| | choiceswhen was the last time that you thought about how you really do have the power to choose in so many situations?
for example-i'm tired, and my husband is working at Borders right now, until after i'm in bed tonight, but i'm still choosing to blog.
I'm not particularly enthused about some of mine and josh's circumstances right now, and the biggest thing that has been impressed on my tiny brain in the last week is that i have a choice that i can make, in all situations usually. I can choose to let a crappy day with one of my students send me home emotionally irritable, or i can choose to let it roll off my back and tell myself, 'i am still blessed and still good at my job, so what if one kid doesn't go along with the game.'
i can choose to cry and drink margaritas when josh works until 11:00 and i'd rather be here at home building a life with him, or, i can try to make the best of it and remember how i made it just fine when i was still single and had to sit at home by myself for 3 hours. :)
i can choose to gripe and complain about how my principal and my school right now really pushes for tons and tons of 'educational' focus on testing-related teaching strategies--and how that doesn't line up with my more progressive, social action-oriented philosophy of teaching..or, i can choose to play the game for one year in hopes that this fall, things will be different.
i've found a radio station to listen to here in the city--100.7--and as cheesy as some Christian radio is, it's amazing what one verse, or even one song lyric can do to reroute your perspective when it's 7:30 and all kinds of thoughts are already crashing through one's head. for some reason this has rocked my perspective in the last week: i have a choice to make about how i will choose to allow life to affect me.
the sermon at church this past sunday was good--Michelle really drove the point home that no matter what is going on in life, God is at work in your circumstances. if one knows God and knows what the Bible says about the matter, one 'knows' this. but what is it that causes the head-heart disconnect? i was trying to figure this out yesterday-- i know that life happens, cars like mine get towed and the owners have to pay $160 to get them out :), husbands work too late, you have to do your job in ways that you feel aren't right...at what cost? if we know that following Jesus doesn't make our life any more smooth or less problematic, why then do we fret and flip out when life happens? it's simple..and the author of Ecclesiastes got it SO RIGHT when he stated that God has made us very simple, but we have made ourselves very complicated.
so there you have it. i've just realized in the past week how much of my life i really do have control over, in terms of how i will choose to allow its events to affect me. it just doesn't seem quite right that i continue to plow on through life without taking the time out to realize that things aren't always as hopeless as they appear, and i have to remember that that's my living hope as a believer. if i stop living like i believe it, chances are, my life will look just like everyone else's. and that's not what will bring healing to so many who are looking for God and have screwed up ideas about how to truly know Him.
a funny aside: Leroy was in the sink with dirty dishes tonight. yes, the sink..the same sink that has in it a dirty skillet with an egg omelette-ring still stuck to the top, the same sink that has the egg-covered spatula in it, the same sink that my coffee grounds and day-old coffee get dumped into. this clueless kitty was in THAT sink tonight. it really made me laugh!
 
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| | Posted 1/15/2008 10:09 PM - 1 comments
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