desperate momenti'll just say out what i wanna say and shoo off my ass.. i tot that i can pass this time and everything will be fine and i can finally graduate this MAY...but to my disappointment i have one subject that did not meet the requirement which was not what i expected...out of all this subject where i have the most confidence in had failed me..when i found out bout this...i was worried, pressured, desperate, depress, heartache, and anxious. worried for all the tight budget to repeat another semester which i dont want it to happen of course pressured from my family that they had high hopes on me graduating this MAY and i was so sure tat i will... desperate for finding out the real reason behind this failing subject which is not what i expected and never will.. depress for finding out such situation occur to me when i least expected and hit me hard in my mind.. heartache for knowing that i had disappoint my family and myself that this result of mine... anxious to look for alternative ways to fix this things straight... all those mis feelings and fickle minded had conquer my brain the whole day and nite that i had no mood at all to do anything the whole day...i cant tell my parents bout this thing...so i had to keep it to myself and i feel guilty and at the same time heartache for disappointing them this way...i really cant bare to let them know such news that will make them worry bout me...how??? i pray so hard to make this result disappear and telling myself that it is a misculculation or an error in my result...i really wish that it is tat way and not that i'm not capable to pass my final exam...but all in all..i dont mine sitting supplementary paper in this case and i really wish i have the second chance in this...i dont want to waste the time and money again just taking one subject next semester and graduate on sept...this is not what i wanted...and i always dream that i can graduate this MAY...pls pray for me.. i dont mind sacrifising my time and lifestyle in order to graduate this may and i dont mind working my ass off in australia just to graduate in may...i've done and put sooo much effort in this whole yr just to graduate smoothly..and now for the final subject in my final semester...i stopped everything that i had planned.. to someone up there...pls spare me ur intelligience and ur strenght to support my weak heart ...i can barely retain this body full of sorrow and obstacles...for all ur might, i praise u for all the miracle u had done for me...but spare me another one more miracle this time...and i'll be ur truely anytime.. |