Our physical exam and dental today in UP was at some parts a nightmare, and at some parts enjoying. We went there at I think 8 AM, and after comprehensively reviewing every single detail in the necessary requirements and important dates, we were all ready to go, confident yet still a little anxious (especially my anticipation of me getting naked for the doctor's exam). UP did a good thing in setting PE and Dental for 2 courses a day, so that the day will not be too cramped up and spiteful. My mom met up with her director friend there so he guided us into the building it was held. He left us with the nurse responsible, and also left us more dignified and more urgent to the eyes of the staff, since we came with their boss, and since he was calling my mom "mam'" all the while. So, thankfully, the nurses were nice and asked us of the nec. reqs. That is where the nightmare began for us.

The nurse told us that we have to come there with the X-ray and Dental results, even though the notices given to us didnt tell us we have to, or much more needed to. We asked how to get it, and she said the line was long for the Dental, and the Xray has to be taken somewhere outside, and to add to the insults takes 4 hours to process. We totally panicked, especially since we have to get out of there by 1 since my mom had a very important meeting by 1. We were like totally finding the dental office, and we were sweating all over, since the information given to us when we asked were totally contradictory in terms of the location. My mom even got mad at me for unconciously using some important documents as a fan haha. So we found after going back and forth and sweating like maniacs, and got my teeth checked, and discovered I had 3 cavities, and talked to the dentist about how many gradutaed in their batch last year. Two, yep only two out of 20+. My mom decided we had to do the xray in my Dad's office, so we can get a discount on time. So the 4 hours it takes in other hospitals turned out for us 15 minutes. Whew. Btw, there were others before us too, foreigners. Last come first served I guess, just have a family member as a staff.

Now the good part. We got back just in time for the PE, and much to our dismay, the line was especially long. We talked to the nurse we talked to in the morning, and she guided us to the front of the line, in front of the long line of waiting students soon to be my college mates. That's the power of the priveleges of the hiearchy of the Medical world! Haha. I wondered what the others thought. Even better, the PE turned out to be just routine check ups, and no naked exam. I guess they only do it in Diliman.

I wish for these:

(the brown one)

and

(the brown one. yet again)

The other sanuk I bought was to large for me, and I feel like Ive wasted money for something not perfectly fitting. :(

The concept of society, and how society functions, is not for all. Its a pity that those who are not "ideal" as society dictates and believes, are compromised and inhibited of other potentials and skills, which realistically is deemed unuseful by society. Pity.

1. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
2. Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their ten things and post these rules.
3. At the end of your blog, you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to leave them a comment telling them they're tagged, and to read your blog.

So anyway, I think three people already tagged me (Des, Dessa and Gabe) so what the hell, its a good idea. Please excuse me though if I tend to get so out of the topic, or if I babble too much or something, since the very concept of my existence is the most preferred. :D

1. Lets start with my most kept secret. Its really embarassing for me, and I'm sure it has pretty much the geeky nature or something. I cant ride a friggin' bike. It was so embarassing when Ive decided that ill try to learn it, and invited my dad to the park so he can teach me. I kept falling off, and lots of people were looking. To add to the insult though, some of them actually offered advice. I felt so retarded. I kinda want to try it again though, if ever I could. but I couldnt handle the very act of falling down the conrete garage (yes, only in the privacy of our driveway will I practice, if ever, free from the scrutiny). But it doesnt matter that much now though. Heck, I get a laugh out of it from time to time. :D

2. I hate conformity. In everything I do, I dont want it to be the same as what others do, or what is "commonly done". I have no idea why really, if ever its like some past trauma, or just I was programmed for this disgust for the common flow of society or something. I like to dress nice, given that I dont look like everyone else, and that I am not categorized into the narrow stereotypes.

3. Im the most wasteful in our family. My mom told my brother once that even if I was a joy being with when going out, I was still the most wallet burning of the three of us siblings. Its not a matter of shopping or preference for famous brands or anything really, but the criterias I consider in buying or dining. In shopping: nice environment, element of artistry in the products, freedom from the feeling of "morning family shopping chore," entailed by loud cries from the babies. In dining: good food, nice environment and ambience. When I go to a place thats so family-ish (perfect example is the feeling of shopping in groceries or cheap department stores in the afternoon), I tend to get depressed, no over-exaggeration intended. I guess im just not  that adaptive. Thats why i would like to sorround myself with class, which is possibly another trauma of mine. Though its not always like this, if given the choice, my preference/decisions would always be a bit heavier for the wallet, as compared to my borther's decisions. I blame my zodiac sign for it.

