im still here. & starting up on ana... yet again. i wasnt ana for about a year, got pregnant in march & unfortunately lost my baby just before the 2nd trimester (even tho i was eating healthy, taking vitamins, & everything ='[ sometimes it just happens). so i want to be thin again. lose the 2 1/2 month baby weight.

todays poison:
-2 goldfish
-1 bite of spaghetti o's
(i was babysitting)
-venti unsweetened no room iced coffee

starting about two hours ago... im on a 24hr fast (i might turn it into 48hrs).

Hi girls!

For those of you girls that live with your parents/loved one and they are starting to bug you about your eating habits, forcing you to eat, etc heres something that worked wonders for me:

When i was first ana i lived with my parents. fortunately now, i live on my own now and so i can do whatever the fuck i want. when they started realizing what was going on they tried to get me to eat but if you have a big cup hidden in between your legs under the table or, if you're laying in bed or on the couch [for example, when i was on bedrest], put the cup in between your legs and wear a blanket [dont need the blanket for if you're sitting at the table]. When they are looking, play with it so it looks like you are about to eat it [scoop it up, stab it with your fork, cut it, whatever], and when they arent looking, quickly scoop the food into the cup. When its full, quietly hide it under the table or next to the couch and then when its safe enough, like later on after they've left the house or moved on to another part of the house, discard it in the garbage disposal or the trash.

And to all of you that are asking how i lost 50+ pounds in less than 4 months, here you go! Sometimes i would lose a pound a day, sometimes up to five, sometimes none at all.

what i did to lose 50+ pounds in less than 4 months is eat 300 calories or less per day [be VERY strict about that & try to eat no calories from fat] & if you go over subtract the extra calories from the next days calorie count, fast [have only fat-free, relatively calorie-free liquids such as water, coffee, & grapefruit juice for 24 hours] at least once a week, and drink LOTS of large/venti unsweetened iced coffees at starbucks [it flushes out your system]. i didnt even exercise like at all [no time] and after a while you lose your cravings. think about your favorite foods in terms of how much you'll hate yourself & regret eating it tomorrow and days after, not how it'll taste in the instant that your having it.

pretty much i lived off of starbucks' venti unsweetened iced black coffees, jamba juice's 16 ounce strawberry nirvanas, applesauce, water, and anything that had super low calorie counts and no calories from fat.

The reason why I cant show my face is for fear that my friends that know of my past [pre-recovery program] might run across this site and know that i have gone back to my old habits.

STAY STRONG GIRLS!

I'm here if you need anything.

xoxo anorexic_darling.

Well I haven't recieved any specific questions from you girls. Most of what caused me to succeed in losing 50+ pounds in 4 months is below in the blog before this, which allowed me to lose from 1 pound a day sometimes to 5 in 2 days other times. So if you have any specific questions or concerns, feel free to ask them.

To kick off my welcome-back-to-ana:
72 hour fast.
so far: 18 hours down, 54 more to go.
anyone wanna join?

Todays poison:

water                              0 Calories [0 from fat]
coffee                             0 Calories [0 from fat]
whooooooo i feel     Total: 0 Calories [0 from fat]
better already.

i'll add on to this entry for today
as i get questions.

xoxo anorexic_darling

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