So we leave for Arizona on Friday!  I'm super excited!!  We are in charge of the VBS so it's def. going to be diff. Well....it's really over this time...it really is....it really hurts...

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone


Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

just a few quotes.....

i believe in love, in arguing, in jamming out by yourself
in the car. I believe in smiling til your cheeks hurt and
laughing until you cry. I believe in having someone tell
you you're beautiful, dancing in the rain, and miracles.
i believe in second chances, even if you've completely
screwed up.

just promise me. that's all i want.
just a promise that you'll never forget me.
tell me i changed you somehow,
let me know i had an impact on your life.
promise me you'll always remember me,
it's hard enough watching you walk away,
but i don't want to walk the other way
knowing i meant nothing to you.

and even though the photograph of me and you
doesn't go with the way things are now, i still wish
i was back in that picture with you, in your arms.

Sometimes I catch myself wondering where you are,
and how you're doing;; I don't think
I'm ever going to let you go completely.

I don't know if it's the way he
says my name or the way he catches me
staring at him and pretends
not to notice the smile on my face.
Maybe it's the way he makes me feel
about myself, even when I'm down.
But when I look at him I
see all those memories of us.
And I wonder if maybe
he's still seeing them too.   

Have you ever heard a song from so long ago,
with so many memories tied to it that it made you cry?
And didn't you wish that you could go back in time
when everything was simple and carefree?
Those are the songs that are the soundtracks of our lives...
The ones that bring back our childhood, best friends,
first love, first broken heart… the memories..
and all the past just comes rushing back...
and you wonder where it went…

I've memorized
your voice in my head & can hear it in my sleep.

I cry just a little too much,
when I think of your touch
and everything about
you. I'm in the dark,
when our souls are apart.

I GRADUATED!!!!!!

Wow, it's all over and it all went by so fast it seems like.  I'm so happy, but it's kinda bittersweet.  Yea class of '06, we did it!!  This year was an interesting year w/ the whole band thing, but yet it was an amazingly fun year w/ State Convention and all the other activities throughout the year.  Part of me isn't ready for it to be over, but I'm ready to be done w/ school.  Anways. . .My party today went well.  It was really pretty and a lot of fun.  Thanks to everyone who came to graduation last night to support, it means a lot!  Graduation celebration was fun!  I won a trash can. . .yeah I know you're jealous!!(it's going back to Wal-Mart!)  Hopefully I'll get some pics up soon! 

We have from the beginning been REDSKINS and on this night we leave as REDSKINS. . . . REDSKINS for life. -Class of 2006-