Sometimes I sit at home and wonder how it'd be 

If he had loved me 

Truly loved me yes 

I learned a while ago that kind of thing 

Never happens for me 

And so I go around 

And just pretend 

Love is not for me 

I play the circus clown around my friends 

Make them laugh and they won't see 

That you never let them see ya this way 

Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep 

Lord knows it's killing me 

So I put on my make-up 

Put a smile on my face 

And if anyone asks me 

Everything is okay 

I’m laughing cause no one 

Knows the joke is on me 

Cause I’m dying inside 

With my pride and a smile 

On my face 

On my face 

Singing lalalala 

Sometimes I sit at home 

By the phone hoping he might call me 

But he don't call me 

But then I realize 

Dreams come true aren't for girls like me 

Not like me 

And so I go around with my head up 

Like it ain't no thing 

And when the boys around with all my friends 

I’m into other things 

Cause you never let them see you this way 

Don’t want them to think the pain runs deep 

Lord knows it's killing me 

And,so I put my make up 

Put a smile on my face 

And if anyone asks me 

Everything is okay 

I’m laughing cause no one 

Knows the joke is on me 

But I’m dying inside 

With my pride and a smile 

On my face 

On my face 

It’s not as easy (thing) 

Sometimes it’s hard to (face the truth) 

It’s not the life that I would choose (that I would choose) 

But what else can I do? 

If he don’t love me 

If he don’t want me 

I’m not about to sit around 

Let myself go 

So I put on my make-up 

Put a smile on my face 

And if anyone asks me 

Everything is okay 

I’m laughing cause no one 

Knows the joke is on me 

Cause I’m dying inside 

With my pride and a smile 

On my face 

On my face 

Singing lalalala