4. People say im smart, but I feel stupid most of the time. There are so many things I dont understand, and when Im given an idea or instructions or something, I tend to misinterpret or miss out little details that are essential. The outcome thus is fiasco or it being akward. I think the fact that I know more than others because I study, not really because of me being naturally smart, or meticulously perceptive or definitely not me being a fast learner.

5. I still sleep with my lamp on. My biggest fear, conciously, is perhaps fear of ghosts. I tend to over stimulate my wariness after ghost stories or movies, and even some memories tend to last as long as a couple or years or so. I still have this fear, brought forth from a TV documentary I saw when I was 6 or 7 or 8, that some ghost will grab my feet as I sleep, or flick it, and that is why I sleep with blankets on, or my underfeet not exposed. I am still waiting for the onset of maturity and adulthood to clear this big fear of mine. :(

6. I get mean when Im bored or stressed, so watch out. I can be totally judgemental or insensitive if Im in a bad mood, but if I was not, Im nice... I guess. Haha.

7. I am artistic, yet I always tend to freak people out with it. They said my art is too dark or something. I still think sadness and melancholy is a beautiful concept for art. I actually used to enter poster making contest held in High School. I never win. I did manage to win 3rd place once, since the judge was an art teacher, and told them to include my entry since it was interesting and abstract. The other contests they say that my paintings were not very postery. I guess theyre right. I did paint Mary once with her womb open and Jesus inside, while an angel pouring water over it. Its my fault I guess, I got lost in the context of it all.

8. I love music, but Im very picky when it comes to picking those I like. It has to be either organic or mellow, and definitely has to be artsitic and unique. Organic in a sense that its free of electric accompaniments. Mellow, like that of Norah Jones or Jack Johnson, I hate loud music. Im not into pop, rnb, rap, and the common genres, but I love Jazz and Blues and those types that are uncategorizable. My friends think Im a freak for it.

9. Its hard for me to be satisfied. Period. I always look for greener pastures, and little alterations in the pursuit for perfection. Its not a god thing really, since this entails unhappiness in the end.

10. I hate afternoons. They show details I dont want to see, like dust, and blemishes or sweat. But basically because it brings forth heat. I love te rain. I dont get it why people hate the rain. I love gloomy days, and dark clouds, where its windy, and you become friends with a cup of cocoa.

Gabe:   haha, I didnt really see it at first. If I hadnt read the title: "Queer Eye for the Straight Guy", Never would I have thought they were gay! They're just the most sophisticated gay men I ever laid my eyes on! Basically, the reason why I don't approve on homosexuality because it's a sin. Period. :)

Arden:   hmm, pero you know homosexuality is not a choice. So basically, people are born homosexuals, so does that mean some people go to hell for who they are, and for something they have no control over? Isnt that just unfair, and if ever it is a sin, homosexuals should not have been born right from the start kung ganun lang pala. What do you think?

