Gilmore-themed Birthdays, followed by the Best Present Ever, Season 4 on DVD lol) And like GG Month, TSOTTP Month, Reese Witherspoon Month, matching days, etc etc.OOOOO! Mo i jsut had another brainblast. We should find out when Rory and Lorelai's B-days are on the show u kno?  And make cakes or soemthign those days!  How awesoem is that?  Except cakes inda staretd fights last year, so..... i dunno but we need to celebrate they're birthdays!!!

Infinite x's and o's.................... Alex

PS: Yes Brad I was goign completely independent as far as guys go next year, BUT if the right guy happens to coem along than bbye bye independence, but no constant switching this year cuz that was jsut stupid.  I only get one guy to liek next year and whether he becoems my boyfriend or not is beside the point. lol  I'm challanging myself. Dating is a waste of time unless u know that eprson likes u, right? Nod ur head yes. Thank you.