Currently Playing The Changing of Times By UnderOath see related

I am fed up. Things have been good lately. My grades [except the few I knew wouldn't so that great] are good right now. Things with my friends have been good too. I've been fine at home. Up until last night. If my brother hadn't been such a stupid fucking liar, I might have had a shot at pure happiness tonight. BUT NO! He fucked up&made things worse. There was no way to catch my mom in a good mood after what that stupid bastard did! I was so upset last night that I went in my room&cried on my bed around 8. I fell asleep. I woke up at one point, starving, but all I could hear was screaming. I don't know what time it was, but I didn't bother to get up. There was no way I was going to be put in all this shit&get bitched at. I was upset enough. Yeah, I got 12 hours of sleep. Big deal. I'm still upset. I cried again today. I'm sick of her referring me to everything else in the world. I don't think referring is the right word, but fuck it, I don't care. If something bad happens somewhere else or to someone else, it means it's going to happen to me&whatever it is, I can't do it. Something I've wanted for over a fucking year was once again taken away from me. So I'm not even going to bother next time I have a chance because I know someone is going to fuck it up. I am done.

Sorry for the bitchy/whiney post. [just remember, you didn't have to read it]