wow a lots changed since the last entry....

i wouldnt even know where to start. 

so i'm not going to.

i'll show pictures.

i do love nothing more than wonderful friends...

Dont just walk away Pretending everythings ok
And you dont care about me And I know theres just no use When all your l.i.e.s become your t.r.u.t.h.s and I dont care.Could you look me in the eyes  And tell me that youre happy now Would you tell it to my face or have I been erased, Are you happy now?

so i hate relationship life...

especially when it ends for good...well i hope not.

 i havent talked to xanga in a long time.

and my eyes, like rainy  tuesday's
like to watch you smile.

today and yesterday were the absoulte worst.

basicaly this guy i have been in love with for 1yr and 3months is now trying to get out of my life.

yesterday was my one year with dave. then we broke up yesterday to.

we took a break on spring break and we Fucked that up. but i have never felt this bad in my whole life. i feel as if all my insides have been pulled out.

we want to be together later but i want it now. i didnt want to break up. life is unfair and i'm very selfish right now. but i honestly dont care. he kissed this stupid girl the night before our 1yr while i was out trying to find a prom dress (i'm still going with him)

i dont want to be like this typical hs girl who cant get over it but we really had something. and now i feel like we let it go too soon.

i feel like death.

not one job yet...

you can meet me at henry and seminole. i'll be there.

jk

but no really i need some money...my non environment friendly car likes to suck gas like a dieses sucking life out of a person and then it dies!

i dont know what i'm doing. something just doesnt feel right about a lot of stuff...i dont like people that you get close to and then they fly away almost like there in a fairy tale and they left you in a cave with only a little fire.

blah blah blah

     job???

i need one bad.