Gabe: hmmm... I know that there are people saying that they born that way, but it doesn't mean they really have no control over it.  Sorry, but I don't agree that homosexuality is not a choice. We always have a choice! Some people just don't see it that way. Well, there probably is some impulse or something dictating that you are you-know-what, but you can either trigger it or stop it. Feeling lang ng iba hindi nila kaya kasi madali silang nag-gigive in. I know that it's hard, yes. But if you really have firm spiritual beliefs, you wouldn't fall for small things like that because you know what is right and what is not. Life's that way... it's all a matter of choice. :) This is just my opinion. Ü     Arden: hehe well youve got a point. my question now is, why did it become a sin in the first place? Gabe: Homosexuality is a sin because the Bible says that it is... I've read books in the Bible pertaining to homosexuality as a sin... But I don't know exactly where to find them that's why I looked for them in the Net. Don't worry, I checked the Bible and the quoted scriptures are reliable... :) The Bible consistently tells us that homosexual activity is a sin (Genesis 19:1-13; Leviticus 18:22; Romans 1:26-27; 1 Corinthians 6:9). Romans 1:26-27 teaches specifically that homosexuality is a result of denying and disobeying God. When a person continues in sin and disbelief, the Bible tells us that God “gives them over” to even more wicked and depraved sin in order to show them the futility and hopelessness of life apart from God. 1 Corinthians 6:9 proclaims that homosexual “offenders” will not inherit the kingdom of God. God does not create a person with homosexual desires. The Bible tells us that a person becomes a homosexual because of sin (Romans 1:24-27), and ultimately because of their own choice. A person may be born with a greater susceptibility to homosexuality, just as people are born with a tendency to violence and other sins. That does not excuse the person choosing to sin by giving into their sinful desires. If a person is born with a greater susceptibility to anger / rage, does that make it right for then to give into those desires? Of course not! The same is true for homosexuality. However, the Bible does not describe homosexuality as a “greater” sin than any other. All sin is offensive to God. Homosexuality is just one of the many things listed in 1 Corinthians 6:9-10 that will keep a person from the kingdom of God. According to the Bible, God’s forgiveness is just as available to a homosexual as it is to an adulterer, idol worshipper, murderer, thief, etc. God also promises the strength for victory over sin, including homosexuality, to all those who will believe in Jesus Christ for their salvation (1 Corinthians 6:11; 2 Corinthians 5:17). btw, why are you so interested on this? wala lang... curious lang. Ü Arden: haha wala lang. ive been in debate last summer, and we have tackled things like this, and plus its basically me not being fully content to what people tell me. I like the article above saying that: (aba aba, hindi ko ma copy! ang galing haha! anti plagiarism?) it is the same with other sin, same case as to succeptibility, and that does not excuse them for indulging themselves over their identity. that really gave me a new insight. parang with kleptos, kahit born silang ganon, they have no right to further be kleptos, and perhaps that is their major cross they have to bear. Thanks for that. So anyway, I am still a little fuzzy on how they are considered as sin. my teacher tells us that they defy the complementary nature of love and relationships. But this certain concept of it being ideal (man+woman) is merely human conceived. This idea that gays are evil are just human society dictating these things for their own sake, and not directly from GOD saying: "gays are evil!!". Ok, lets say that it is in the bible, that homosexuality is a sin. Let us remember that the Bible was compiled by the Nicean (not sure of the spelling though) creed: a HUMAN council on what to put in the Bible. SO, isnt it possible that it being wirtten in the Bible as a sin was for the then active council's protection of their own rights for whatever reason, or nurturing their disgust and personal opinions? Furthermore, i think that all anti-homosexuality Bible passage were written in the Old Testament. I believe I can finally consider it a sin when there is evidence of it being a sin as said by Jesus, or as wirtten in the New Testament, and also if they can justify why IT is evil, when in fact there are no violations of people's right or livelyhood. So in a nutshell, I still believe that homosexuality being a sin is merely from society's disgust. If only someone asked Jesus when he was still alive if ever it is evil, then all would be in peace. Or maybe there were really a case of someone asking Him, but was actually cut off from the BIBLE, or was not documented at all. Its possible right? PS: I think I might post our little debate in my blog. :) Gabe: ideal are made by us, human beings. But they are somehow influenced by a lot of factors like spirituality (which I think made big chunks of contributions to this, hehe) and the like, right? I must say, you really made a good point there. Hehe. Oh yeah... If we only know what God thinks about this so that the debates on this will be over... Unfortunately, nobody knows the way He thinks and that's what makes Him God. :) Phew! Ang haba ng ating debate! Hahaha! Sabi na nga ba eh, you're into debates! You remind me of a close friend of mine, hehe. But at least, we've made our points clear. Thanks for sharing your insights! It's a good thing that you're not easily contented with what you hear from people... :) As a Christian, the Holy Bible is my basis on every little thing I believe in. It also serves as my guide in living this crazy life that I have(though there are times when I give in to temptations, hehe). Let's say there may be possibilities that the First Council of Niceae did inject personal opinions on the Bible... Pero di ba wala namang nakasulat sa Bibliya na ikasasama ng kahit sino? The Holy Bible is the one that leads us to the right path --- the path away from sin which will lead us to eternal life. Ü Oo nga pala, my blog is a no right click site. May mga contents kasi yung blog ko before na ayaw kung pakopya... Mas malala nga yung dati kong ginawa dito eh! yeah... sort of an anti-plagiarism strategy... Haha! By the way, feel free to post what we've talked about this on your blog. Ü PS. Mag-UP ka na lang! haha! ;p

Edit: My teacher also said that what is evil is Homosexual acts, not preference. But again, why is it a sin? Is anyone really getting harmed, when in fact teh define sin as those acts that contradict the authentic freedom of human kind. Its not consistent, and for me, purely subjective judgement. They also said that it defies the sanctity of sex and its holiness. I really think that the Church is the only one that says it is sacriligious to the holiness of sex, their own concept of "ideal". Its only my opinion though.

Haha defintely learned a lot! :) Just hoped I didnt irritate her by questioning too much.